Do Narcissistic Families Get a New Scapegoat When You are Gone?

A new book on recovery from scapegoating I found on Amazon: I'm going to order this one.

 When the scapegoat leaves a highly narcissistic family does the family designate a new scapegoat?

Makes you wonder, do they chose a new scapegoat? Don't go back! I am no contact with the whole bunch so have no idea if mine did. I am gone and it doesn't matter what they do anymore. I feel sorry already for whoever it is. I am the only one who managed to break away.

Even doing geneaology I looked for other escapees, one side of the family was definitely messed up with affairs and real grandpa sowing his wild oats far and wide. Maybe when some scapegoats leave, their families fracture apart.  When you pull the "everyone's trashcan for negativity" thread out, maybe it crumbles apart. If you have the guts to leave and stay gone for years and years,  others will notice: "Hey she's gone, if I don't go to Christmas dinner or blow off that wedding, whose going to care, Scapegoat Sue has done far far worse by disappearing!" They may find the courage to do slow fades and low contact themselves.

After all you already pulled a disappearing act and that doors been opened. The scapegoat has already committed the supposed ultimate evil by going poof so what they do will pale in comparison. This can give others permission to fade from the family. Spouses that don't like the main narcissists or are competing narcissists will withdraw as well. People today live far away, what will people mean who live hundreds of miles away after 25 years?  There are no positive memories of "family" to keep the motivation up to remain in contact.

The others may be cowards and did what they were told, but rule by fear only goes so far. The narcissist will get old and that alone will remove the youthful energy it takes keep things going.  Some families probably do fracture apart after the scapegoat leaves. I'm not sure if they pick a new one or not. If mine happened to, I hope the new scapegoat finds the courage to escape. 

From my Sketchbook

 

Birds

 

I have a better camera now, so hoping to take more photos, this was a recent one. 

Unfriending Conservative People without Empathy

This guy called me Debbie Downer the other day. I unfriended him. He is a libertarian from my old town. People in my old rural town are nuts. The place has a Q believer for a mayor and on the Facebook boards they talked about how two of the city council members were at Trump's insurrection, I don't know if they were in the Capitol building or not. It's a damn good thing I never moved back there. The place has gone insane. 

This guy was an atheist but still into the conservative movement. He is rich and flies airplanes and goes to Europe.  I know a lot of people judge me for not being perky and a lot of NTs hate Aspies for not being happy acting enough. I even said you expect me to smile and be positive as the world burns and they have destroyed our lives. He doesn't recognize his own privilege. I am sick of people judging me for not being happy enough or even talking about injustice in general. He was mad at me for talking about all the homelessness that's going to happen from Covid. If I am a Debbie Downer I was made this way.

I have been thinking about the kind of people out there who think everything's all right jack, even during a pandemic. It's kind of messed up. Many of them are upper class boomers. If you noticed all those Capitol protesters had cash for 80,000 trucks, their endless flags and trips to Washington DC. So many good jobs lost due to their traitorship.

 I don't mind fellow UUs trying to be cheerful and doing some volunteer work, I mean people like that make you happier, and don't insist on patroling your emotions. But these conservative types, this one actually posted against the minimum wage. They are so petty lest someone get a dollar above them, even as they rake it, they glory in a world view where they can be in the highest position while spitting down on those below. I guess that describes the entire Republican party. 

This particular guy didn't like Trump, but he embraced all the Charles Murray crap and gave people lectures on one Facebook board about "bettering" themselves, still thinking it was 1980 and a college degree automatically opened the door to the middle class. These are the types who will tell you things like "Go feel sorry for yourself, blame everything on external conditions!" Which is kind of funny given that they will go on about how everyone is victims while doing everything to destroy our lives. This one at least wore masks but most of his compatriots spread pandemic.

He summed up our conversation with:

"As to me, I've got a meeting with another potential capitalistic partner. Excelsior!" 

