One of the scariest things for a super fat person is falling and not being able to get up. Yesterday I was walking out of the bathroom and slipped, we had rugs down and husband had taken shower but I hit the one little spot of water on the floor like my feet were made of ice cubes and went slipping, I would fall on my right side, and end up totally on the floor. You ever hear of people having accidents and they feel like they are happening in slow motion? It's true. I dreaded the crash that would come on the hard tile floor. I screamed and my husband came running [well limping since he has had a relapse of his gout attack, and then my panicked thoughts came..."Oh no, I haven't been on the floor in 11 years! there is no way I am going to be able to get up!" The dread and horror hit at once, as my body was crumbled to the floor.
I then got myself up in a kneeling position using the tub.When it really hits the fan, I have this emotional thing where I close out pain and turmoil, I did not even cry from the pain and fear, only the initial yelling. I said, "I don't think I can get up, having tried once with a hand on the tub to get up, we may need to call the paramedics" My husband told me, try and get up on the tub, fortunately our tub sits lower and I was able to back up to it and hoist myself up on the tub where I was sitting. I knew I was in too low of a seated position to get up, but he was able to stand me up pulling on one arm and me hoisting myself using a chair he had brought in to get me standing so we did not need to call anyone. I've had to help him get off the floor too during severe gout attacks. Both of us are not in the best shape, it's scary, we have no grown children to help us, and stress over many years has gotten to us.
I would get severe bruising and pulled a muscle behind my left knee where walking is hard. I am able to just about walk, but barely. Things are frightening around here as husband is sick too hobbling on a cane. I was told if we need help, I would have to call the local aging office but that seems more like a permanent sort of thing. Getting old is scary, don't let anyone tell you any different. For us super fat people falling down can be a big deal. The wrong sort of fall and it can be the rehab and worse the nursing home. This is an issue, I have never seen dealt with on any of the size acceptance boards, but it's a true one. Superfat people have this as a huge risk. When we break a leg, it's not just some crutches, it's time in a nursing home if it can heal right.
I know without my husband, I could not live alone. I was worried my ears contributed to my fall too, I've had severe ear ringing from my Meinere's all week and my balance has been more off. Thank God nothing was broken or torn. Bathrooms are the most dangerous room in the house, no kidding!
I hope you're OK after your fall. I fall a good few times a year as I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and it's scary how quick it happens.
ReplyDeleteThanks Leah, I am doing better today, still hobbling around on a cane, and very bruised up though. Chronic fatigue syndrome would be tough too.
ReplyDeleteI have fallen too and have had to call the paramedics. It is extremely embarrasing and frightening. I wish I could lose weight to at least 300 pounds. At 500 pounds, I feel there is no place in the world big enough for me.
ReplyDeleteSorry you have faced this anon. It is very tough. I know I have been afraid of falling again, because of the damage this one did. I already walk with a cane for balance, just about everywhere I go. I wish I was 300lbs too. I don't believe them about how we are to lose weight anymore. It doesn't work. I had actually become more active, and now I am thinking if I get ill the more I do? What am I supposed to do. I feel for you as well and will pray for you.
ReplyDeleteI feel like there is no where in the world big enough for me. I think they are neglecting so many studies when it comes to people in the greater weights. The world is so small, I feel like people who are normal sizes live such a different existence.
ReplyDeletei know this might sound strange but i have just found out i have pcos i have ongoing anxiety problems and have always been overweaight but i am now 31 and 22 stone if not more lol i avoid those scales anyway what you wrote about how you feel is how feel everyday too lonly and isolated iam married but i have no friends my mum is alive but although she loves me says cruel things today i saw her she hasnt seen me in a few months my god your enormous you get anybigger you wont get out your front door witch may be true but it hurts to hear it and by my mum too people judge you harshly i have spinal problems and sciatica when the pain is bad i hav to stop walking a man a young man turned around spat on floor and said people like you should be shot you are too greedy thats why your stopping all time i was stunned doctors are pressuring me for gastric band like you i feel this isnt the right thing for me they fail a lot and the risk s arnt worth it i also have large breast its related to excess hormones called gigantomastia usually you have a breast reduction but i wont for same reasons i have hyperglycemia too am told i will be diabetic eventually and at risk from certain cancers and heart problems i dont eat a lot witch no -one believes me i dont eat breakfast i dont have lunch i have a meal normal sized portion as rest of my fam my husband is slightly overweight but not obese why is that we eat everything the same doctors say i do eat more than i should also i eat veg and fruit but am still gaining weight tested my thyroid my t4 was 3.79 i was told its borderline whatever that means anyway not being treated told to lose weight seeing a dietitian now but she says i'm not trying hard enough and a physio therapist for my back i live in UK and get benefits well in a fashion because im obese i get called a scrounger for not working i feel tired all the time and recently i have been feeling light headed told doctor he isn't interested my older brother is thin as a lat i find it strange he is also diabetic type one and has cushings syndrome he is my half brother different dads the reason i wrote this book lmao is because i have a lot of the same thoughts and same kind of