Monday, June 1, 2015
My Brother Is Very Sick
I feared this happening.
His health isn't the best. You can see abuse in the bad health of all three of us, but since he got the second tier abuse, it shows in his body. He denied it all and choose to ignore it instead unlike me. I didn't make contact with the Mini-Me or Queen to find this out but found out this week directly from him. Well I let my husband pick up the phone after endless frantic phone calls and one message where I saw the message line. I thought someone had died. He told me he is afraid of dying. Some may think I am wrong to break no contact with him but I knew something was wrong just wasn't sure yet. I was always conflicted about him as I wrote before.
He needs a triple heart bypass. Given his history this is a more dangerous surgery. I always had the most feelings for my brother out of the family, he at least talked to me but the Queen Spider always sought to lure him away from me. I haven't seen him in 5-6 years. Of course I am wondering why him? You know I am. There is no money or stamina to go see him. The curse of poverty you know isn't the lack of shopping but the destroyed relationships via no money to go anywhere and see anyone.
Of course he told me, my mother will be going down there to see him pronto. I suppose of the day of the surgery. This makes me feel ill. She does have more "attachment" to him if you can call it that. Some of you may think I gave into hoovering and more but if someone is about to die, and he is one that at least talked to me a bit, it's a bit different. I am of course upset about it all.