Monday, May 2, 2016

Sadly Humans Choose Status....

Is this true? Maybe for many narcissists in a narcissist society.

When you see someone always defending the wicked and higher status people and never the underdog Run! It is interesting to see who people identify with. Many ACONS will attest that especially for scapegoats we were left standing alone as our families and others all sided with our abusers. As I have written here, I have had to part ways from my entire family. Why? Because they sided with the narcissists. The narcissists have money, status and power. I do not. This is a reality of this world. I've seen too many siding with those who have status to not know this a reality. My status in American society is very low, and many treat people according to their status.

Sadly there is something implicit in human beings where they desire to side with who they view as being the "winners" and holding status. 

There is a reason the most sociopathic rise to the top, all we have to do is look at who may win the presidency to know this is a sad human trait.  The power man, the one who has vaniquished his enemies by hook or crook who has shown the most toughness and obtained the top of the pyramid is the most respected. Once I had someone claim who is out of my life now, that I denied narcissists their humanity. Which is odd, since I gave one main narcissist time and time again to show me some humanity but never got to see any whatsoever.  Do narcissists worry about humanity as they climb to the top? Whey are so many invested in assuring me they are soft Teddy-Bears? When I presented art projects for my main narcissists and vied for their love and acceptance, wasn't I searching very hard for the humanity and supposed "niceness" inside that others assured me was there?

Whey are they to be given endless chances, excuses and more? It is interesting to me how most go running to defend narcissists. My theory is that they hold higher status, and there is some kind of implicit biological or other element in human beings, one we would hope would be over-ruled by a moral element where the narcissist often comes out on top. How many times do we see narcissists run rampant over families, organizations. How do they obtain this power? I believe it is status-driven. 

 We live in a society where hardness, coldness and wickedness are honored and defended first. People lie to your face and think nothing of it.  Mind games will be played on people who try to tell the truth about narcissism and who speak out against evil. How do you think narcissists earn so much loyalty and stand out on top? It's status. For those of us who write about narcissists, and who are scapegoats and ACONs who got out, we are questioning the entire status quo. Some don't like this.

What do you think of these theory?

Matt 20:16 So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.

After the Biggest Loser: Their Bodies Fought To Regain Weight

After the Biggest Loser: Their Bodies Fought to Regain Weight

When will they finally admit dieting fails? 

"The results, the researchers said, were stunning. They showed just how hard the body fights back against weight loss.

It is frightening and amazing,” said Dr. Hall, an expert on metabolism at the National Institute of Diabetes and Digestive and Kidney Diseases, which is part of the National Institutes of Health. “I am just blown away.”

It has to do with resting metabolism, which determines how many calories a person burns when at rest. When the show began, the contestants, though hugely overweight, had normal metabolisms for their size, meaning they were burning a normal number of calories for people of their weight. When it ended, their metabolisms had slowed radically and their bodies were not burning enough calories to maintain their thinner sizes.

Researchers knew that just about anyone who deliberately loses weight — even if they start at a normal weight or even underweight — will have a slower metabolism when the diet ends. So they were not surprised to see that “The Biggest Loser” contestants had slow metabolisms when the show ended.

What shocked the researchers was what happened next: As the years went by and the numbers on the scale climbed, the contestants’ metabolisms did not recover. They became even slower, and the pounds kept piling on. It was as if their bodies were intensifying their effort to pull the contestants back to their original weight.

Mr. Cahill was one of the worst off. As he regained more than 100 pounds, his metabolism slowed so much that, just to maintain his current weight of 295 pounds, he now has to eat 800 calories a day less than a typical man his size. Anything more turns to fat."

Some ACON Poetry

I know I'm breaking my don't discuss them rule indirectly here, but I'm sure those times will come up.  Most of these poems were written a few years ago about the time I went no contact. I wanted to share them. Sometimes I write poetry on different subjects. This was a few times the N family came up.


