Thursday, August 4, 2016

Making Fat People Look Bad



Maybe she is a food addict, I don't know, or maybe this is scripted TLC TV to make fat people look bad to go along with the pig that humped her leg. I told my husband about that show and he agreed with my disgust. I said it's all about fat people debasement. She's got money to hire a chef to cook three organic squares a day for her. Why is someone that rich eating crappy fast food?

When I saw this video, I can't sit through her entire shows anymore, I thought just tell the guy, "I am hungry all the time" and woman up and tell him, "That's four weeks of meals worth of food and I am messy and never clean my car" but don't do the scripted crying. Please just don't. Just tell the guy what you are eating and why. I made zuchini and cabbage soup at lunch and had a big bowl of it with a turkey sandwich on organic sourdough bread with 1 slice of swiss cheese, and dinner I had some rice noodles with chicken thighs and other veggies, and 2 hard boiled eggs at breakfast among my food, so I ate well today and I would tell the trainer everything I ate and why.
 
He probably would tell me, TOO MUCH FOOD, maybe. Carbs were a bit high but I kept the portions controlled. He would say to me, "You are 500 and something pounds why didn't you just eat a lettuce leaf for lunch?" I would tell him I was hungry and that won't cut it. I have this problem with the diabetes where if I do not eat a certain amount aka UNDER IT, the Sugars skyrocket like hell on earth. If I went to town and ate one of those giant chocolate cookies and eat bad foods, it would go bad for me too. This is like a science project. The blood sugar was 110 this morning. I do need to get more exercise.

But gah, why did they have to show her with her car full of fast food and cookies. Was that scripted or is she really having a food addiction problem? It makes all fat people look bad and like excuse makers. I believe some fat people out there do have food addiction problems but then food addiction can be SATIETY DISORDERS and to be honest with severe enough PCOS, the motor is humming for HUNGER DAY AND NIGHT. Someone with severe PCOS better be eating at normal intervals, and so our media and society will present her as the bad fat "glutton". Whitney isn't lazy running around to her various dance contests and such but they got the stereotypical pig-out a thons shown.

She probably is insulin resistant up the whazoo. Her extreme emotional lability is due to the PCOS too, that's could be a symptom of the extreme hormonal imbalances. Severe PCOS brings depression and anxiety and she's seems to be showing a lot of that. That's where her thinning hair is from and if the androgens are high enough--she doesn't seem to be turning masculine like I did for a time, the hunger levels are going to up along with them. That's one little fun symptom of PCOS, if you were one of the severe cases and she most likely is. Insulin resistance makes you HUNGRY. Insulin resistance does scary things, its one reason I had absolute no periods from the age of 19 to 44, unless forced by a drug. When I went on insulin the body went "Oh boy insulin for me!" and I started having periods, well too many periods but that's a problem I don't want to get into on here.

 My hunger remains a problem. I used to write about it all the time on this blog. When I lost my 250lbs from the 700 [now mostly 200 is still off] I had to figure out what foods controlled it compared to ones that do not.  Normal American eating was not on the roster. I have to cook like an old housewife from the 50s being in the kitchen several hours a day, just to keep the diabetes from killing me. I know normal people are not cutting cabbage at noon, they are at WORK.

  I have failed in losing more weight but have to do certain things NOT to gain. I am scared crapless even by the recent small gain, and know I have to be vigilant. As I have written I fight the same 100 over and over, or the same 50 the last few years. I see a lot of websites now where some are right wing ones and others are mainstream ones, or foreign ones, and there's a lot of people who are posting about "disgusting fat Americans".

A lot of the english speaking male world especially the ones who go on about the "decline of the West" and yes our culture is descending into degeneracy and their neo-fascist attitudes are not the answer either, they go on about how so many Americans have grown disgustingly fat especially the women. They all believe in CICO and "personality responsiblity" but I find myself think "Are Europeans all more moral and good then Americans? So why are Americans getting fatter like crazy compared to Europeans?"

