Friday, March 18, 2016
Time Passes So Fast
Time does pass fast. I feel like my 30s whizzed by and now my 40s are sliding out of my fingers. My old classmates are grandparents. Most of them got lives. Even the day when I used to be an art teacher and full of hope and excited to move to Chicago seem so far away.
One wants to use and grasp what time they can. I fantasize about things I want to do but they all would require giving up paying rent. There was one winter's day I kept blathering on about seeing New Mexico for the first time. There's times lately where I think throw it to the wind and find somewhere new to go. I miss my days of youth when I could walk in the woods. I wish I had been more adventurous and gone more places.
If you are young and reading this, don't be an old lady full of regrets like me. Don't let people tell you just work brain dead minimum wage jobs and to have no life. The memories that give me solace, I have noticed are all the art, nature, friends, love, concerts and times in my old town. We know we have to change something to end the 9 year rut. There's only so much time left. I can't sit here just growing old and want to make something of the few years I got left.