Monday, April 23, 2012
I've Fallen and I Can't Get Up!
One of the scariest things for a super fat person is falling and not being able to get up. Yesterday I was walking out of the bathroom and slipped, we had rugs down and husband had taken shower but I hit the one little spot of water on the floor like my feet were made of ice cubes and went slipping, I would fall on my right side, and end up totally on the floor. You ever hear of people having accidents and they feel like they are happening in slow motion? It's true. I dreaded the crash that would come on the hard tile floor. I screamed and my husband came running [well limping since he has had a relapse of his gout attack, and then my panicked thoughts came..."Oh no, I haven't been on the floor in 11 years! there is no way I am going to be able to get up!" The dread and horror hit at once, as my body was crumbled to the floor.
I then got myself up in a kneeling position using the tub.When it really hits the fan, I have this emotional thing where I close out pain and turmoil, I did not even cry from the pain and fear, only the initial yelling. I said, "I don't think I can get up, having tried once with a hand on the tub to get up, we may need to call the paramedics" My husband told me, try and get up on the tub, fortunately our tub sits lower and I was able to back up to it and hoist myself up on the tub where I was sitting. I knew I was in too low of a seated position to get up, but he was able to stand me up pulling on one arm and me hoisting myself using a chair he had brought in to get me standing so we did not need to call anyone. I've had to help him get off the floor too during severe gout attacks. Both of us are not in the best shape, it's scary, we have no grown children to help us, and stress over many years has gotten to us.
I would get severe bruising and pulled a muscle behind my left knee where walking is hard. I am able to just about walk, but barely. Things are frightening around here as husband is sick too hobbling on a cane. I was told if we need help, I would have to call the local aging office but that seems more like a permanent sort of thing. Getting old is scary, don't let anyone tell you any different. For us super fat people falling down can be a big deal. The wrong sort of fall and it can be the rehab and worse the nursing home. This is an issue, I have never seen dealt with on any of the size acceptance boards, but it's a true one. Superfat people have this as a huge risk. When we break a leg, it's not just some crutches, it's time in a nursing home if it can heal right.
I know without my husband, I could not live alone. I was worried my ears contributed to my fall too, I've had severe ear ringing from my Meinere's all week and my balance has been more off. Thank God nothing was broken or torn. Bathrooms are the most dangerous room in the house, no kidding!