All the small minds only care about their money and privilege. The world can burn but if their cable and tablet work they don't give a damn. Those homeless people down the street can suck it according to types like this, they didn't "improve" themselves. 

I'm still cleaning the slate this many years in. I don't buy that unity talk about allowing people with different views in anymore. I don't expect friends to be carbon copies, but some people do have shitty values, and I don't want them in my life anymore. I realized many of these people match the anti-values of my so called family.

I responded:

"So who are you to judge whose refusing to "improve their lot" in life? Oh I forget that bottom ledger is supposed to count for everything. Silly me. Save the speeches for those who still "believe". Wonder what our old rural town's poverty rate is now? 50 percent? [It was 37 percent just a few years ago]

What is the rate now of sociopathy in America? If this place folds, the lost altruism did it. A society can't survive when everyone's just out for themselves. I pay attention now to what values the people I surround myself with have, if they suck or they don't have any, I am done. People of the corrupt system have nothing to offer me.

Republicans have more psychopathic traits

The Fat Hatred of the Lipedema World and Whitney Wants Weight Loss Surgery

2014 study on the hardships of high stage Lipedema. I may have even participated in this one but know I did others--I was diagnosed in 2014.

Where are the size acceptance people are when it comes to the Lipedema world? I seem to be the lone voice. Did all the other supersized stage 4s give up and walk away from these Lipedema groups on Facebook? If they did, I don't blame them. It's weird the world is burning and Covid is spreading but people stick to the "thin is in" religion even though the gyms are all closed and our activities have all been curtailed.

I try to ignore the Lipedema boards but do read to find out the few decent medical facts.  More caution is needed. I have noticed a large one has become worse than Weight Watchers with the newly thin although with still puffy legs under their thinness all bragging about their weight loss. This isn't my first time complaining about fat hatred in the Lipedema world, but it's worsening. I need to stay away from these places for my mental health.  On this go around, one snottily wrote, "Weight loss is not impossible with Lipedema!". She looked like a size one or so on top maybe a size 6 or so on the bottom. She wore a bare midriff top too. My settings were changed so the postings aren't visible unless I decide to go over there. Yeah there has to be more of a firm line.

The diets they push have grown more extreme too over the last year. I would post a few disagreements. I do not post to this blog because I want to keep it anonymous, but basically I was ganged up on. The thin at any cost brigade propeled by a society that backs up their hatred of fat people never gave up. Things worsened with more women bragging about giving up every carbohydrate, or eating the Carnivore diet. One woman claimed she only eats only 4 hours a day from 2pm to 6pm, she must not experience hunger pain, making that doable for her intermittent fasting. Another one decided that eating every other day and going completely without food every day in between was her answer. For years, I have been ignored when talking about the degree of hunger I cope with. I have hunger pain now but am pushing lunch back on purpose to spread food out. How bad will these groups be next year, will some have attained Karen Carpenter's level? 

Did size acceptance die? Oh it's still out there, but it's been cast out of the mainstream.  Everyone got fatter, and being fat was painful so now they are pulling out what used to be considered eating disordered behaviors for the anorexic side of things. When your Lipedema boards read like pro-ana boards with people bragging of going days without eating or eating only meat than you start to wonder. Their diets would kill me too. The kidney stones from the Carnivore diet would bring a painful death. This where the majority of the Lipedema world has gone now. To question any of this too, makes you a non-person in those circles, they only care about weight loss success and nothing else. They will definitely shout you down. My marginalization is so complete there, I've never seen anything like it. Maybe I'm too Aspie, to please a group of looks oriented women, or they seem me so much as the "other" because I am "so far gone" but it's disappointing beyond belief. My long time readers know this about me, but sometimes I hate being female, always having to worry about looks or being expected to obey this societal mandate that my body and how it conforms should be the central motive of my life. 

If this was a man's disease, the medical world would looking into the endocrine causes, and why the lymph system failed, or why some of us get fibrosis and lipomas, diets would not be seen as the answer. Because it's women, all the Lipedema boards read like Cathy comics from hell. They focus on fat even though the body is full of fluids. Weight loss is everything. I don't even see anyone talking about infections or pain on there anymore.

