Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Totally Evil Comments
I had worried about it being found but made an error where it could have been found by you know who. I just got three very evil comments sent to me. They are so evil, I can't even post them here but have saved them in spam. I got tired of being afraid and don't regret writing what I did on this blog.
If someone else is playing games, then that sucks too. If you are an ACON whose egg donors or sperm donor found your blog, please come talk to me here. She or he called me "Loser Scum" and "delusional" and said very horrible things pertaining to my brother. If it is her, she is just proving what I wrote here. Yes she has. She's proven it. The veil got ripped off for me more times then once and now could be another one of those times. Writing like a hell-bound demon on her estranged daughter's blog if this is her, is not helping to make any case for herself if this is really her.
She's making my case for me.
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Oh no, Peep; I'm so sorry that SOMEbody feels the need to give you more grief than you already have to live with. Whoever it is posting such sickening messages, they are crap on the bottom of your shoes and you are right to not want to track that in to your home here.
ReplyDeleteMy 2 cents... I find the timing curious in that this has been coming on shortly after the little other blogger dust-up, but I don't know the particulars. I just see a lot of people who read ACoN blogs, posting comments who appear to be seriously broken in very dark and anti-social ways. It seems to me that they can be very clever people and are actually most comfortable when they inhabit the MN world, either as MN's themselves or by proxy (flying monkeys).
You're clearly a good person, you're thoughtful in your conversations here and simply deserve people in your life who are on their best behavior around you. I'm really sorry the jackal(s) can't find someplace else to light.
You are so well-liked and I'm sure you will receive encouragement and advice from other seasoned bloggers on how to deal with this issue. Looking forward to the truly decent, brilliant people/bloggers (Smakintosh, Lisette, TW, q, Joan S, et al) to weigh-in. You've got The Best on your side, Peep! -- Lora
Thanks Lora, it sure isn't anything I wanted to deal with. The messages were scary and sickening. They preyed on fears about my brother, whoever posted them is one sick mind.
DeleteSo I just sent them to spam and won't post them.
Yes I have seen other ACON blogs where trouble has come. I think these blogs may attract narcs and others too. Some could be flying monkey's or even send one to do their bidding.
Thanks Lora for your compliments and encouragement. I needed to hear a good word today. :) Agree about the Best.
Sorry to hear this peep yes it sounds like she found it. Stay strong as I know you are strong. I'll pray God gives you strength like you didn't know existed.
ReplyDeleteGod Bless
Ms Smakintosh
Thanks Ms. Smakintosh. Yes it sure seems that way. I don't even see a troll going those places, it wouldn't occur to them. Thanks for your prayers. Yes I need to stay strong. God bless you too.
DeleteEvil does not attack that which is not a threat. I'm very sorry Peep that you are getting attacked for no reason other than telling the truth. They love to pour salt in our wounds don't they? Well just look at it this way: You are making a difference in many people's lives, mine included, by shining a light on the darkness that these vermin disguised as "humans" hide in. The more light that gets shone on them, the more power they lose. And without that power of deception and mind control of the ignorant, (most of them willfully) they are NOTHING but hollow black vaccuous holes that would implode on themselves. Don't let it get you down Peep. You are definitely not alone. I've had a lot of salt poured in my wounds too. Only an inhuman monster could treat another person that way (especially their own FAMILY) and like you said, they only confirmed what you have already written about them. So just thank them for proving your point! I want to thank you and give you a big cyber hug for your awesome blog. You have given me so much insight and much needed validation that I have gotten from nobody else in my family or small circle of friends who just don't get it because they were lucky enough to have normal parents and siblings. My husband doesn't even totally understand but he does support me in my decision to go no contact. I want to also thank Lisette at House of Mirrors (kick-azz blog and double edged knife writing style), Gail Meyers, Smackintosh (best youtube videos describing narcopaths, my husband even gets it watching his videos and said he could tell this guy was the real deal by the look in his eyes), Anna at Narcissists Suck, and the late Kathy Krajco's writings. Also Dr. Linda Martinez-Lewi has an excellent website. Stay the course Peep. Jesus said the path was narrow and few find it (because most don't bother looking, they prefer the lies). He also told someone to "Let the dead bury their own dead, and you follow Me." He knew all about Narcs (Tares) judging by that statement alone. You are a beautiful, kind, thoughtful and caring person. That's the truth. You rock sista!
