tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post757626796319587404..comments2024-03-24T16:53:02.846-07:00Comments on Five Hundred Pound Peep: Self-RespectFive Hundred Pound Peephttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-34135676444186777062015-11-03T17:15:54.515-08:002015-11-03T17:15:54.515-08:00Thanks :) You too. <3Thanks :) You too. <3Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-88681082411623668302015-11-03T17:04:19.559-08:002015-11-03T17:04:19.559-08:00We love you Peep We love you Peep Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12857107089682375889noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-33735662152370422032015-11-03T16:57:35.240-08:002015-11-03T16:57:35.240-08:00OMG. Have to write that one down somewhere and rec...OMG. Have to write that one down somewhere and recite it to myself. That is a great reminder. Yes it is lowering the flag, and surrendering. Thoughts of shouting, "Never surrender"!Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-7309717945592273862015-11-03T16:49:39.721-08:002015-11-03T16:49:39.721-08:00Yes I hated all the unwritten rules and things I s...Yes I hated all the unwritten rules and things I seemed unable to figure out too. Sadly the narcs have taken over a lot of work places. I can see why people are doing the work for themselves thing. My husband I can tell didn't want a narc boss squelching down our future. I have pondered how life would be if he had gotten mentors and those who respected his writing talent [he had a few decent ones tossed in there] but there was far too many narcs. Even one bad penny that showed up twice,Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-77889024826939857502015-11-03T16:38:59.916-08:002015-11-03T16:38:59.916-08:00Thanks Smakintosh. Yes it takes everyone guts to g...Thanks Smakintosh. Yes it takes everyone guts to go NC from a narc family, I am glad I had it. I don't feel very moral today being caught badly maybe on camera by a nosy woman but God will forgive me. I was trying to avoid spouting off at husband which I succeeded at but may have caused myself some other trouble. I had door almost closed, she was catty corner, how much sound could her smart phone pick up. I only opened the door some inches? This is one small snippet in my life. A bad moment in otherwise good day. LOL can you imagine the narcs on film. My mother even said to my brother's girlfriend, "Why are you buying that ****? right to her face. I have to ask God to help me with temper, and Aspie meltdowns. But then I think having emotions is being REAL and HUMAN. The narcs can be the "perfect" cold fish. <br /><br />I agree about only having flesh in common with her, which decays. We have nothing else in common. One of my relatives asked if I was adopted, to other relatives, hey they listened to my musings, I think more and more some know something is wrong. Being away this long, has to give some [the ones still with a conscience] that something went very awry. <br /><br />That sounds like a really good study. Yes we ask ourselves why do they hate us, and do so for years. I came up with reasons, its because I'm fat and poor, blah blah, but then you end up with the thing that they simply wanted someone to hate. That is great to look at David's verse. For so many years, we say "What did we do?". Why would some woman tape someone who is upset and worried? To mock? I wasn't crying but she may have gotten her jollies off that. That reminds me the narcs were obsessed with filming us when we were children. I would love to see these films again now, and analyze them. I saw one last in my 20s. Maybe Queen Spider has burned these videos. It was our earlier years. I saw pictures of myself as a youngster too when I asked, "Why does she hate me so much?" and remember thinking it was a mere child and very young. Age 4 and she has just shoved me away. I ask even as a childless woman, how could someone have a baby and hate it. I bonded with babies that weren't even mine while working in day care. I agree about the moral whores. They made it far worse. What if Aunt Scapegoat had actually stood up? What if she fought the fight I am now, then my life would have been a lot better. One thing I was thinking maybe I can be a warning to the next generation even within the family. I'm glad I didn't sell out. I have faults galore but my salvation is in righteousness of Jesus Christ not my own. I agree about eternity of glory. I am glad I won't be spending eternity with them either. I asked God to give me some rest when I pass over, and comfort and hug me, but then by then we will be so happy all this mess will be forgotten. Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-35872736081751513562015-11-03T14:13:28.143-08:002015-11-03T14:13:28.143-08:00I'm glad you recognize the guts it took for yo...I'm glad you recognize the guts it took for you to go no contact with the members of your family who made the choice to take their inner character and moral values from their father, the devil (1 John 3:8 AMP). Children of Satan do not deserve my respect - does this not go without saying? No Peep, you are of the Light...the inner character and moral values dwelling in you came from the Creator of all Life and Source of all Truth. The only thing you have in common with your morally bankrupt, Satanically inspired and energized mother is flesh - flesh that decays and eventually passes away. I'm doing a study on the narcissist's hatred without a cause. David lamented this in Psalms. "My enemies hate me without reason or cause." These are creatures who hate for no reason, no sane or sound explanation. No law of Divine or human origin supports the narcissist's hatred. Not one principle exists within the context of human interaction or societal norm that supports the narcissist's hatred. There is no logical defense of the narcissist's hatred. They hate because it's who they are; it's what they are. They are of their father the devil, who was a murderer from the beginning. The spiritually lazy family members who continue to enable and provide supply to these demons are moral whores. They have sold out. I'm really glad you didn't sell out. We have an eternity of Glory waiting for us, and I'm looking forward to spending it with you, big time. Your "mothers" father will be waiting for her as well on the other side. I'm so glad I will NOT be spending an eternity with her. smakintoshhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11643706541390923318noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-12354308615407438352015-11-03T09:18:26.515-08:002015-11-03T09:18:26.515-08:00I remember thinking that jobs were easy to perform...I remember thinking that jobs were easy to perform, the pay was good enough for me to survive and the working hours was good. However, there were mean, backstabbing people who wanted to find ways to get me fired for no reason and that there were many unwritten rules. I used to ask job counselors and vocational rehabilition counselors to advocate for me so I could keep my job and asked them why some people were able to keep their jobs and I couldn't.