Empty People

I'm surrounded by empty people
reporting the input
no output from within
all copies of their popular culture
of their choosing
of their class
of their year
situation, looks, sex
empty people
cruel people
that hurt with nasty words
smile at the right movements
difficult circumstances
didn't build character in this case
but tore what little there was down
Empty People
they want to be filled
and it won't be with me.


Adult School Yard

I am stuck in the adult school yard
and It's just like the kid one
I had hoped it would be different
[no friendship or fun times]
Everyone seems to have an ulterior motive
The Adult School Yard has it's share of games
More than you ever could hope to play
......"screwing over for money"
......."lying for manipulation"
......."jockeying for compliments"
......."kings and queens of the dung head of money"
......."who's fooling who...."

I am sick of it all and don't want to play anymore!


Mother II

She would say my laugh annoyed her
And that my arms were too long
And that my feet were too big
And that my butt was way too fat
And that I got in other people's way as
She would grab on to an arm and pull
To always clear the way for a stranger
And that I didn't know how to clean
And hours and hours of housework
Would be considered a failure
If one plastic drinking cup
Was missed in the sink
And that my hair, room, car
were not neat enough
And that I talked too fast
And that I snorted too much
And that tics are only an excuse
And that I cleared my throat too many times
Allergies or not
And that I must dress like her
Never wearing a dress until I was 20 years old
and now I wear nothing but
And that I didn't know how to talk to people
And that my personality was all wrong
And later I smiled too much
And those friend's didn't really care
And then I thought nothing will ever be good enough
Whatever happened to happiness
And I woke up and said, "Screw being perfect!
I'm too tired and I am done! and
 I walked out.


Keep Them Obedient Under the Lash of the Loans

This is one way the elite keep the young from speaking out especially in terms of the economy and the way the work-world operates. I don't agree with Noam Chomsky on everything but he is right about the student loan debt-slave system that is growing.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Snoopy Museum Opens in Tokyo

Always wanted to see the Peanuts Museum in California, but this one looks great too.

Now They Want to Draft Women

House Defense Policy Bill Would Require Women to Register for the Draft.

By the way this was written by two Republican congressmen. There's no difference between the two parties of tyranny and globalism.

This is the absurdity of today's feminism taken to it's extreme.  "Everyone's equal" taken to brain numbing insanity. They deny the differences between men and women. You think the PTSD is bad on the men, just wait til the women see blood shed! I have PTSD from my child hood, seeing street crime and working with violent clients. For most women, combat seen in wars would utterly destroy them. I had nightmares for years from one stabbing where the police were there in time to save a life, so what would full blown combat do?

 Now let's add in the rape quotient, when women prisoners get captured and gang-raped or impregnated. What about the children they will be forced to leave behind? Many women to protect their lives, would pick the strongest American warrior to protect them and some may even prostitute themselves to do so. If they can't protect women serving in support roles from being raped in the military, how are they going to protect them out in the field or in combat? I hope some parents protest for the sake and future of their daughters. The stupid churches are  busy whining about a few rare transsexuals using a bathroom then standing up against their daughters being killed in globalist wars. I'm against the draft for men and women in general for those who want to send them to make profits for the bankers and play globalist policeman of the world.

The blood of women will be on Femi-Nazi hands. Women are supposed to be nurturers but I suppose in a sociopathic society they want that over with. Fighting men hand to hand combat? Most women are smaller then men.  I know even as a "big" woman who once was almost 6 feet tall, that even a far smaller man would beat me arm wrestling. I wasn't stupid, and knew men were stronger then me. Women do not have the same stamina for carrying equipment  over the long haul. Even Russia figured out that equalizing men and women like this as the same, didn't work. Sounds like the United States didn't get the memo.

Even some Marines are protesting. Decent honorable men with consciences know that if women accompanied them into combat, they would have to protect them. The sicko sociopaths would be the ones who have no natural inclination to protect women. Of course in this evil society, they want consciences destroyed. This is stupid social engineering. Remember when "liberals" used to be anti-war? I guess that's completely gutted too.

