Time does pass fast. I feel like my 30s whizzed by and now my 40s are sliding out of my fingers. My old classmates are grandparents. Most of them got lives. Even the day when I used to be an art teacher and full of hope and excited to move to Chicago seem so far away.
One wants to use and grasp what time they can. I fantasize about things I want to do but they all would require giving up paying rent. There was one winter's day I kept blathering on about seeing New Mexico for the first time. There's times lately where I think throw it to the wind and find somewhere new to go. I miss my days of youth when I could walk in the woods. I wish I had been more adventurous and gone more places.
If you are young and reading this, don't be an old lady full of regrets like me. Don't let people tell you just work brain dead minimum wage jobs and to have no life. The memories that give me solace, I have noticed are all the art, nature, friends, love, concerts and times in my old town. We know we have to change something to end the 9 year rut. There's only so much time left. I can't sit here just growing old and want to make something of the few years I got left.
Boy Howdy my sister and her friends used to MAKE me play Barbi Dolls with them. I am 58 now and my sister is older. I know how much older and if she doesn't send me some cash now I will tell you guys by how much.
ReplyDeleteLOL about the Barbi dolls and revealing sister's age :) I need to start lopping off some years. :p I played with Barbies, we even had some from the 50s a cousin gave us and didn't keep them!!!
DeleteTime does pass. Although I still feel young inside, some of the things I long to do I can no longer do.
ReplyDeleteYeah it went by pass. I lost the last 9 like they went by in a blink. I feel young inside, there's so much I want to do and have been unable to.
DeleteThose same memories;art,nature,friends,love,poetry are some what give me comfort also. Although some friends didn't turn out to be that good.. But it was good while it lasted!
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Yes some of the really bad ones, I had such high hopes for so understand that. Glad you have some good memories too, Suki. :)
DeleteYears went by so far for me. On weekends when I was younger, I watched movies in a movie theater, jog to my favorite restaurants and watch movies in TV when I was younger. I still do the same today, in addition of reading and hanging out with local friends. Hope you will spend the rest of your life doing something you enjoy doing and hanging out with your husband and good friends.
ReplyDeleteYes thing went by so fast. Glad you had good times when young going to restaurants and movies. I eat out sometimes too thought I find cheap deals when I can, it's worth it. One doesn't want life to be all drudge. I do need more fun too, that's something getting shorter in supply in America as they crush everyone to death with bills and achievement goals.
DeleteI shudder at the thought of staying married to the biggest freak I ever met for 20 years. I want that time back. To the younger people who are trying to make it work living in abuse, you are wrong.
ReplyDeleteYes understand. You probably think 20 years I could have used doing something else...I feel the same about a lot of experiences. Yeah young people need to be warned bad relationships, bad jobs, bad places, bad relatives, etc etc, can waste a lot of time. Glad you got out too.
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