<br /><br />There were unwritten rules at work. Now that I know that the working world favor narcs and malignant narcissism, I wonder if it was a game of chess or checkers. Sometimes, I think it was a game and a sham. I consider Entrepreneurship for the past two years so I don't have to work for a corporation who demands me to be a narc in order to keep my job and get my income. Grrrrrr. <br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-7834691629847413702015-11-03T05:12:00.329-08:002015-11-03T05:12:00.329-08:00Lowering your standards should be viewed in the sa...Lowering your standards should be viewed in the same light as lowering the flag: Someone died. <br />In this case, you.<br />TWTundra Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12262066568878267648noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-68123026136783635302015-11-03T05:09:38.381-08:002015-11-03T05:09:38.381-08:00Sorry you are dealing with a training with narciss...Sorry you are dealing with a training with narcissistic people. I hate that, I have been ignored and shoved aside. Once I refused to get out of a chair because people wanted to sit next to their narc supply, I said, "What is this junior high?" Yes refuse to put up with it anymore either.Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-36495533948567604402015-11-03T05:08:39.007-08:002015-11-03T05:08:39.007-08:00You're welcome Erin :)You're welcome Erin :)Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-6712380866589849892015-11-02T23:22:09.768-08:002015-11-02T23:22:09.768-08:00I am attending a training this week. Today was th...I am attending a training this week. Today was the first day. People were literally stepping over me to get to the source of their Narcissistic supply.the person sitting next to me. At this point in my life (I am 46 years old) I do and did confront people over their behavior. Why not I have nothing to lose. They are going to literally stomp on me either way. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-44218366545220412172015-11-02T16:09:47.954-08:002015-11-02T16:09:47.954-08:00thank you for this post. erinthank you for this post. erinAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-34326255860455528822015-11-02T06:44:14.057-08:002015-11-02T06:44:14.057-08:00Yes she definitely was a scapegoat. So screwed ove...Yes she definitely was a scapegoat. So screwed over and two GCs in that mix too. My cold sister will probably be taken care of her entire life. Seeing the differences between what happened to us is astonishing. She will be a wealthy woman unless anorexia gets her first. I believe she could be a later life developed anorexic [possible bulimic], I asked her if she had cancer right before I went NC, yes she looked that thin and bad. Watching my mother deride me for severe obesity all my life, the last thing she could become is "fat". I also know her husband forced her to lose 60lbs early in the marriage as well by what she said to me. She's paying the price for Mommy's "love". Still wonder why I meant nothing to her at times. Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-22814957676870053832015-11-01T15:34:49.183-08:002015-11-01T15:34:49.183-08:00Have you read the Mommy Dearest book or seen the m...Have you read the Mommy Dearest book or seen the movie? The movie actress Joan Crawford abused and belittled her adoptive daughter and then freaking cut her out of the will. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-70866838195784287272015-11-01T14:58:08.306-08:002015-11-01T14:58:08.306-08:00Good quote. :)Good quote. :)Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-68060844678360980882015-11-01T14:57:56.363-08:002015-11-01T14:57:56.363-08:00Most normal mothers are protective and loving like...Most normal mothers are protective and loving like you. I never was protected never ever. Too bad TV doesn't warn of the other kind of mothers.Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-31551339339527848712015-11-01T14:57:08.304-08:002015-11-01T14:57:08.304-08:00Thanks Joan also regarding needing the services. I...Thanks Joan also regarding needing the services. I'm tired of having it chipped away at. It is true most have sold out for profit or even popularity and the seediness rules. It's true lack of a conscience skyrockets them up the ranks. No being held back by having guilt or the issues of right in wrong. It's true all those connections but she wanted us to fail and she had blackballed me to everyone. Five Hundred Pound Peephttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05862707335431442713noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-2342927083225105092015-11-01T13:50:55.130-08:002015-11-01T13:50:55.130-08:00I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my kne...I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees. Zapata<br />I want to die a slave to principles. Not to men. Zapata again...........Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-650289478442133391.post-11658069902437050292015-11-01T08:19:48.067-08:002015-11-01T08:19:48.067-08:00Good for you, don't sell out your self respec...Good for you, don't sell out your self respect. This is a tough one. And please don't think of needing services or supplies as something bad of yourself or will chip away at your self-respect or integrity. Profit over principle is the rule for the way the world works now nowadays. Narcs are doing things so seedy.<br /><br />Its amazing what one can accomplish without a conscience. Consciences get in the way, ok, I can imagine what I could accomplish, even now, if I didn't have the conscience thing going on. <br /><br />I don't know why she won't help with the job thing, she has the connections, it makes me so mad, I just want to throttle her for it. Sociopath or not, time to kick narc butt lol. yep feels good to lash out sometimes.<br /><br />Overall, even without a conscience (which would have made an easier life) I would still choose to be a protective momma bear to my kids. Go beat up the world, but be a courageous loving mother. Oh well, that only happens on tv. Joan Shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07775873193806083833noreply@blogger.com