How are the newly poor from Covid supposed to afford their special diets? Class issues and Covid barely exists on these boards with the sole focus being weight loss. I am scared about my weight being tied down inside so much due to winter. My parathyroids are going [again] and doctors are doing their usual linear by the numbers stuff and not explaining why I am getting hypercalcimia. My theory now is that the high levels of uric acid and kidney stones could be part of another endocrine problem or issue that is being neglected. 

The doctors all looked burned out. So I am afraid of having another complicated issue happening now. I am supposed to get a PTH test done in March. This may be yet another issue I have to fight for diagnosis on. Hmmm that one doctor back in the 90s thought there were polyendocrine autoimmune issues. The doctors have turned cold, maybe for good reason and have even less empathy. All the fat hating eugenics related to Covid have not helped, since we have been told without hesitation we would be the first on the triage list. It's scary out there.

I don't feel support in the Lipedema world except by a few friends I met online who have it. The punishing words and put downs remain the same. Following my ACON rule of staying away from people who make you feel like garbage, I've withdrawn from the online boards more and more. While I meet a few like-minded women, they've been marginalized same as me, silenced as well.

Only the thin or those pulling out all stops from starvation to 6 hours a day in the gym are considered "worthy" and you can see the ableist pecking order where the smaller lower stages get all the praise. Lipedema puts some women in nursing homes and wheelchairs, and I have a few friends who have died very young I met online, but instead of the seriousness of this condition being dealt with, we are told diets are the answer! It pisses me off. If this illness is supposedly all about fat and diets, how are we going to get real treatment or help? Why do they ignore the pain for so many of us, where doing more makes the fluid come on? It's far more complext in higher stages.  I had to collect urine for kidney tests for 24 hours and noticed I took off 1600 fluid ounces after using my Flexitouch. How is that normal? That's a few pounds of pee! I poured it off into the collection jar. 

A lot of the women seem like normal sized women, who aren't even fat but may be low stage 1s who got a surgeon to give them some liposuction and came on to model their near normal or normal bodies. There's no support there too. Kicking around the fats seems to be a new sport for more budding narcissists now.

A few times I talked about size acceptance and fat liberation but I tell those are rare and refused concepts in the Lipedema world. I was wasting my breath. I'm not sure how to proceed. Maybe I dreamed of acceptance and fitting in, in Lipedema circles. I got banned from one stage 3-4 board because this one admin decided she didn't like me. Some of this was my mistake, asking if it was right for someone to be a member of the board who was trying to sell Shakeology diets to us. Sometimes us Aspies get in trouble with too much truth-telling. Groups don't often like that kind of thing. Ex-scapegoats are warned to be cautious and "pick their battles". Anyone hear anything about Shakeology lately? Another fad diet in the dust bin, sooned to be joined with Keto and Carnivore.

 Reddit is an extreme fat hating world too. If I mention anything weight or obesity related, I get my head ripped off. The default is that you are an overeating pig and deserve what you got. I can tell that horrible show 600lb life has just added to the fat hatred. Dr. Now and his producer son, have not presented super-fat people in a positive light. Are millennials more fat hating now? I'm not sure. There definitely seem to be more fat younger people. I went to the grocery store with my husband, waited in the car and saw a woman who had to be at least 450lbs in her 20s walking in. The pressure to be thin, definitely has grown higher. Her world did not look an easy one.

Pursing the genetic testing has not been easy. I want to know. Doctors don't always care about knowledge for knowledge's sake, and my Covid overwhelmed doctor from his housebound elderly patients, probably doesn't care about getting Peep her free rare obesity genetic tests she found online. I told him about the website, and even asked the company to send me paperwork so I could make it easy for the doctor and have him sign off. They told me, the doctors had to go through the website. Perhaps I can get a specialist to help. I have wanted genetic testing for years. There is another path to use my Ancestry DNA on this one genetics website, but that will cost some money. For years, I have known something is different, my physical attributes go beyond severe obesity, the near deafness, my small mouth, the way I am built, there's a lot of things that point to genetic problems. 

