Thank God for my real friends who have stuck by me through thick and thin and poverty and serious health problems and didn't expect me to slap a fake smile on my face to please them. One thing with the real true friends, is you don't have to be someone else to please them, you can be YOU. I love my real friends.
I don't have any friends really on the outside world. I do want friends, but I want family too, not just the kids. I want someone in my generation or older. Maybe my sister back, I remember the times when we were kids and the happy times but I know now those times were really quite fleeting.
ReplyDeleteWe recently started watching the show ALASKAN BUSH PEOPLE, they are this big family and I keep seeing my sister and I as the girls. But this family loves eachother. I want to be like that because they didn't know anything about pop culture and when they go to the store, they don't know any trends. Magazines don't mean anything to them.
I wish to be like that, but I don't want to wear mukluks all day. But no one seems lonely at all. Just their family around but they are very happy.
Real friends are not that readily available anymore. If I choose to open up to someone, they will surely judge me badly for my differences. Because of my upbringing I'm different, yes, and no one understands that.
I think a lot of people don't have friends anymore. It makes me sad. I have had years with no friends. I do have old college friends and close online friends and long distance friends and know a few here, but my social circles are very limited too. I am glad we have our husbands. I wish I had a sister too, I see people on social media who are close sisters and families. Here there are many close knit families, someone without a family is a rarity. It seems the social networks have grown more insular. I remember some happy times with my siblings too before my sister changed and was turned against me and times with my brother as well. No one warned me life would turn out like this. My mother has never been alone, her family always surrounded her or she could visit them.
DeleteI notice that too no one seems lonely, they all have tons of people. They didn't have several friends die. Everyone lives right by them instead of far away. I wonder what that would be like to see people day by day. Sometimes I and husband sit on the park bench and it's good we have each other, but you do wonder where is everyone else at?
I've seen that show Alaska Bush People too, to live that life you need close social ties. No close social ties or love and you can die out there. They need to depend on each other. Only healthy people can survive that life but they are probably better off without pop culture. Hopefully there are some neighbors so they can marry or meet someone. I've wondered about that with other homesteading families, about young adults meeting a future mate.
Yes there is always risk in opening up to someone. I have been burned very badly this time but I have other real friends thank God. I don't to weigh every teaspoon asking if I gave out 4 positive teaspoons for saying one negative thing or expressing sadness or any pain. Even to admit feeling alone, or MISSING people you do know, or BEING TOO FAR from them, seems to be something the narcs judge harshly. I know with the "normals" aka pod people, I'm wasting my time. If I lived near you I wouldn't judge you for your differences. I could see us being friends IRL but glad we know each other here.
I haven't seen this show Alaskan Bush People but it sounds like a rather romanticized view of northern life. No family is perfect. Maybe the producers are leaving out the times pa came home drunk. I grew up in a small northern mining town, not as far north as Alaska. It was rather gender imbalanced, as almost all the jobs were for men and most of the few women were married and dependent on their husbands. Well, I don't want to be too disillusioning. Enjoy Alaskan Bush People but don't take it too seriously and don't let it depress you because it is entertainment, not sociology.
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