"You Just Have to Ignore The Little Things"

ME:

Do you realize mothers like this ruin their children's relationships.

You were scared to get close to me

because you knew it'd make her angry

she was to always come first

for visits and everything else.

she even told **** this year not to visit me.

[last year]

stuff like that happened all the time.

It is not normal ****, do you at least admit that?

I tried asking you what the real deal was? Like why treat me that way? You would want to know wouldn't you

She rejected me for weight for my whole life

People can let go of old stuff but not when there is plenty of new. Also you did not have my life. I was left to almost die in the ghetto, and when they did stuff like ignore me when I was sick, it reminded me of that

You were cared and protected and she treats you with respect. I am too old to take the disrespect.

MY SISTER:

I don't care what she would find out. You just have to ignore little things. His travel finances werenot good at the time is my guess I don't know to defend this. I don't travel.

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"You just have to ignore the little things"

I was thinking about this today, how we try and try to fix relationships that are beyond repair. I was pondering the other day, why I scrapped and bowed for their crumbs and how sad it all was. I struggle with the feelings that I did not stand up for myself enough. I suppose all ACONs do when it's all said and done, even if we manage to get out of the fog and go NC.

I know one thing that rescues all of us is finding those who do love and respect us in our lives. Their kindness stands out in stark opposition to the above. These people are Life Savers in the Narcissistic ocean. One ponders some of the crazy statements putting the pieces of the puzzle together. We want people who value us in our lives not chasing after those who never did.