Not a Fan of Feminism.

Lipedema Can Be Life Threatening

Doctor Stutz lecturing on Lipedema...

"Lipedema Can Be Life-Threatening: Increased Rates of Suicide, Depression and Eating Disorders"

Stay away from diet-mongerers and abusers. That will help a Lipedemic's health and mental health. For all disabled people stay away from people who will abuse you telling you that special regiments, and diets will be cure alls. Nothing is good enough to those type of people so when you say you eat 1800 calories a day they will say it has to be 1200, and call you a liar. Some will say 1200 is too much  and you're a pig, and you must do Keto and starve yourself at 500 a day! Forgotten is how many Lipedemic women suffered under the lash of being called liars and being told to diet while being misdiagnosed even for decades. I am sure there are women in their graves now, who were abused and told to diet while not being diagnosed. I almost died of sepsis three times, during my younger years. So fat bigots can be murderers in a certain way.

There's many people out there abusing sick and vulnerable people. Some are doing it for profits. Some are narcissists declaring themselves self-appointed science experts lording over others. Sick people in narcissistic American society with it's liars and deceivers is not not easy place to be in. Some are people who have gotten eating disorders and been able to maintain them because they are not insulin resistant without passing out and dying and want to spread their toxicity on others. I feel for Lipedemics who may have eating disorders but I can't bear it. My body because of it's other problems cannot maintain an eating disorder. Following the pro-ana's for me means death. The Atkins diet laid me out flat in Chicago and created a hospital level anxiety attack, and visual problems.

I had enough of eating disorders in my toxic family.  When I was young, my mother once got angry at me when I was in the low 200s, for refusing to take little pink laxatives to lose weight. She does not have Lipedema but this definitely explained how she could eat out so much and not gain weight. This is a recent memory that has returned. It scares me that so much disordered eating is now promoted on SOME Lipedema health boards for the sake of being "thin". For low stage Lipedema women who do not have  high stage Lipo-Lymphedema where there is  body wide lymphedema, some may be able to lose  some weight but such advice for a higher stage woman is dangerous. They are not doing their bodies favors in the long run either.

 To stay alive this long, I have taken my own advice and done what is best for me. I will continue that. I need a Lymphedema super-specialist and an immunologist. They can put me in the hospital tomorrow if they want. My husband doesn't think they will put me in the hospital unless my infection grows worse. I can still walk. I can't imagine what the pain and suffering must be for the Lipedemic women who have lost all their mobility. Definitely the diet abuse has to be dialed up a few notches for people in that position. I'm scared I have not lost weight from the diabetes dialing down alone.

I fear for other Lipedemics who are in my severe category. I know I have lost so much from this disease. Some good people I know with Lipedema, are helpful and friendly and we admit those losses to each other without judgment. They understand me when I say I lost my career. Some others lost their families too especially if they were toxic. There are decent people who have been supportive that I have met but I am really worried about some of the messages out there in the Lipedemic world.
The doctor above warning about suicide, depression and eating disorders, I think is one of the good guys. He admits how some of the societal abuse is affecting women with Lipedema.

This disease is being adversely affected by fat bigotry and the lies of the diet industry. I am disappointed by what I encountered. One woman even attempted to shame me by telling me via an article I had gone deaf from "being fat" indirectly.  That's sick. They buy into this societies lies that everything is to be blamed on everyone being "lazy" and deciding to "overeat" and getting "diabetes" and refuse to see through the profit-making lies.

Sadly suffering people decide to eat their own far too often or when people are suffering and vulnerable, there's too many narcissists trying to get in on the game. I'm one of the few who has the guts to call out some of the garbage. The diet abuse needs to stop. The diet abuse of women with Lipedema and related conditions has created the issues with severe depression and eating disorders. It needs to stop. My disappointment at seeing it on health boards who say they are there to "help" Lipedemics, and those with Dercum's is immense.

Why Do These Lipedema and Dercum's Health boards Push Diets First?