Saturday, March 3, 2012
Food Insecurity While Fat
Towards the end of last month, there was no money for food. I became disabled and had my weight gain during the first life crash, I am even kind of more frightened as to what may happen THIS TIME as a second one appears to be looming. By the way poverty strains relationships and chips away at quite a bit of other things.
When one has food allergies and the food pantry gives you tuna, dairy products and endless boxes of macaroni and cheese you cannot eat, that's a problem. And no, they do not listen to any special requests. I even ended up basically having someone bring me food from a soup kitchen during one weekend.
I found myself eating a few things because they were what I could get. One thing I have noticed is many thin people I know their homes are full of endless food, they can eat whenever they want. They do not have to worry about the food not being there, when they want it to be. When I used to visit church members and other friends and see the pantries full of real food it used to astound me.
What always gets me is it's always the meat and fresh fruit and vegetables that disappear first leaving endless starches. The starch and carbohydrates are numerous while everything else disappears. You can only eat so many beans while being a diabetic. I end up eating too many noodles when we are poor, stretch out meat or tomato sauce to flavor some cheap spaghetti. I even bought some processed meat which was on sale but turned out to be a mistake health wise. Images of fresh salads went through my head which I really wanted as I opened up my pathetically empty refrigerator.
I find myself having a harder time coming up with good or healthy meals. I tell my husband let's just skip that meal, but he says "you are diabetic"! A few times I find myself scrounging. I haven't been eating at regular meal times again, I have been eating too late at night because we have to scrape our last pennies together to eat. The groceries are getting more expensive, far more expensive. Imagine trying to avoid MSG, high fat and endless food allergies that make you sick? If I could just buy cheaper frozen food it would be a win-win, but just will not work.
You know its weird to me, why am I so fat? I am not even secure in food. Even today I am thinking make sure to save this and that in the refrigerator since we went grocery shopping yesterday. I am finding it harder to do decent meal planning.
This may sound weird but when I am food insecure I fear gaining weight. It is even hard to explain that one to people.
See "Food Insecurity and Subsequent Weight Gain in Women"