Saturday, March 26, 2022

The Long Emergency

  

I am reading  "The Long Emergency" right now. . Kunstler warns of the collapse of society years ago he didn't realize how bad things it would get. This book is an update to a previous book written in 2006. The book includes individual stories of people working and living outside of modern society. So far I've read about two organic farmers and a man in Baltimore so I am about half way through.

 I am old and without children but maybe some of you with families should maybe face some of things head-on, in terms of what would bring the greatest chances of survive. Think about learning permaculture and how to grow food. Don't live in apartments dependent on the system. Find close-knit rural communities. I failed to do those things for now but maybe you have the health and vitality to pull it off still.  Peak oil people warned years ago, that the energy was going to go away, and that solar and wind wasn't going to be able to keep our present day industrial world going. They are wringing out the very last drops via all the fracking. It is going to run out. 

The Mad Scientists

  


Unless they close the gain of function/bioengineering labs, humanity's on the way to extinction. 

Check out this video especially the 42 minute mark.

from a comment Listen closely to Dr. Baric as he speaks, initially about such things as "transgenic mice"

And later, at around the 42 minute mark, watch him chuckle about the dangers of his research"

Another comment: "43:52 "Suppose you had a transgenic animal with human receptor and there was evidence that there was some predictability for human-to-human respiratory transmissibility. Would that experiment be appropriate, do you think?"


 I still don't understand why there haven't been arrests of the "gain of function" biological warfare engineers even in America, that created all this and who destroyed millions of not billions of lives. Maybe some people who lost relatives should file lawsuits against some of these people. Maybe it's happened already.  

What's sad is most normies I talk to don't want to hear about the origins of Covid, they buy the "bat soup" theory and think all of this is just "conspiracy theory"

See: Was Spars-Covid 2 Designed to Spawn So Many Variants? 

If the virus is real, I don't see any of this getting better. I don't want to scare my readers but a humanity full of spike proteins from vaxx or virus is a humanity that is not going to have as long as life spans. Spike proteins and vascular systems don't do well together. If it keeps mutating without end, and there is no switch over to intense research on cures or treatment [IVM? HCQ?]  society will not be able to continue.

 If the virus is not real, they seem intent on carrying this out for years and years. It frustrates me I can't make a decision on this but I am just a human being too. Many dissenting scientists who warn about the vaxxes do see the virus as real though some differ as to how dangerous or wide spread it is.

"Nothing to See Here

This might be a pure coincidence: certain bats, sitting in the caves 1,000 km away from Wuhan, purely by chance decided to follow the suggestion of the 2010 Baric article and modified the nsp14 ExoN genes in order to make their virus mutate faster — just for fun.

We know the rest of the story: those bats also borrowed parts of the HIV genome, and parts of genetic code to make the NGVEGF peptide from Swine Flu of 2008. In addition, these bats illegally violated Moderna’s patent and inserted a Moderna patented sequence into the key place of the Sars-Cov-2 virus as well, obviously without Moderna’s permission.

I mean, why would Moderna give bats permission to use its patented code in Sars-Cov-2? There is no reason at all! The billions that Moderna made from Covid-19 vaccines, surely, are completely unrelated."

Can You Keep Old Friends in Your Life After You Heal?

 


This is a good video, which talks about what I went through with old friends. As people here know after my no contact, I had to leave multiple friends behind. Two main ones from college were completely against my no contact from the family. Some of us waked up to the fact our "friends" treated us just like our family with the same abuse, put downs and more.

Two things I have worked on is telling people "no" and working on my own needs which changed things a lot in my life. Covid did kind of interrupt my life rebuild. It makes me sad, how things were turning around for me, in my life but it's better the healing came before all of what we are going through now. 

I went No Contact: They Didn't

Monday, March 7, 2022

Life on the Edge of the Tribulation

 

from Facebook--"chronically strange and uncomfortable"

Add prepping to this list, make your list of preps to buy to survive the apocalypse!

I've decided to mellow out on talking about politics etc. with people in general. It's better to be more at peace with folks. It's not worth the strife. I'll still post about things on here but need to be more chill in regular life. It's not like I can join the "conservative" world and fit in there either. So I will be in this outliner place, but need to work on getting along with people. I can't force everyone to see my way of thinking though I'll make my stands and own decisions. It's not worth pulling relationships apart over it all, though one has to of course stick by their principles at a certain point. 