I have failed at weight loss, even keeping it stable, is all I can do on my usual food schedule, and doing Comcast TV exercise. I marched in place for 10 minutes yesterday and walked some in the hall.  Life on Covid house arrest sucks. Whenever I did venture out to walk around trying to avoid people or go anywhere, I was faced with way too many maskless people. Even today this maskless woman sat out our apartment foyer breathing all over the place.  Living like this is getting depressing and it seems like it's never going to end. I will never forgive the people who did this to us. They couldn't shut down some international flights because the richy riches always get their way.

I make sure to walk a little bit once or twice a week but that got harder. The kidney stones are having me transfer to a near vegetarian diet. I still eat a little meat. New vegetarian recipes have become part of my life.  I put 2 chicken sausages in dish of food we ate for two dinners, so had half a chicken sausage at one meal.   Morningstar and Dr. Praeger veggie patties are on the menu.  Oddly more removal of meat dropped my blood sugars somewhat, down by 20 points. [108 this morning]

 I don't expect weight loss from this. It just doesn't happen though for normal people, the calorie deficient would probably take a little off. It's to keep from dying of a kidney stones. The day the fascists attacked the Capitol is the day I got a giant one, with back pain and all. I gave up red meat 5 years ago. So this is lowering of other meat.

Whitney Thore who I still believes has undiagnosed Lipedema is buckling under pressure, and now wants weight loss surgery.  She needs to not waste her platform and to refuse the pressures of our fat hating society. More and more I think her show is meant to prop up the diet industry, instead of challenging it. She should have it out with her producers and turn things around.

All the worse stereotypes about fat people are promoted by her show, knowingly or unknowingly. Fat people are childish, we see Whitney running to her parents for every little thing. Fat people don't deserve romantic relationships the same as others, so we see Whitney cling to Buddy as her sloppy seconds who treats her like garbage, uses her for free rent and refuses to commit. She then had her rumored to be fake relationship, where her now ex-finace Chase cheated on her and had a baby with another woman. Now we see the usual gambit, of the woman still hated even though she exercises all the time, giving in to the diet industry juggernaut! Weight loss surgery as the supposed answer. Hopefully she will back away and this is only a one show venture.

Why doesn't Whitney pursue more answers? She has the cash to go to the weight loss program at Duke University, or another inpatient diet place to get some weight loss on track. She could have doctors figure out what is going on. She could see the ultimate PCOS specialist in the world, maybe they could put her on an androgen blocker like I was which made my weight loss possible down from 700lbs. I was forced off this drug 5-6 years ago due to other medical issues but it could help her.

She could be stabilize at a decent midsized weight if she got medical issues dealt with. She has resources and a platform many others do not.  She has pain, and obviously she can't do everything the thin people do, she's succumbing to the pressure. It's another Carnie Wilson trip: "get weight loss surgery". Whitney should not be talked into the sleeve or the RNY, go for the D and S [duodenal switch], risks and all, at least she won't have the embarrassment of the later regain to come since the metabolism sinks in so many. I hate all weight loss surgery but if I was forced at gun point to do it, I would want the one that works.

Remember that show Ruby? That was another show about a superfat woman, that one focused on weight loss though. She weighed 700lbs and lost a big chunk, I think around 380 or so in her case, but when she stopped losing and had some regain they removed her show off the air. Supposedly she lied about her weight.

Things are getting worse for fat people. I still plan to rejoin NAAFA, though so many bills got in the way for now. It is still on the roster. These weight loss pushing people all they do is make me depressed. Telling people they are pieces of crap doesn't help anyone get healthier. Somehow this is still the way they want to do it with fat people. The abuse out there is getting worse. I can tell. Hell just my moniker fivehundredpoundpeep brings out the haters. They are still sticking to the failed answers of the last 40-50 years.