ReplyDeleteHi FreeSpirit, thanks for your support and encouragement here. Yes I am being attacked just for telling the truth. There never will be any conviction or apologies, this one will never ever admit she is wrong about anything. She went to such a sick place in the comments [if that is her and I think more it is] it proves every word I wrote on this blog. Thanks for saying I am making a difference, I am glad I have been able to help. Definitely others showed me the way out, around three years ago I found Anna and Kathy Krajco's blog and then House of Mirrors, they helped me find the way out, like a flashlight in a tunnel, and suddenly someone telling me, "this is not your fault". The therapy world had focused me entirely on reconcilation, and self examination and a few boundaries but did not explain at all what I was dealing with. Smakintosh has been of wonderful great help to me as well. Yes many do not understand who never have been through this, not at all, and the depth of evil we have been dealing with. I agree about Jesus Christ speaking out against the tares and the narcs who have already spiritually died inside. Thanks so much FreeSpirit, happy to have you here as well. Thanks for your kind words. :)
ReplyDeleteI am new to your blog, but want you to know that I started reading at about 4;00 pm, and it is 9:00 and I am still raeding. I was looking for something, anything to help me, because I had to very recently make the decision to have no more contact with all of my deceased mothers' family. I have been hurting so bad, and have gone back and forth with "forgivness and reconciliation." I feel like a fool, because they have never wanted anything to do with me, anyway! I have lived in the same small town, as my aunt for 17 yrs., and even tho she was invited Many many time, she has been to my house 3x. So, I mean there allready is no contact-only me throwing myself at people who dont want anything to do with me. I dont know all the acronyms, but my aunt, whom I truly tried to have a relationship, has gossiped, and tore me down so much to the rest of the family, that they have deleted me from FB, and never ever call or return calls, or anything. No more! I am done, and I will pray for their well-being-but no more abuse, and cruelty like you would not believe. Thanks so much for letting me know that I am not alone, in my feelings. God bless.
DeleteThe timing & the type of comment leads me to suspect a familiar source & not anything related to that blog misunderstanding. You keep your head up, Peep. You will get thru this & so will the one you are praying for related to this. May peace that passes all understanding keep your heart & mind safe & sound.
ReplyDeleteI don't think it is related to that other blog. The comments were too personal. Thanks for your prayers anon. :)
DeleteSend them to Dallas. I have a foot and can work under the premise they have an ass. It''l be a match made in heaven.
ReplyDeleteThanks Q :)
DeleteYeah anonymous. I have been around a while but the writer for that blog doesn't seem the type to resort to cheap tactics. That person that posts all the comments got that bad. But if she stays on her med's she's not that bad.
ReplyDeleteIts so sad to hear this is happening to you. You have one of the best blogs, and I hope this doesn't persuade you to curtail it in any way. I need to read your stuff, like its a necessity. Maybe this stuff that is happening is inevitable, and will happen anyway. And I'm sorry that this is happening to you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Joan. I need to read your stuff too just so you know. I figured this was a risk from the start even if makes steam come of their ears, I'm not being silenced for them.
DeleteMaybe it's someone you alluded to in your May 26th entry who posted the nasty comments?
ReplyDeleteThe "be a better person" and "perceive" stuff? I think that was my mother too with the use of the word perceive. Also with stuff that was said pertaining to brother, the timing of an event made it someone who had to know more of what was going on, mother, family member or flying monkey.
DeleteIt never ceases to amaze me how principled people are and how much faith they have in their convictions as long as they don't have to sign their name to their work. It got so bad at my place I disabled the anonymous comments ability . Something I said I would never do. It wasn't so much what was written as much as seeing how low and sleazy they get under the cover of "darkness" That I would sort of "come to" and realize I had spent most of the day going back and forth with some psycho and the gist of what all was written boiled down to I know you are but what am I.....And I don't make trash I burn-it over and over and over. I could dig my mother up and have a more fulfilling argument with her corpse. So I just disabled anonymous comments and never looked back.
ReplyDeleteYes I understand if you had to do that. I guess with me here, I got used to the fat bigots and just screened them all out but it can be necessary at times. There is a lot I edit out and don't post. The fat haters alone are rife in number. It's too bad you had so many jerks show up.
DeleteSometimes I do post anonymous if I do not want a reader of yours tracing you back thru me. BUT, those who use it to hide nastiness toward you because their own words prove your writing here true are despicable. ~ Bed Banshee's 2nd anon post on this thread :P
ReplyDeleteYes she proved herself to be what I SAID she was! Thanks Bed Banshee. :p
DeleteA malignant narc "mother" & her flying monkeys are the gift that keeps on giving, even after you've been No Contact for a year. I was their scapegoat targeted for destruction from the get go but they got their fangs into my now 15 year old daughter. I am still reaping the repercussions of what they did to her. My Golden Child brother has one daughter 2 years younger than mine and he would "dump" her off on me for 2 or 3 days at a time then come and get her and my daughter and supposedly bring them to his house (he is divorced from a narc who got pregnant just to make him marry her to put her through school for her "career" then she got a job & dumped him). Anyway, he would simply take the girls to my Narc Mother and leave them with her. I was very low contact at the time because of her narcissism, even though I didn't yet know exactly what was wrong, just knew something was very wrong with her. ...continued
ReplyDeleteOh sure, the gifts keep on coming via scapegoats and more. I am sorry they got your fangs into your daughter. I hear this time and time again how the narc steal the hearts of people's own children and adult children from them. Isn't that sick. Your GC fooled you and liked too, so this gave your NM an in to brainwash your daughter against you. They can use the trials and tribulations of the teens and early 20s to the max....