One problem with being on the spectrum the mouth or typing filter is harder to maintain. I did tell one group, "I don't want nuclear war" and "I wish we could put all our world leaders on an island, and let them all fight it out and leave the rest of us alone!"  They didn't seem too bothered by this.  They seemed to agree. People are definitely getting afraid especially us older folks who had to live through the Cold War, and watch movies like The Day After. Online, there were these conspiracy people who said nuclear weapons were fake. That sounds too good to be true, though I wish it was. My nuclear war anxiety stems from childhood. I lived in this huge city where we would have been one of the ground zeros. The nuns at Catholic school told me all about Fatima prophecies that foretold nuclear war with Russia. So there's a lot of angst about it all. We never had to go under desks for drills like people older then me. It disturbs me how there are too many war hawks out there now who have forgotten what nuclear war will really mean. One can feel sorry for the Ukrainians while not wanting to have the landscape peppered with mushroom clouds.

 

No one wants war. Years ago I read Putin saw Russia as the "Third Rome", I'm not sure if these ambitions are true or not. Too many poor people now are suffering from war. I spent years protesting wars in the 2000s. One thing to remember:

 

It makes me wonder if normal people are starting to wonder why the people in charge are so incompetent and evil? Why do they seem hellbent on starting World War III? It keeps me up at night a lot too. One thing I think happened to society is the corrupt took over. In the old days you had to prove some competence to rise up, now it's mostly connections and money that takes people to the top. It's hard to decide at times which people in power are evil and sold out or which ones are simply stupid? Some may say nothing has changed and things have always been this way. Humanity will end up extinct unless something is done about the sociopathy problem. 

I'm still too paranoid to go join groups in person so I am still fearing Covid germs.  Is Covid over with? 
 Some seem to think it isn't, some say it is.  I asked one group if they planned to continue zooms, and they said they were. I talked about rejoining life and groups, but my husband wants me to wait. He has to drive me to these places anyhow. He's working a lot of hours so only has so much time. I used to miss a lot more meetings and things before everything was on Zoom but it's weird how I don't see many people in person anymore, just a few people.  I wonder how much it's affected me. My social skills are probably in the toilet lately.

A guy at one store, told my husband, that someone almost died of Covid recently [two weeks ago] who was on the night shift. He was put on a ventilator but lived and is recovering. It's hard to know what is going on, my access to "word on the street" now is only so much. There's a lot of scary health problems arising from the vaxxes. There seems to be a lot of scary and RARE illnesses cropping up among friends. A lot of people do seem sicker and more run-down. I sometimes feel weird walking around wearing KN95s/N95s watching people celebrate the seeming "end" of Covid. Scientists on twitter are warning of brain decline, and bad long term effects from even "mild Omicron". Who knows what's from the vaxx or virus there too?  It's still hard to know what is going on. 

Today I have to go clean out a closet and clean up a bunch of stuff. A pick up stick for the disabled is handy.  We need to grocery shop soon, and have to figure out what to make for lunch, I microwaved a left over tofu sausage and made a sandwich out of from breakfast. Cabbage soup with butter beans was for lunch. 

Doom Scrolling can be a very bad habit, I get into it way too much trying to prepare for the worse but it can wear you out and just make you more depressed.  One has to enjoy life whatever is left of it. Be careful of reading all the bad news. I need to figure out how to get a life again. A lot of life is housework, cooking, medical stuff, some art work and watching anime--I'm watching this unusual one where this woman chases after this cold seemingly narcissist genius boy wishing she'd pick the rambunctious chef who is far nicer. I am new to anime and wonder if I am seeing some differences culturally in Japanese relationships and what is valued for marriage. 

Prepping is going to be made more of a focus in my life. I got a solar panel, which will power my powerpack Jackery in a long term power outage. This will enable me to sleep if the power is out. The Jackery was obtained to keep my CPAP running. Two nights of power can be stored on it. I have prepping lists and have had food stores, water stores and MRES before in here, but we have used things up, during a power outage we used up some of the MREs. During times of less money, we ate the food.  I always wanted to live in a house on some land, so investigated renting a house, even in our rural areas, the houses were more expensive, with 300 dollar gas bills to add on to the rents that were 40-50% higher. I remain in an apartment.