The bad food, GMOs and toxins are bringing more endocrine disease, more PCOS, more insulin resistance. They will fatten us all up with the MSG, GMOs, crap food and stress, and then play "blame the victim"! Then you will have the thinsters judge and cry "off with their fat heads!". I don't want to be seen as the fat person who represents the America Idiocracy on many a cartoon. I don't want to be the one pictured at Wal-mart on a scooter with everyone clucking disgust at me as a sign and symbol of a falling nation. My body was not my choice.

Whitney Thore more and more looks like the new fat scapegoat meant to debase and degrade fat people and the repeating over and over of "answers" that hasn't work in 50 years. If insulin resistance is lowering her metabolism and giving her hunger problems, I hope she can get help. She may have sleep apnea too that is untreated. That was part of my original loss, and doctors tell me know my sleep apnea affects me stopping more weight loss even though it is treated and I never miss a night off the CPAP. If she is eating out of a psychological eating disorder I hope she can get help there too.

Fast food is poison. I personally hate the stuff. They put things in it to destroy your mind and body. Yes I know I sound like a foodie snob, but I know how I feel on good food compared to that crap from eating some of it years ago.

 I once had someone write me about being on a documentary via this blog, and it turned out they were in England, so when I told them I lived in America, they moved on. This was a long time ago. "Its for the better", I thought. Some people are extroverts and can pull this off. I am too autistic. I don't have the perky personality that reality TV especially but I know I have a big mouth and if they told me to bow down and cry and tell America I'm sorry for eating anything I'd tell them to kiss my butt. If they wanted me to have some pet pig, representing "me" as a TV metaphor, I'd quit that day. If they had some trainer fire me, I would hire another one.

I also am worried too about something else. I see a lot of fat people where we are truthful about medical conditions impacting our weight being ignored and not believed. People more and more are ready to string us all up and call us liars for claiming to have conditions or 'condishuns' as the fat hating proles like to spell it.

 I see news reports of women with severe Lipedema where it is obvious their body is swelling up with extreme fluids, and people making fat jokes. I suffered greatly from PCOS. I know I focus mostly on the Lipedema and the crap from the diabetes lately but PCOS did terrible things to me. One doctor even told me he thought I had adrenal hyperplasia. It covered my body in almost velvet darker brown/black skin patches. Now with this show, PCOS will just be seen as a joke, and a fat glutton's excuse, and the hue and cry will be "lose weight" with conditions that put weight on.  How many of us were told to diet as we got sicker and sicker? More people will be in danger of dying like me because of extreme delayed diagnosis or having their lives thwarted and ruined.

 I wish Whitney Thore was smarter then this, and would stand up for herself a bit. She never defends herself.  Now I know why I get mad when I see her cry. Part of me understands she is bawling her head off due to her hormonal imbalances, but I can see how they are using her emotions in a negative way for the agenda of this show.  It's not because I lack empathy, it's because I see what this show could do in terms of how people treat and view fat people. The backlash against size acceptance with it's ideological extremes has already come and it's growing. Maybe I am just an ornery old woman whose seen too much crap, but seeing another fat woman fulfilling the two sides of the fat lie coin [with extreme "I'm happy to be fat" delusional messages combined with nothing but self flagellation for being a supposed "gluttonious" fatty and being lectured on will power, grinds my gears. There's no free thinking here, only more forced conformity.  Take responsibility for what you are responsible for and past that she needs to stand up for herself and her health.

16 comments:

  1. I don't think we moved past the days the old doctors would tell people to be careful of heart attacks and what they eat, while a dangling cigar hung out of his mouth. I know how horrible it feels to be judged all the time over something that you can't control, but being told we are making excuses. Eating disorders is an emotional thing, and we can't tell people to just stop it, without getting present with them, not talking over their heads. Scapegoating is what it is.