things happen like when you fell i too have done that guess what my husband had the gout then too lol he has heart and blood pressure problems we have to help each other i love him so much but i feel like a huge burden on him all this medical stuff but i believe its more than what i am eating i think its a genetic problem or something cause i am only one in both sides of fam that is obese not saying that some arnt large but nowhere near my size also before i finish my family are same as yours long distance those that live around me dont bother with me they have newborns ive never seen there like strangers too me its a sad world nowadays that empathy has left people i was born in 1980 so i remember those vivid colors lol the punks the goths the real high class flyers those singers with bright makeup and hair i kind of miss it life seems dull and flat now so yeah just wanted to tell you how you think is amazing i thought i was alone in how i viewed things so glad i found your blogg sorry i wrote this much but i was gob smacked at how much we have gone through simler things and how we think at least some of it
ReplyDeletei know this might sound strange but i have just found out i have pcos i have ongoing anxiety problems and have always been overweaight but i am now 31 and 22 stone if not more lol i avoid those scales anyway what you wrote about how you feel is how feel everyday too lonly and isolated iam married but i have no friends my mum is alive but although she loves me says cruel things today i saw her she hasnt seen me in a few months my god your enormous you get anybigger you wont get out your front door witch may be true but it hurts to hear it and by my mum too people judge you harshly i have spinal problems and sciatica when the pain is bad i hav to stop walking a man a young man turned around spat on floor and said people like you should be shot you are too greedy thats why your stopping all time i was stunned doctors are pressuring me for gastric band like you i feel this isnt the right thing for me they fail a lot and the risk s arnt worth it i also have large breast its related to excess hormones called gigantomastia usually you have a breast reduction but i wont for same reasons i have hyperglycemia too am told i will be diabetic eventually and at risk from certain cancers and heart problems i dont eat a lot witch no -one believes me i dont eat breakfast i dont have lunch i have a meal normal sized portion as rest of my fam my husband is slightly overweight but not obese why is that we eat everything the same doctors say i do eat more than i should also i eat veg and fruit but am still gaining weight tested my thyroid my t4 was 3.79 i was told its borderline whatever that means anyway not being treated told to lose weight seeing a dietitian now but she says i'm not trying hard enough and a physio therapist for my back i live in UK and get benefits well in a fashion because im obese i get called a scrounger for not working i feel tired all the time and recently i have been feeling light headed told doctor he isn't interested my older brother is thin as a lat i find it strange he is also diabetic type one and has cushings syndrome he is my half brother different dads the reason i wrote this book lmao is because i have a lot of the same thoughts and same kind of things happen like when you fell i too have done that guess what my husband had the gout then too lol he has heart and blood pressure problems we have to help each other i love him so much but i feel like a huge burden on him all this medical stuff but i believe its more than what i am eating i think its a genetic problem or something cause i am only one in both sides of fam that is obese not saying that some arnt large but nowhere near my size also before i finish my family are same as yours long distance those that live around me dont bother with me they have newborns ive never seen there like strangers too me its a sad world nowadays that empathy has left people i was born in 1980 so i remember those vivid colors lol the punks the goths the real high class flyers those singers with bright makeup and hair i kind of miss it life seems dull and flat now so yeah just wanted to tell you how you think is amazing i thought i was alone in how i viewed things so glad i found your blogg sorry i wrote this much but i was gob smacked at how much we have gone through simler things and how we think at least some of it
ReplyDeleteHi, welcome to the blog Lizz.
ReplyDeleteI am glad they found out you have PCOS, are they going to treat it? Hope you have found a doctor who is knowledgeable about it.
That wasn't very nice of your mother to say, she needs to stop acting like your weight is your fault especially with a PCOS diagnosis and if you have spinal problems obviously you have pain that is going to limit your mobility.
Wow that guy spitting at you that is horrible. I have had those types too and tell them off. That is sick, what a judgemental you know what.
Don't give in to pressure for WLS, yes I've had that so many times more then I can count and they add in oh you are high risk and make excuses when I said two surgeons didnt even want to do two other surgeries on me so how's that GOING TO WORK?
If you have problems with large breasts, you should have them test some of the pituitary levels, they may have done that with the PCOS tests, but make sure they pursued the prolactin levels, ACTH etc.
For thyroid have them test the TSH, that does sound a bit high.
Yeah there is judgemental people. If your older brother, has CUSHINGS SYNDROME, IT DOES RUN IN FAMILIES.
Just so you know.
I think something more could be going on with you definitely.
Does sound like my history, my father had multiple autoimmune problems and died of a undiagnosed endocrine problem.
I am sorry your family is treating you the same way. It is tough isn't it. I may write about something more recent. And open up about the family.
It is always terrible when that happens. Even if they have young children they should take some time for hello or something.
Yeah the 1980s were better. I was 12 years old in 1980...and today everything seems so dark and flat, including fashion and the clothes.
Hope your husbands health improves--praying.
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