Something Doesn't Add Up with Covid....

 Can someone tell me how this makes any sense? Notice all these conditions are severe disabling types of things that can put your life immediately at risk....See more clear picture here. 

Ok read what I said about this, and THINK this one out. 

I get the feeling most humans don't think things out for the long term. Maybe this is my autism, but I read the 1 in 5 will get a serious disease of some sort from even mild Covid cases and think this can't end well. Remember most people I know are on their 3rd or 4th bout and then considering the march of time how are the numbers going to go with this? Either these are all lies, and Covid is really OVER, the PCRs are marking ordinary colds/flus as Covid or humanity is screwed. 

Everyone has returned to normal life, even my local medical centers have done away with all the masking. Most believe Covid is over. 

 
I am talking to my husband about returning to normal life, despite consequences. I know one of us and it's probably going to be me will have to pull the plug, and I do worry I have been a coward even to have waited this long. He wants to wait 6 more months, I asked for a specific time. However I talk to him about this stuff too, and have told him, you know some are saying "Mild Covid" can do bad stuff. So wonder we are stuck on a "frozen" carousel wheel. Its my fault too. Add in that everyone looks sick around us too, most of that I blame on the vaxx but when people say things on Zoom like both grandparents have stage 4 cancer, or two in the same small group got one of each of your "rarer" conditions, it makes you wonder. The constant illness and people who once were hale and hearty looking like they are going to drop, made us constantly hesitant too. 

We had a friend visit for 12 hours and stayed masked and some of it seems to be going into absurdity. I found myself leaving the room to even drink a glass of water. This friend lives normal, he stopped at two vaxxes long ago since they gave him adverse effects but was willing to respect our wishes. He's had Covid three times. I asked him about it and about the symptoms which he described as "different". 

My relationship with the UU church is almost wiped away I've been gone so long. Here's the problem in a nutshell, I have so much wrong with me, I'm scared. My forehead is breaking out, I'm having bouts of muscle weakness, My mobility has worsened. My metabolism scares the hell out of me, money stripped down the food as well as fears of kidney stones. I've had COPD problems from constant weather changes--it's controlled been like that for years, and having labs all over the place and all these years was scared of adding Covid to the mix so that's why I was overly cautious. 

However after three years of this, I know I can't keep going on this way. I'm testing the patience of some friends who by the way were understanding. My health is suffering from the isolation. What kind of life is one locked away? As I wrote in a past article, some people were starting to get angry and impatient. That's definitely happened. One lady at my UU church reached a point of exasperation with me saying no to another gathering and dinner, what could I say? I've missed out on so many events. 

 I have told husband, our few friends are getting sick of the masks where we can't eat meals and relax? What about the Renaissance Faire, are we going to bumble along in masks where I get short of breathe all day with weird spots in front of my eyes just to walk? This is one of the first events I plan to go to in a long time. I even put up my art show in a N95, and had the embarrassing moment of us going down to a table where my art show friend had some drinks and snacks and I chose not to have anything though my husband drank under his mask. She was nice about it, but I wished I could be in her in that moment.  Seeing all these other people live normally and happily has taken a toll.

 I have wondered if I need a therapist for germ phobia at this point, someone to help guide me back into regular life. Maybe I do, I'll admit it. The vaxxes were a failure, most aren't taking them anyway anymore. I did get a lot of art work done from being forced into being a isolated hermit. It made an art show possible. The bright side of the cloud, but this is no way to have a life. I don't want to do it anymore. Maybe people who haven't been so sick just don't understand. 

I have grown more angry at being put in this position to begin with. This is a society that has checked out and is now insane and doesn't care about any truth. Most of us are on our own. Reality is NOT what they are telling us it is. That's all I know. They are lying. Some people I trusted did prove to me, Covid was real, remember when I wondered if it was all a hoax, and even Omicron bought different symptoms.  However I do not know what is going on NOW. There are people who believe like I do on Twitter, that they unleashed bioweapons on us, and it's a two pronged attack via vaxx and virus. 

 There's no one to trust anymore. They all have lied and don't care. Sometimes my intuition goes scary places, where I think the "let it spread" plan is a plan for slow death.  Fill everyone with spikes [from both virus and vaxx] and diminish life spans, but do it in a way where they "aren't caught". I've told myself well I can't live like this for 10 more years or whatever years I got left of life.  Who wants to be lonely [outside of my marriage]  and not make new memories or have any happiness?

The process will be slow enough, no one will ever wake up and only the very old will look around and think 20 years ago, people in their 30s and 40s weren't constantly dropping dead of heart attacks and most women could have a baby if they wanted one.  They know people will return to their ordinary lives eventually even me. They destroyed our world and I want you all to notice something too...

Notice there's no plans for treatments, cures or solutions beyond failed vaxxes for the general public and rebound anti-virals that are already failing. You think they don't have the money to cure it or put some work into curing it?

Why would the CDC post that at the same time they are pushing everywhere opening up? Look at that graphic again, supposedly if you get a mild case, you have a 1 in 5 chance of a severe outcome. How many mild cases are normal living people getting yearly once, twice? I would say 50 percent of people I know have had Covid at least twice, and 50 percent have hit the three times mark since 2020. Do the math here? Do you see the discrepancy?

Who is lying? When people don't know what is going on, it makes all this far harder. I got ideas to quiz doctors and others but they are mum. Some won't even answer the question, "Are people getting Covid anymore?" Some have treated me like I am paranoid, and one housecall doctor even said to me, "Do you wear this mask inside when you are alone?" I laughed things off and said, "No, I don't." We live in a world where if I reacted with anger, it could be used against me. It wouldn't be hard for her to go put that I have lost my mind in my records. She obviously thinks I am psycho for still masking when they come over and having husband mask. They stopped wearing masks but put them on noticing I was wearing them. She could be a conservative that believes it's a hoax, well then tell me. Tell me you have had no patients with Covid in over a year. Don't let me hang on like this. I may ask her the next time I see her. 

No one will answer the question is Covid about the same risk as getting MRSA, I never hid out for MRSA and that has been all over the place for years. So should I start going back to life? They always give me vague answers. I wanted the promise of some support if I caught anything. I have to go see a functional guy I can barely afford to get any real answers or help or support. That should be coming soon. Some appointments got delayed.  If I can have someone in the background who will help me with real protoccols and actual treatment, then I will be safer in the return to the world. The normal doctors have offered no support and answers. At least I never had the clot shots pushed on me given the health history. I think most have accepted those failed anyway.

So think this one out, years ago I wrote about how narcissists used to split, giving contradictory information at the same time. Our psychopathic leaders seem to be indulging themselves in the same. Telling us things like mild Covid will kill you [and maybe it will too along with the vaxxes] but offering no solutions and acting like everything is okay.  I don't want any forced lock-downs or masks, or any of that nonsense, but one can tell someone's lying. Trying to figure out what the lies are or what is really happening to make decisions has been very hard.   I have to go get my life back now somehow. This can't carry on the same way.