I feel for the woman who wrote this article last year talking about Lipedema. One thing I notice they never talk about is the pain of Lipedema, everytime I move it hurts and it has taken a toll. It's always with the attitude "fat ass go lose weight --no matter what it takes", "even if you have to go without eating a few days a week". That's basically the message of the majority of Lipedema support groups I've been on! I fear for her if she discovers what some of the Lipedema boards are like. That's going to be a blow. Hatred for obesity has grown so bad, even if you have a rare fat disorder, it doesn't matter, you better be thin or else!

Whitney would be better off to eat three healthy meals a day--get best food she can, portions, lower meat, lots of vegs, exercise a certain number of days a week, food schedule with no free eating inbetween, and let the chips fall where they may and make her size a non issue. Go join NAAFA and raise a middle finger to the diet and weight loss surgery pushers.

Many of the people here don't get that fat people have been told they are "not enough" their entire lives, and blamed and shamed. Doesn't make any of them thin, just fucks them up inside. I like healthy food, exercise, and things like that but the poison, and the drip drip drip of "you suck" wears down on fat people. I've had my fill. Sometimes the internet can be a toxic place. One needs to be careful on here.  That Lipedema board sent me into some more bad feelings, the feeling of "never enough". Sometimes I hate this world, petrified of weight gain by being locked in the house, not able to go anywhere without fearing immediate death because so few here wear masks. We now have an entire year lost.

They all praise the newly thin like they are gods and people like me are no one. This is one sick society. I will be okay and remind myself self-compassion is the answer. I can only do what I can do. I'll do the exercise and go make myself some tofu patties with zucchini for lunch and eat a vegetarian burrito with peppers for dinner and will know all my haters will consider me a liar and that I huffed down a few cakes and pizzas but they never believed me all these years so what does it matter at a certain point? 

And you see that in Whitney. She annoys me as I have written about her possible narcissistic traits but I also realize how she was influenced and the pain they unload on fat people that is never ending.  Since she was a normal sized person for most of her young life, and then skyrocked in weight during college, it messed her up. This is more evidence to me of the possibility of her having Lipedema, remember I'm the woman who was midsized until my early 20s but than had my huge weight gain. It's weird to see her up through college being normal sized.  I hate to see her doing the weight loss surgery thing, she's giving in the fat hating society that's basically abusing her for the sake supposedly of "health". I still say she has Lipedema. It's sad even with all her body positivity stuff, she has never heard of the basics of fat liberation. One can tell she feels like she's "not enough" inside, with her conservative parents that wanted a thin and petite married woman with babies for a daughter, and with a society that denigrates her even as she has achieved a level of fame. She has a group of nice friends hopefully they are real and not just for the show.

Even if she figures out she has Lipedema or got diagnosed with it, she better be careful. That world is making weight loss everything too though Lipedema does more than give you a higher number on a scale. It's still open season on fat people. If anything it's gotten worse in the last 5 years. The Lipedema world has a few decent people like Dr. Stutz but from what I am seeing, it's become abusive, with the shoving of diets down people's throats, that gets worse year by year. Why has the Lipedema world grown so toxic? Why are people even with success and fame, feeling like they are "not enough"? Things shouldn't be this way.

False Promises

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The Christo-Fascists, Trumpsters and Their Attempted Coup

Some time ago I wrote this article:

Is Gilead Coming? Theocracy in America.

I reacted with horror to the Capitol Storming,  glued to the TV all day.  Stress gives me kidney stones too. Instead of people protesting for Medicare for All, social and economic equity, and for UBI, we have the Idiocracy of America rioting and attempting a coup for fascism and greater oppression. 

My husband was still asleep and I ran into the bedroom during the first news reports and said, "Gilead's taken over the Capitol!"  He was in shock and ran to go look at the TV too. 

