This article is from 2015, the 2020 disclaimer added to the article is kind of funny. I find myself thinking "Sure Jan...."
They were messing with some very bad stuff, and it makes you question a lot. " The researchers created a chimaeric virus, made up of a surface protein of SHC014 and the backbone of a SARS virus that had been adapted to grow in mice and to mimic human disease. The chimaera infected human airway cells — proving that the surface protein of SHC014 has the necessary structure to bind to a key receptor on the cells and to infect them. It also caused disease in mice, but did not kill them.
Although almost all coronaviruses isolated from bats have not been able to bind to the key human receptor, SHC014 is not the first that can do so. In 2013, researchers reported this ability for the first time in a different coronavirus isolated from the same bat population2."
Someone screwed up somewhere along the line. The fact these mad scientists alone, had no problem creating or altering viruses that could harm humans, is problem enough.
Stephen King in his book "The Stand" warned of a pandemic to come out of a government lab.
You ever notice our society is so messed up, it seems every woman married to a celebrity does the "Stand By Your Man" crap to the point of insanity. Now Josh Duggar is a "C" level celebrity but seems like the rule has held.
Anna Duggar disgusts me now. All my sympathy is gone. She is a victim of a cult, and brainwashing but there's a line she has crossed and that line is that she won't even protect her own children. I find myself wondering if she may be as personality disordered and toxic as her husband. Maybe she is as debauched as he is.
Enablers can be just as much abusers as the original sociopaths and malignant narcs. Every child that was abused knows it wasn't just the abusers who betrayed us, but the enablers who stood by and watched. It only occurred to me years later, there were plenty of relatives standing around doing nothing or who even encouraged things as I got hit and had other abuses happen right in front of them. Enablers who help the sociopaths do their thing are as part of the evil as they are. They are complicit.
The fact she can even smile at this guy like this now even as they have been "homeless" for years living in the back yard shed of the Duggar family, and could now be going to jail for the most vile crimes known to man short of outright murder, makes her as disgusting as he is. He's smirking at her in the above video too. I understand people can fall under a sociopath's spell, and she definitely could be, but when children's well-being is on the line that's time to wake up.
She's moved from enabler status in my mind to PERP too, because she's kissing a would be pedophile's ass right in front of the world and doesn't give a damn about victims or even her own kids. Something is very wrong with her. Think about this she is in the court rooms with the creep as they read the charges and WHAT HE DID. Remember he watched the worse of the worse in that criminal world. How could anyone sit there and listen to that, and walk out smiling and holding hands?
Their children have been so betrayed even having these two immorals as parents. I hope they rebel as adults for their own sake. She is no mother. The system has failed in not taking these kids out of the home/shed. Maybe they have to wait until he is convicted, but they all definitely need interviewed and to be protected.
Their children may have the greater chance for escape since their grotesque father has already made them outcasts in the cult. Why stick around? I think when the chips fall, some of them when they are older will realize how Anna betrayed them. They will remember their mother choosing their loser father There's been a lot of outrage over Anna Duggar online, most people are horrified by her recent actions. What kind of cult tells you to stand by a would be pedophile? While many people did see her truthfully as a victim of a cult, she's definitely crossed a line here. How bad does it have to get before she will stand up for her children and herself?
Sometimes there's far more wrong than being fat. That applies to Whitney Thore, she has many problems in addition to obesity. Hey that's true for my life, I deal with a lot more then being five hundred pounds on both the emotional and physical front. Just becoming deaf, is pretty big, and maybe I should post about that a bit.
My concerns about this show, is that it puts fat women in such a bad light. It doesn't offer us help or anything concrete to look to. It's entertainment but what kind of messages about fat people is this show putting out? Is the public going to become more sympathetic to us or less? Whitney has a lot more problems then just the obesity. The show also shows the limits of the "fat and sassy" stuff. Remember the years when I got in debates with size acceptance people for talking about the limitations of HAES and when I told Marilyn Wann to go visit a nursing home with super-fat people?
