Friday, April 13, 2012
Diets Seem Like "Magic" to Me.
My body has long exited the normal 'Diet and lose weight" mode. From my own experience, people who "eat less" to lose weight are performing "magic" that has no bearing on my actual reality. Try explaining this one to doctors, no one believes you. Friends who have spent enough time with me do.
My digestive problems which are a constant bane of my life, has limited the eating. I seem to go from doing good to bad rather quickly and had two days of nausea and pain. Realizing the food allergies are getting worse and worse has limited the eating.
Now having a hate relationship with food because it causes me pain more often then not has limited my eating. If a doctor told me to go on a diet, I'd laugh in their face and tell them to try having to eat like I do. That includes avoiding even the seeds in strawberries and sesame seeds on buns or health food store sesame chips, to keep from painful bowel attacks as well as all dairy, potatoes, fish, anything fried, anything with too much oil, and a vast variety of other foods that seem to have become my enemy.
I even due to warmer weather and this focus on community involvement and trying to do at least a few things with my life, from art to a new interest in disability advocacy have been more active [well for me], in between times spent in bed, but that hasn't seemed to help though some of the stamina has improved at least on a good day.
I know a normal person would be losing tons of weight, I'm not from what I can tell. I wondered if I have finally exited the 500s, somehow I doubt it. Sometimes this sort of thing is scary. I think about my life and experiences and how everything I am told does not match my own reality.