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    1. It is a whole mind screw. I feel like I am going to crack up over gaining 30lbs, recently scared to death, of being 600lbs again, and what scares the crap out of me is I HAD LOWERED THE FOOD, and was exercising more well before the summer from hot hell itself shut me up in here like a prisoner. You know do this to people long enough and they will start to crack up. I am in shock the fat person suicide rate isn't higher. She may be more fortunate if she has an eating disorder if she is pigging out every minute, because all she has to do is eat normal. The fat people who "eat normal" and have an inability to eat no food, with low metabolisms have the least help. I agree she is being scapegoated. Her personality seems very disordered, like she is wearing a happy mask to have friends and stuff like that. When she cries, I think we are seeing the real person. The show is doing her no favors using her as a fat scapegoat and kicking post to impress upon the plebes how the fat proles "did it all to themselves".

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    2. I was food insecure more then usual even which meant LESS FOOD. It is insanity. Maybe I am playing catch up with the damn insulin. It was 30lbs after a whole year. There's not many scales around that fit me.

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    3. I measured to track too and was still surprised. Everyone thinks I weigh 400lbs which is even weirder. Someone told me lymph fluid is heavier.

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  2. I doubt if there is one full second not scripted and one thing in her seat that wasn't put there as a prop. I haven't done this with this show but with all those survival shows you find out the guy in the wild usually go's back and stay in the hotel with the crew. Reality shows are usually the least real thing on the tube.

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    1. I got the feeling all the skinny interns threw their over-sugared lattes into her car seat for the script, so yeah I see it as a prop. She's too rich to be eating fast food. If you could afford to choose anything are you going to pick the tasteless crap? LOL about the survival guys, yeah they are saying at the hotel. Yes this show has an agenda. I feel like I am living in some version of hell in this psycho country.

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  3. The neo fascist's are totally into blaming women for the downfall of our culture, especially fat women. I actually heard one talk to a woman about her "market value". I'm like, what is she a farm animal.I couldn't believe this woman didn't say anything.They are hideous and definitely not the answer to societies problems.The funny thing was they weren't at all good looking, they were graying, losing their hair. What did they think their market value was. Narcs,all of them.

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    1. I should do a post on the neofascists hatred of fat people. Yes they base everything on market value. If you know anything about the "men's movement", then they quantify women on hotness and social status, of course the feminist movement is no help either quantifying women completely on career success especially in this economic climate. I've read some of their boards, they are scary people and sociopaths. I actually met one well known one at an Asperger board where he admitted he was a sociopath. Most of the Aspies were afraid of him by the way. I have the Aspie talent of noticing details and remembering writing styles so I figured out who his other internet persona was which I was able to prove correct. Most are men who don't do so well at the "meat market" they are so worshipful of. It's really sick stuff. Actually fat people are going to be the new scapegoats. I know people think I am a "conspiracy theory" nut, but the lower classes of America are fattening up by gang-busters and I don't think it's all over-eating doing it either. There is a mighty back lash against size acceptance that is building right now, it will be put to use.

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    2. My status is low in this society, I am an outcast only above people in prison and the homeless. One value of outcast status is if you get thrown outside the fence you can start looking from the "outside". I am not sure what influenced this more Aspergers or the severe obesity, maybe both together.

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  4. Has your doctor ever discussed your severe hunger issues with you and what to do about them? Also, what do your doctors say about your blood sugar spiking when you eat less? Finally, have they ever measured your basal metabolic rate to determine how many calories per day you actually need, so that you could use that as a baseline for addressing your hunger? These are crucial questions your doctors need to answer in order to unlock a path to wellness for you. But based on what I've read on your blog, they seem to mainly react to symptoms you have rather than try to help you truly heal.