DeleteOver about a 3 year period I noticed my daughter changing from a bright eyed, loving sweet girl to a brooding, hateful smart aleck toward me only, not her daddy. And I noticed more & more the spark going out of her eyes every time she was with them. My covert narc mother would act sweet as pie to my husband who would go pick her up (I never went with him because I couldn't stand to be around her or my poor dad, who was being sucked dry by the spider). Anyway, like they say, once you figure out what a malignant narc is and what they are doing, it's already too late. My daughter now resents me for "taking her away from her cousin" (who is a spoiled rotten Narc in Waiting) and she goes through my things and takes things then denies it to make me look crazy when I get upset about things missing. My husband trys to be diplomatic but always seems to side with her or at least not make her take responsibility for lying and of course I'm seen as the "bad person" to my daughter, even though I have tried so hard to be extra loving to her, she just walks all over me and still resents me and there is nothing I can do. It's the classic Catch 22 of the malignant narcissist mother, I'm was damned if I had continued allowing her around them to steal her soul, and now I'm damned for not "letting her see her cousin". And it's nearly impossible to make an ADULT understand narc abuse, try getting a teenager to understand it, especially one that has nearly been turned into one herself. I'm so afraid that the damage is irreversible and I didn't get her away in time. So I have to deal with all the awful emotions of my own lifetime of abuse (intense sadness and sorrow to intense rage and anger, to intense self hatred and self harm, back to intense sadness and sorrow again and the cycle continues. And just when I think things are starting to look up, I find out my daughter has been crying to a friend of mine who is also my neighbor and confiding in her that she misses her cousin, but she never tells me anything. My evil mother and brother have successfully driven a wedge between me and my only child. It's just another heartbreak I have to deal with every day. It's impossible to heal when you have a child that has been affected like this and I know when she starts driving she will be going down there again around the narcs. We only live 45 minutes away from them, not nearly far enough. My dad was the only normal one but he allowed her to control him and betrayed me to save his own hide but it didn't save him because she finally murdered him, slowly over time the way they do. The "legalized" form of murder that Lisette described so brilliantly. I am at my wits end right now I can see why many are driven to suicide over this horrific abuse. Why does God allow these monsters to destroy people like this? I just can't understand it. I cry myself to sleep many nights from the heartache and fear of being alone. I have no one but my husband who really loves me. Thanks to my Jezebel of a mother, my daughter does not love me. She says she does but actions tell the truth, not words. And she causes me and my husband to fight and that's just another way the narcs keep causing problems in my life, even though I cut contact a full year ago. And I find myself hating myself and directing all the rage and anger I feel onto myself. When will this ever end?
ReplyDeleteThey are influencing your daughter very badly. She is still a minor and you could forbid her to ever go over there. Do they live in the same town? I know trying to get others to understand is impossible, I even would send smakintosh and narcissitic survivor videos to my brother and he would say "More homework?" They get offended at us speaking up for ourselves. I would tell your daughter direct, what is there to lose, that your narc mother is dividing you both.
DeleteThis is me and I know advice is risky, I dont want to cause anyone more trouble in their life, but I'd cut her off from them all and say why and how. She may rebel, but your mother is driving a wedge into your family that could hurt even your marriage. Tell your daughter what you see being done. Seriously. I wouldn't mince words with her.
If you want to compromise, say the cousin is allowed to YOUR house but she can't go there.
I do believe these narcs influence OTHERS to become narcs. My mother influenced people like that time and time again, bringing their evil out.
I know they steal everyone from us. I talk to my brother and the one niece and well, I know even there, the relationships are distant because of these narc abusers. Fight for your daughter, while she is a minor and get her away. You have the right to forbid her from having anything to do with these rotten people. I know I have a hard time writing this because I tried to "fight" for relationships and lost, but do what you can, and I would say to your daughter what is happening.
Sorry about what happened to your Dad. Yes they do that legalized murder and soul murder.
I understand and feel very sad for you. Sometimes I feel like I will never heal and the hell will continue life long, such as what happened to me with that horrible ex friend. Her betrayal came at the worse time. Losing a daughter to one of these monsters would drive me over the bend. I sometimes am glad I never had children because I never came out of the fog until a few years ago and that would have given them ample time to steal any. They probably would have vied for custody over my poor health and poverty. The same thing happened to me with nieces and nephews but a daughter that would be oh so much painful.
I'd take your daughter away from them all. Scorched earth. Tell her why. Please don't hate yourself, they do that to us too. I have felt the self hatred too and cried wondering why so many rejected me. These narcs did this to us.