America has lost it's mind and is now dancing with possible Civil War over a sociopathic ingrate named Donald Trump. 140 Republican representatives all came out against certifying the election, and helped pave the way for this too. Trump got up and incited his MAGA minions to storm the Capitol. Why Trump hasn't been led off on a perp walk yet is disturbing to me. He's being given too much time to do tons of damage in a narcissistic rage. He'll burn down the whole country with his stupid ego. 

Pence has failed us and refused to institute the 25th amendment. Congress is now working on impeaching Trump but sadly more Republican traitors that allowed Trump to stay the last time, may betray us yet again. More threats of violence are out there including would be planned attacks on State Houses. 

Evangelical Christianity and the Christo-Fascists have pushed all this. They want to rip down democracy all together and replace it with dictatorship. This is why they want to toss out an election, this is why they preach dominance at all costs. Their religion is one of authoritarianism, and their politics are too. They want to control everyone. Freedom is to be wiped away. 

These were not poor people storming the Capitol, but privileged white middle aged/and boomer aged Karens and Kens who got fired from very good jobs as reported in multiple newsreports for their criminal sedition. Too bad these jerks don't really stand for anything except destruction and lies and being plague rats who refuse to wear masks. How stupid can people get? They disgust me. 

Sadly one thing I worry about now as a result of their actions, kind of like when a teacher punishes a whole class for two really bad kids, is the state now will hammer down on "domestic terrorists" .  This is understandable to a degree, but the Bill of Rights is about to be shredded even more. Leftists and others will be silenced too.  Those too uneducated to learn how germs and pandemics work, probably lack the insight to think two steps ahead.

The Capitol Storming was the mixture of absurd theater, people who acted like they were on a cosplay lark, filming themselves openly for videos to be played at their future trials, and hard core murderers, criminals and others who killed policemen and planned murders and kidnappings of liberal legislators they hated. The fact the next three successors to the presidency were present is scary too. One man showed up with zipties in a paramilitary outfit, showing his intentions, oddly he brought his Mom with him. The weird guy in facemake up and horns worked as an actor but lived in his Mom's basement. The stereotype of the conspiracy Q addled incel in the basement perhaps applies here. 

I found out my old extremely conservative rural town, had city officials joining Trump's traitor parade, and that one may have even been in the Capitol. The people there said they were going to go report them. Lest anyone here think these are just rare criminal creeps going on Facebook, seeing classmates try to equate looting that happened at BLM protests with a full attempted coup made me want to throw up. The sheer number of people making excuses for all of this was upsetting. I had unfriended or been unfriended by most but could still see some of their posts via other friends.

The Trumpsters posted defenses of the indefensible. While some more educated Republicans like Colin Powell have jumped ship, the MAGA masses are still buying into the myths that range from "antifa did it, to Trump is innocent". Their concerns about censorship as Twitter and other companies have shut down their radical right wing websites like Parler, have a tiny bit of merit, but what do they expect when the focus is on overthrowing the government and 245 years of a representative republic? Even hard core Capitalists know that Civil War II is very bad for business. 

I wrote on one Facebook deconversion group, that I had deep shame for ever being associated with evangelicals at all. Even though I was anti-Dominionist when I was a Christian and wrote against it online, I am beyond creeped out that some things are progressing that I used to warn about.  Chris Hedges warnings about America's rapid descent seem more appropriate than ever.

America COULD go the way that Iran did in the 1980s. People don't realize, a country can be taken over by 30% of the populace, who are extremists. It happened there, with Islamic fundamentalists. Refer to the graphic novel Persepolis. The American Taliban is just like Isis, they want authoritarianism, they want religious rule. When I stared at myself in the mirror, deconverting in that one moment, saying "This religion is about oppression". I was right. Sometimes I feel like I escaped just in time. If I was among these circles during the depth of the Trump era, I don't know how I would have coped.

Bruce Grenenscer has posted about the Capitol Would be Coup  and he is right about the beliefs of the evangelical Christians influencing their horrific politics. 

