from Facebook--"chronically strange and uncomfortable"
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I've decided to mellow out on talking about politics etc. with people in general. It's better to be more at peace with folks. It's not worth the strife. I'll still post about things on here but need to be more chill in regular life. It's not like I can join the "conservative" world and fit in there either. So I will be in this outliner place, but need to work on getting along with people. I can't force everyone to see my way of thinking though I'll make my stands and own decisions. It's not worth pulling relationships apart over it all, though one has to of course stick by their principles at a certain point.
One problem with being on the spectrum the mouth or typing filter is harder to maintain. I did tell one group, "I don't want nuclear war" and "I wish we could put all our world leaders on an island, and let them all fight it out and leave the rest of us alone!" They didn't seem too bothered by this. They seemed to agree. People are definitely getting afraid especially us older folks who had to live through the Cold War, and watch movies like The Day After. Online, there were these conspiracy people who said nuclear weapons were fake. That sounds too good to be true, though I wish it was. My nuclear war anxiety stems from childhood. I lived in this huge city where we would have been one of the ground zeros. The nuns at Catholic school told me all about Fatima prophecies that foretold nuclear war with Russia. So there's a lot of angst about it all. We never had to go under desks for drills like people older then me. It disturbs me how there are too many war hawks out there now who have forgotten what nuclear war will really mean. One can feel sorry for the Ukrainians while not wanting to have the landscape peppered with mushroom clouds.
No one wants war. Years ago I read Putin saw Russia as the "Third Rome", I'm not sure if these ambitions are true or not. Too many poor people now are suffering from war. I spent years protesting wars in the 2000s. One thing to remember:
I've decided to mellow out on talking about politics etc. with people in general. It's better to be more at peace with folks. It's not worth the strife. I'll still post about things on here but need to be more chill in regular life. It's not like I can join the "conservative" world and fit in there either. So I will be in this outliner place, but need to work on getting along with people. I can't force everyone to see my way of thinking though I'll make my stands and own decisions. It's not worth pulling relationships apart over it all, though one has to of course stick by their principles at a certain point.
One problem with being on the spectrum the mouth or typing filter is harder to maintain. I did tell one group, "I don't want nuclear war" and "I wish we could put all our world leaders on an island, and let them all fight it out and leave the rest of us alone!" They didn't seem too bothered by this. They seemed to agree. People are definitely getting afraid especially us older folks who had to live through the Cold War, and watch movies like The Day After. Online, there were these conspiracy people who said nuclear weapons were fake. That sounds too good to be true, though I wish it was. My nuclear war anxiety stems from childhood. I lived in this huge city where we would have been one of the ground zeros. The nuns at Catholic school told me all about Fatima prophecies that foretold nuclear war with Russia. So there's a lot of angst about it all. We never had to go under desks for drills like people older then me. It disturbs me how there are too many war hawks out there now who have forgotten what nuclear war will really mean. One can feel sorry for the Ukrainians while not wanting to have the landscape peppered with mushroom clouds.
No one wants war. Years ago I read Putin saw Russia as the "Third Rome", I'm not sure if these ambitions are true or not. Too many poor people now are suffering from war. I spent years protesting wars in the 2000s. One thing to remember:
I'm still too paranoid to go join groups in person so I am still fearing Covid germs. Is Covid over with?
Some seem to think it isn't, some say it is. I asked one group if they planned to continue zooms, and they said they were. I talked about rejoining life and groups, but my husband wants me to wait. He has to drive me to these places anyhow. He's working a lot of hours so only has so much time. I used to miss a lot more meetings and things before everything was on Zoom but it's weird how I don't see many people in person anymore, just a few people. I wonder how much it's affected me. My social skills are probably in the toilet lately.
