The Smear Campaign

My smear campaigns were immense. Mine went around even making up lies about my health. I realized what the years of smear campaigns had done, and know they lied behind me losing the family and them having no mercy for my disabilities or other challenges.

 Gail Meyers points out how the narcissistic mother will tell you especially the scapegoat how no one likes you, mine did that to me by a very young age and boasted about how well loved she was. Everything was about keeping that phony plastic false face. My narcissistic mother used to go down the lists of people she did not approve of. They will use smear campaigns to play cover up and to discredit and isolate the abused child. Smear campaigns are used constantly against scapegoats.

She is right in dysfunctional family, that everything is spoken to third parties, nothing is ever addressed directly. Smear campaigns destroy reputations. My reputation was destroyed beyond repair by my sociopathic toxic mother. She set up things where I was not even able to defend myself because she had convinced them of so many lies about me. Titus 3:10 seems to be a biblical command for no contact.

Meyers is right about how the fake concern fools people. Many narcissistic mothers can make themselves look like martyrs very easily to outsiders. They will focus on the scapegoats being "unstable" or "mentally ill". One insidious way that my narcissistic mother worked on me for literally decades as I responded with emotion to the abuse, was to make me look crazy to other people. This kept any from listening to me or taking me serious. As the years went by they ignored me more and more and turned their backs on me. My mother taught the family to disrespect me for being disabled.

My mother followed these techniques in scapegoating my brother's ex-wife. She would martyr herself and as my brother's ex wife cried and argued, she would turn her emotions against her, and point to her and get others to see her as "crazy". These techniques were done to me. The sad and frustrating thing to me was how my mother set me up not to believed or listened to by others. This comment by a cousin of mine shows how effective she was in turning others against me.

" ******, stop accusing me of being brainwashed by other relatives. That is your paranoia. From what you've told me, I understand that your mom and siblings treat you with disrespect, but if you think I'm being coached to interact with you a certain way, you're incredibly mistaken."

In this conversation I had questioned a cousin who had made a full 360 degree turn after talking to my mother. Notice he states I am paranoid but admits that I am treated with disrespect by my mother and siblings which in essence is a contradiction. These were the kind of mind games I was encountered with all the time via my relatives. There was always something wrong with me while my mother was perfect. One thing I have noticed looking back is how I was always told my perspective, feelings and viewpoint were always wrong while my mother always treated like she was the right one. Even here he couches his admittance of my mother and siblings disrespect saying, "from what you've told me,". He basically invalidated me as well.

This invalidation never ended.

The video concludes with good advice, that if people don't believe you, it is better to move on. Flying monkeys are not changeable and you will hurt yourself trying to change the mind of those the narcissist controls.

Genetic

No one in my family has it. Of course I am working to find out about being a late discovery adoptee. My "mother's" legs are thin as twigs.

Bills

Sadly life in America has become just about nothing but. When there is no expendable income, that means you basically are working for just a roof over your head and to eat. Some sarcastic pundits would call that slavery. Of course in my case I do not work, but disability is subsistence level as you all know. Some out there are questioning all this. People have always had to pay bills, but I think people once worked to live not the other way around and there was other parts to life where life wasn't just a constant slog up hill. The small stuff keeps many of us going but some look around and know and understand life was meant to be MORE!

The Small Things

What are your small pleasures?

I like rainy days, bookstores, libraries, cozy blankets, a hot bowl of soup, looking through my stamp collection and sitting outside enjoying nature.

Phone Funny

It happens to the best of us.

What if Obesity Has Nothing to Do with Overeating?

"Peter Attia, MD, once judged patients who were overweight or obese until, despite exercising three or four hours a day and following the food pyramid to the letter, he gained a significant amount of weight and developed metabolic syndrome. As he explains in this recently posted TEDMED talk, the experience motivated him to radically change his diet, helped him lose 40 pounds, and greatly shifted his perspective on the conventional wisdom of nutrition. And he became almost maniacally obsessed in trying to understand the real relationship between obesity and insulin resistance.
Watch Attia’s talk to find out how he’s working with a team of researchers with competing hypotheses on the cause of the nation’s obesity epidemic to understand how the various foods we consume affect our bodies – and how use this information can be used to help people make sustainable lifestyle changes."

He basically questions the paradigm. "What if obesity is a coping mechanism for a far more sinister problem undergoing the cell?"

I think INSULIN RESISTANCE causes obesity. I was tested as having very high insulin resistance. It actually is a diagnosis that went along with my severe PCOS. [Hair-An syndrome]. In my case, I just do not have the Lipedema messing me up weight wise but OTHER illnesses.

"Is it possible that insulin resistance causes obesity?"

He questions the paradigm of how this is switched around and he asks:

"What if being obese means we are blaming the victims"?

Maybe it's not just the grains but toxicity in this world? Maybe another process is creating severe insulin resistance in people leading to obesity? I think they should look outside the "diets". I wish I could write him an email and may do so.

I believe outside factors are impacting metabolisms. Look for something in the environment. No one chooses to be diabetic. Many of us are scared because our bodies are beyond control. Our bodies laugh at us while conventional wisdoms fails us.

He seems like a sincere man and I am glad someone is thinking outside the box.

BiteSized

"The new documentary Bite Size will have you rooting for four brave kids.

In this exclusive trailer, the film's stars – Keanna, 13, Davion, 12, Moy, 11, and Emily, 13 – get candid about their struggles to lose weight and the challenges they've faced along the way.

"I want my diabetes to go away so I can do what everybody else can do," says football player Davion.

The kids are "cute but conflicted, funny yet flawed," director Corbin Billings tells PEOPLE. "For them, the mission is not simply to lose weight, but to learn to love themselves to change their lifestyle for a healthier, happier future." 



These kids have many challenges ahead of them.  I am glad they talk about the realities of the teasing and failed diets. One thing worries me is I had that dream always of "being thin" when young and I was much more mildly overweight as a child but it impacted my life greatly. I was so active and still fat and well you can see this happen to the children above too. Will the perfect lifestyle make you thin? I agree with doing what you can but what if it doesn't? Too many young people learn self-loathing when the weight doesn't come off. Of course I believe that there is more causing the severe obesity out there then "lifestyle failures".