Thursday, April 9, 2015
This can be a trap. One thing too if you are like me and know you are "different" from society, an Aspie, an artist and what some people would consider "eccentric", you are told in endless ways to scale yourself back. To pretend to fit in. Us Aspies especially when high functioning are told to "cloak" and always work on being socially acceptable.
My family rejected the real me. As I grew older and realized others liked my artistic and free thinking bent, and my intellectual forays and didn't spit on them every chance they got, inside I grew to like who I was more and more.
I don't want to try so hard. Take it from me, that is wasted effort around people who reject who you are. Go find the ones who like you. They are out there. I felt like my mother literally wanted to squish the real me out too, stomp me into the ground. Smakintosh would agree this would be to squish the light out!
One thing I am realizing is I can't keep company with people who reject me as the person I am.