A guy at one store, told my husband, that someone almost died of Covid recently [two weeks ago] who was on the night shift. He was put on a ventilator but lived and is recovering. It's hard to know what is going on, my access to "word on the street" now is only so much. There's a lot of scary health problems arising from the vaxxes. There seems to be a lot of scary and RARE illnesses cropping up among friends. A lot of people do seem sicker and more run-down. I sometimes feel weird walking around wearing KN95s/N95s watching people celebrate the seeming "end" of Covid. Scientists on twitter are warning of brain decline, and bad long term effects from even "mild Omicron". Who knows what's from the vaxx or virus there too? It's still hard to know what is going on.
Today I have to go clean out a closet and clean up a bunch of stuff. A pick up stick for the disabled is handy. We need to grocery shop soon, and have to figure out what to make for lunch, I microwaved a left over tofu sausage and made a sandwich out of from breakfast. Cabbage soup with butter beans was for lunch.
Doom Scrolling can be a very bad habit, I get into it way too much trying to prepare for the worse but it can wear you out and just make you more depressed. One has to enjoy life whatever is left of it. Be careful of reading all the bad news. I need to figure out how to get a life again. A lot of life is housework, cooking, medical stuff, some art work and watching anime--I'm watching this unusual one where this woman chases after this cold seemingly narcissist genius boy wishing she'd pick the rambunctious chef who is far nicer. I am new to anime and wonder if I am seeing some differences culturally in Japanese relationships and what is valued for marriage.
Prepping is going to be made more of a focus in my life. I got a solar panel, which will power my powerpack Jackery in a long term power outage. This will enable me to sleep if the power is out. The Jackery was obtained to keep my CPAP running. Two nights of power can be stored on it. I have prepping lists and have had food stores, water stores and MRES before in here, but we have used things up, during a power outage we used up some of the MREs. During times of less money, we ate the food. I always wanted to live in a house on some land, so investigated renting a house, even in our rural areas, the houses were more expensive, with 300 dollar gas bills to add on to the rents that were 40-50% higher. I remain in an apartment.
Prepping is going to be made more of a focus in my life. I got a solar panel, which will power my powerpack Jackery in a long term power outage. This will enable me to sleep if the power is out. The Jackery was obtained to keep my CPAP running. Two nights of power can be stored on it. I have prepping lists and have had food stores, water stores and MRES before in here, but we have used things up, during a power outage we used up some of the MREs. During times of less money, we ate the food. I always wanted to live in a house on some land, so investigated renting a house, even in our rural areas, the houses were more expensive, with 300 dollar gas bills to add on to the rents that were 40-50% higher. I remain in an apartment.
My apartment complex was purchased by a new entity and our rent is going up 130 dollars a month on the new lease. It kind of scared us. We hope this isn't going to be a yearly event. We can pay it, but it is more strain. We discuss moving yet again but this constant starting over is wearing. The rural towns with far cheaper rent would mean 60 mile round trips for me to see every specialist. We don't always have money for endless road trips. For instance, I have to see my eye doctor, dentist, kidney, urologist, and ear doctor in the next couple of months then my rheumatologist later on. Included in that are two blood tests, one scan and hearing test. Moving away from a bus line too would be bad news.
I have gone more deaf and have started identifying as "deaf" because "hard of hearing" doesn't imply how little I do hear anymore. I can still hear music and words on a loud computer headset, but outside that to talk to anyone now means I have to use the transcribe phone. My hearing aids are old but still used on Zooms. They are fine for sit down conversation but they whistle, pop and wheeze when I move around. They also still don't make words hearable, so I request CART or captioning on every Zoom. My ears have been ringing so loud, it's hard to block out the tinnitus.
If we move again, I would be far away from one program I want to enter for the disabled. My old rural town built a good housing complex for seniors with cheaper rent but I can't convince husband to move back, the lack of medical resources are a real problem. The town we live in has no decent low/moderate income housing for seniors, all the good places are really far out or in small rural towns. It stinks when you worry you may get priced out of your own town. We have moved too much as it is.