I'm watching videos like this. I have some canned food stored up but it doesn't feel like enough. This includes some canned meat like on her first video but I am planning to go buy some canned vegetarian/vegan items in a week or two as well. 
 
My apartment complex was purchased by a new entity and our rent is going up 130 dollars a month on the new lease. It kind of scared us.  We hope this isn't going to be a yearly event. We can pay it, but it is more strain.  We discuss moving yet again but this constant starting over is wearing. The rural towns with far cheaper rent would mean 60 mile round trips for me to see every specialist. We don't always have money for endless road trips. For instance, I have to see my eye doctor, dentist, kidney, urologist, and ear doctor in the next couple of months then my rheumatologist later on. Included in that are two blood tests, one scan and hearing test. Moving away from a bus line too would be bad news.

I have gone more deaf and have started identifying as "deaf" because "hard of hearing" doesn't imply how little I do hear anymore. I can still hear music and words on a loud computer headset, but outside that to talk to anyone now means I have to use the transcribe phone. My hearing aids are old but still used on Zooms. They are fine for sit down conversation but they whistle, pop and wheeze when I move around. They also still don't make words hearable, so I request CART or captioning on every Zoom. My ears have been ringing so loud, it's hard to block out the tinnitus. 

If we move again, I would be far away from one program I want to enter for the disabled. My old rural town built a good housing complex for seniors with cheaper rent but I can't convince husband to move back, the lack of medical resources are a real problem. The town we live in has no decent low/moderate income housing for seniors, all the good places are really far out or in small rural towns. It stinks when you worry you may get priced out of your own town. We have moved too much as it is.

It seems weird to me, that people are far more broke, there's less people, and the rent is skyrocketing. I've heard horror stories of others having rent increase to the point, homelessness ensued or having to move in with relatives. 

I am planning to garden too this year on my off site gardening space. The seeds will be started in about a week. I always wanted more outdoor skills and a more cooperative body. Apartment life is harder while wanting to prep too.  I want to buy long term seed storage, more lanterns, a camping stove, and need to learn how to purify water.  More water storage is needed too.  There was a good cheap windup radio and flashlight from thrift. There was a package of 15 bars of soap for 6 bucks, I got the other day. Thrift stores can be a good place to get things. Power packs like Jackery are a good idea in preparation, I do need to save for some new ones. 

Being disabled in a falling apart world is scary. Living the Mad Max life in a healthy thin younger body is different.  Why do I have to be the one growing old during the descent of society? It sucks. Being old is hard enough. "May you live in interesting times"  was a Chinese curse. 

Health wise I do know some herbs and alternative remedies--I used a drawing salve last month that saved me from a medical problem, but my dependency on the modern medical system worries me. If the system collapses, even lack of Synthroid would be a very big problem. I have a bottle of Armour thyroid from years ago and saved every pill I got during dosage changes but these are things one thinks about. I think with Type 2 diabetes, lack of food would take the sugars down anyway if you survived the earlier weeks. I befriended a local naturopath over Zoom, but hope to get to know her more even as a friend. She will be selling some herbs and things this spring at a local fair and she doesn't know it yet but I plan to stock up. 

I wanted doctors to write me extra scripts for antibiotics, and other meds but they refused. I am not sure why. They don't seem to understand being prepared. One doctor office is good about calling things in but not sure that would be viable in some really bad situations. 

Everyone should pay attention to some disaster preparedness and prepping. I am way behind and just getting started and have unique needs to work around. Average people don't seem as weirded out like they used to be when I talked about prepping or even some conspiracy stuff. More are waking up to the fact our world is nothing like it used to be. 

A Boy Named Charlie Brown

 


A Boy Named Charlie Brown---I found this documentary the other day and wanted to share it. I've always loved Charlie Brown and Snoopy and the Peanuts comic strip. I have a Peanuts book collection, that I've kept for years. I learned to read and draw from the Peanuts comic strip.