Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Goodbyes are Hard
I have this friend who is moving to another country, but since we are long distance anyway if we can re-establish phone or other contact maybe it will be alright. Anyhow I hate saying Goodbye to anyone. It is very hard. I don't know if this an Aspie thing, but it's hard to see so many people go away. I think this was something about life, I never got used to. Tears will even flow down my face.
My life has been one of being ripped away from people with too many moves and this feeling of floating out there in space. Feeling like you are being sent to camp forever more where you have to make "new friends" and miss the old ones. Some people you lose forever, or at least til the other side of eternity, while others, you lose to time, distance and more. Sometimes you become a stranger to people without wanting to be. I have suspicions to believe that my niece has been told NOT to write me any longer.
One odd thing I have noticed about narcissists, is this part of my personality is something they always hated and they would say things like "move on" and like attachment to others was a bad thing. This is one reason society is becoming more unfeeling. Narcissists never miss anyone, and one wonders if in a narcissistic world, people are losing the ability to be attached to one another. Goodbye to them means nothing.