It seems weird to me, that people are far more broke, there's less people, and the rent is skyrocketing. I've heard horror stories of others having rent increase to the point, homelessness ensued or having to move in with relatives.
I am planning to garden too this year on my off site gardening space. The seeds will be started in about a week. I always wanted more outdoor skills and a more cooperative body. Apartment life is harder while wanting to prep too. I want to buy long term seed storage, more lanterns, a camping stove, and need to learn how to purify water. More water storage is needed too. There was a good cheap windup radio and flashlight from thrift. There was a package of 15 bars of soap for 6 bucks, I got the other day. Thrift stores can be a good place to get things. Power packs like Jackery are a good idea in preparation, I do need to save for some new ones.
If we move again, I would be far away from one program I want to enter for the disabled. My old rural town built a good housing complex for seniors with cheaper rent but I can't convince husband to move back, the lack of medical resources are a real problem. The town we live in has no decent low/moderate income housing for seniors, all the good places are really far out or in small rural towns. It stinks when you worry you may get priced out of your own town. We have moved too much as it is.
It seems weird to me, that people are far more broke, there's less people, and the rent is skyrocketing. I've heard horror stories of others having rent increase to the point, homelessness ensued or having to move in with relatives.
I am planning to garden too this year on my off site gardening space. The seeds will be started in about a week. I always wanted more outdoor skills and a more cooperative body. Apartment life is harder while wanting to prep too. I want to buy long term seed storage, more lanterns, a camping stove, and need to learn how to purify water. More water storage is needed too. There was a good cheap windup radio and flashlight from thrift. There was a package of 15 bars of soap for 6 bucks, I got the other day. Thrift stores can be a good place to get things. Power packs like Jackery are a good idea in preparation, I do need to save for some new ones.
Being disabled in a falling apart world is scary. Living the Mad Max life in a healthy thin younger body is different. Why do I have to be the one growing old during the descent of society? It sucks. Being old is hard enough. "May you live in interesting times" was a Chinese curse.
Health wise I do know some herbs and alternative remedies--I used a drawing salve last month that saved me from a medical problem, but my dependency on the modern medical system worries me. If the system collapses, even lack of Synthroid would be a very big problem. I have a bottle of Armour thyroid from years ago and saved every pill I got during dosage changes but these are things one thinks about. I think with Type 2 diabetes, lack of food would take the sugars down anyway if you survived the earlier weeks. I befriended a local naturopath over Zoom, but hope to get to know her more even as a friend. She will be selling some herbs and things this spring at a local fair and she doesn't know it yet but I plan to stock up.
Health wise I do know some herbs and alternative remedies--I used a drawing salve last month that saved me from a medical problem, but my dependency on the modern medical system worries me. If the system collapses, even lack of Synthroid would be a very big problem. I have a bottle of Armour thyroid from years ago and saved every pill I got during dosage changes but these are things one thinks about. I think with Type 2 diabetes, lack of food would take the sugars down anyway if you survived the earlier weeks. I befriended a local naturopath over Zoom, but hope to get to know her more even as a friend. She will be selling some herbs and things this spring at a local fair and she doesn't know it yet but I plan to stock up.
I wanted doctors to write me extra scripts for antibiotics, and other meds but they refused. I am not sure why. They don't seem to understand being prepared. One doctor office is good about calling things in but not sure that would be viable in some really bad situations.
Everyone should pay attention to some disaster preparedness and prepping. I am way behind and just getting started and have unique needs to work around. Average people don't seem as weirded out like they used to be when I talked about prepping or even some conspiracy stuff. More are waking up to the fact our world is nothing like it used to be.
I remember Luis Elizondo (who worked at the Pentagon) saying the biggest threat to a nation or to the world in terms of destruction to the planet and war is narcissism.
ReplyDeleteIn the present case it is malignant narcissism.
Anyway, I think we are all taken aback by current events (shock). I'm glad you are prepping. I've done some of that in various years myself. Hope you are well.