"That many of these insurrectionists were Evangelical Christians, should not be ignored. It’s clear to me that one mass delusion helped fuel another. These same people believe that Christianity is under attack, there’s a war on Christmas, and secularists and atheists are out to take over “their” country. On prominent display were followers of QAnon; people who are at war with the deep state; people who believe the US government is controlled by baby-eating pedophiles. Throw in a plethora of anti-science beliefs, and the mob that took over the Capitol yesterday is beyond reason. Anyone who has tried to reason with such people knows that they are beyond reason and facts. If people can uncritically believe that a virgin had a baby, a man resurrected from the dead three days after died, and the Bible is the very words of God and every word in it is true, it is not hard for them to embrace irrational (and dangerous) political ideologies. About all else, we have a truth crisis. Tens of millions of Americans have already bought into alternative explanations for what happened on Wednesday, including believing that the insurrection was fueled by ANTIFA masquerading as Trump supporters. I have several family members who have already bought into alternative explanations for what happened. No amount of evidence or facts will change their minds. Jesus is Lord, Donald Trump is God, and Democrats and secularists are Satanic."

We have this segment of the population now, mostly evangelical Christian that does not believe in science, and has spread plague to every corner of American because wearing a mask is too much for them. We have this segment of the population who does not believe in democracy or being able to accept a voted in leader they lost to. We are in very dangerous times now. We are in danger of the USA folding, or being broken up. While yes our government has grown too corrupt and is too bought off by corporations, people don't realize the alternatives when full dictatorship takes over and when there is no more free press, or voting has been wiped away. We can tell who are the kids who slept through Civics class. The Seven Mountain Monsters want control of every segment of life. 

These white men with full armories, flak jackets and AK 47s were allowed to enter our state houses with no backlash, and how things just got worse and worse. If these men were POC, they would have locked everything down and shot them the second they touched the outer most step of the Capitol building. These MAGA seditionists are racist privs who don't want to lose their elevated place in society.  Look all the insurrectionists getting arrested, they all have money and 6 figure jobs. It takes cash to prep and buy an arsenal.

I've been hanging out on a Qanon message board for people who are dealing with those in their families who have turned to Qanon beliefs. I have lost friends who have, so posted about that. I also posted about my time where I got indoctrinated by conspiracy though in my case I never was Q, always hated Trump and the Republican party. One poster wrote this to me. It sums things up and I agree with him:

"I blame religion for this Qanon shit. It's not surprising that folks who were indoctrinated since childhood to accept things like talking snakes, the virgin birth & human sacrifices resurrecting will in turn believe other crazy shit. Religion taught them to accept nonsense. And they have en masse."

I fear political correctness and wanting to handle religion with kid gloves because of all the complicated implications, may have people avoid the fact that the reason America is going into a New Dark Ages. The reason for this is people have adapted Dark Ages beliefs. One thing I explored was the idea that there was so much backlash against Counter-Culture ideas which changed society that people went backwards into total regression.

I wrote this on another message board myself.

"Christianity ITSELF is a conspiracy theory. I never was Republican or a Q, always hated Trump, but I fell into conspiracy while fundie and religion ruined my thinking and made it happen so guess what I am thinking, when I watch these people. I fault Christianity for what is happening in America. Religion IS TIED to this. I remember all the anti-government, and other BS they taught me in the IFB. I was on disability so I secretly voted for Obama, for survival. LOL [Yeah I had Cognitive dissonance up the whazoo" Catholic school taught me not to trust or explore science and to think the last days were coming {I learned about Fatima more than math or evolution} so they prepped me for the fundies."

Critical, rational and sane thinking is being shut down.

I wrote this post in 2017:

Fundamentalist Religion and the Rejection of Science in America

Do you see where things are going?

I hope the USA manages to survive, and there is some addressing the corruption and more. This country is on a very dark path, when such a large segment of the population no longers believes in reality and democracy anymore.