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    1. I've brought the question up with many of them and even have told them my blood sugar spikes when I eat less. I asked for the basal metabolic to be tested years ago but no one has done it. I need to research that and get a specialist in on that one. Yes I feel like everything was to deal with symptoms. There's so many appointments too. I've had light bleeding too I think is from a kidney stone, that already passed so there's a lot of stressful stuff. I told him about the kidney stone today. I know there's a lot of stuff to deal with me, but I do wish there was more dealing with the root cause. One did tell me recently there's no cure for Lipedema except what you are doing. I had someone get me the Lymphedema/Lipedema book for the special diet that helps the most, there's certain foods that affect the lymph system in different ways. So I am reading that now. A lot of things are out of my affordable reach. I know without Flexitouch and the daily wrapping I'd already be dead but sometimes I feel overwhelmed just managing the basic health stuff. Like I am tired now just made dinner which was salads with chicken on them, and various vegetables. I do need the basal metabolic rate, you are right. I remember asking for that 20 years ago even. With the hunger pain, I did teach myself to take some hunger pains to keep to the food schedule, ie hungry at 10:00 am after eating breakfast at 7:30 am but knowing I have to ignore the growling stomach or there will be too much food adding up at the end of the day.

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    2. I keep having periods and may have to go to gyn....uterine bleeding? I am clueless about what menopause does to a person, read about it and just get more confused. I went without periods more almost 25 years. [ages 19 until on insulin acouple years ago] unless they were forced by drugs. Last year they tested me twice, and it was just irregular periods. The health stuff overwhelms me a lot. I know I forgot to mention this today but I know he would tell me go to the gynecologist. What is scary is I get more comprehensive because they come to my house. Things used to be MUCH WORSE.

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    3. I have to stay away from the Whitney show for some time now, I was exercising all the time, getting beaten up like she is. Her life reminds me of mine in my 20s. I was an art teacher on my feet, worked as a camp counselor on my feet, walking 2-4 miles a day, then when the weight gain really went full froth--when I had no car--more walking, had a job on feet cleaning, walking, etc with teens as residential counselor and still getting fatter and fatter [I don't know what to believe about the eating they show her doing, in my case, I was scrounging for food and always going hungry but feast and famine sucks for weight] and I was going bald, and condemned and the long list of doctors and others calling me lazy, bum, etc. She may die if she goes down my road and doesn't demand more. I guess if we see 100 come on soon, she is screwed.

      I even do crap like not buttering toast any more when I do have it because I figure, it's calories I can't afford.

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  5. I'm planning to drop carbs and they have been somewhat, but it's been a struggle. The amount is far smaller which puzzles me about the recent weight gain.

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  6. The women's movement bugs me also because of all the focus on career. I also feel like an outsider because of being chronically ill.
    Periods and such do get weird for most women around menopause. That is the one place I was lucky. Early menopause , no symptoms. I am so glad that is all over. I had endometriosis and that was horrid..
    Sorry you have hunger issues. I had that all last winter and was wondering about my blood sugar, but then it stopped. I wonder now if it was seasonal or stress. I have no idea. Now I know sometime I am just eating from stress and am not really hungry. But I was really always hungry last winter and it was hard.
    I hope you can figure that out. You need a team of doctors who all work together.. That's a rich man's dream though .
    I dropped carbs and felt the best I felt in a long time for a while, and then I just crashed and felt really sick again, so I dropped it. I hope it works out for you.

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    1. I can't go off carbs completely get too sick, never would work, just dropped the amount. The whole paleo thing is too calorie rich, so that's another problem. Yeah the periods have gotten really weird. I always get migraines at start of them, having two in one month sucks. I am glad you got over it fast and had no symptoms but endometriosis sucks.

      Glad your hunger issues stopped. I wish I wasn't so hungry, I have to work ways around it too like eating a small piece of beef jerky or two spoonfuls of cottage cheese to kill it when it won't leave me alone. Winter can bring hunger, not sure if the cold does it. I find my hunger levels are higher in winter, but this summer hasn't been easy. Yeah about rich man dream. I had a team once that failed in three major diagnoses, but I was traveling to be there. It wasn't Mayo or anything like that, just too much fat bigotry. I get ill when there's too few carbs, it's too acute so understand what you mean.

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