On a recent show, Whitney Thore was shown taking a trip with a Fat Women Traveling Group. It exposed a lot to me. Here's a caveat, being so different, I would not fit into the fat woman group either. I am on the autistic spectrum and have anxiety disorders. Obviously people who can afford travel and a trip like that are in different shape to me. The women seem nice but I am not into twerking and there's no bathing suits that would fit me. Damn I loved the tricycles, I want one, wish I could afford one. You know I found a bicycle company about a year ago for fat people, they even go up to 550lbs.
You can see her problems right there next to them all. She's pretty, she's actually made up well, and all the women were wearing very nice clothing, and looked great. But you can see the personality stuff. You can tell they almost feel sorry for her. Such as when she is talking about her Frenchman. You can see their unease and worry. The immaturity is glaring.
One fellow fat traveler, Rebecca was trying to warn her, like you are falling into this same trap with the guy in France again like with Avi. Rebecca had dated and been conned by Avi too. Being fat you have to be careful in the dating world and I had exploitive men try to come after me too when I was young.
If you are Super-fat, toxic men will try and mess with you. I had strange men attempt stalking on me and other crazy stuff. As past readers here know, I was raised uber Catholic even though I deconverted from family's church which meant I was a late life shy virgin and so not as likely to have sex with them. I also was too autistic for the exploitive men to understand or get with. These men fortunately rejected me for my weirdness and for being a bookworm.
I was able to avoid exploitive men though or being used by one, and married my first love, but these special circumstances protected me. Many fat women sadly have to deal with these kind of men. Well all women do but with super fat women the risks are higher. How come Whitney doesn't talk honestly about this? She encourages the exploitation of fat women by toxic men in her own man and baby hunger. She's a walking cliche of the desperate fat spinster. She dates men who dump her for thin women, ignores the guy [Lenny] whose actually physically attracted to her and makes the worse dating choices possible.
She's definitely no feminist rebel against the system on our behalf. She's taking the crumbs and that makes me mad. I wish we had a fat strong women who wouldn't take crap from men. This is the worse personality for young fat women to watch and be instructed on love lives. This may sound weird from deconverted me but perhaps the nuns and others who instilled all these high ideals in me about love, protected me from some of the worse.
Toxic men do prey on super fat women. They tried it with me and failed. Rebecca was trying to break through Whitney's wall, because it seemed like she learned her lesson and Whitney was just repeating the same mistake. I got frustrated because I wanted Rebecca to be more direct but she did at least get Whitney to ask if the Frenchman was another AVI....Well yes.
The other women do seem to have more sense of self, and career success and a presence. I do envy their confidence. I see Whitney lacking. Whitney tries too hard. While Whitney has a TV show and fame, she lacks this inner peace and stamina inside, that the other fat women have. It is something I have had to work on, like I got to the edges of it via ACON recovery and going no contact from abusers. I do think of recovery messages all the time in my head. I think Whitney should go into therapy. She is messed up inside too from feeling like she is "not enough", that will mess people up.
Whitney I think has something odd with the parents she needs recovery from. They don't seem overtly "abusive" [Whitney was never hit, or yelled at or stuff like that as far as we know] but there's some weirdness with Babs I pick up on. I read Babs as having some elements of covert narcissism that have carried over to Whitney. Babs comes out with passive aggressive stuff all the time with a dark undertone. One thing to notice with Babs is while she appears "nice" there are a lot of disguised comments, like compliments with a bite, is the best way I can describe it. Babs has poor boundaries too always saying sexual things that are over the top too, Babs doesn't touch people but crosses people's boundaries that way--the apple may not have fallen far from the tree.
Whitney could have been in a golden child role. Whitney obviously believes she has to perform to please them. She is in this weird trap. It's given her drive, and ironically fame, but she is having problems with all her relationships and doesn't have a calm or peaceful presence.
You can tell she is comparing herself to these women and considering herself not to be "enough", the jealousy is busting out from her to the immense. I am a 4 on the Enneagram, we can be jealous types and it is a "shadow" I have to deal with but damn she is so jealous of them, it's insane, like green eyed monster has taken over, and scared not to be the center of attention. This goes with her lack of inner fortitude. Something is missing there. I see a nice group of women, and she is there to compete and one up them all. They can pick up on it too. They can see her emotional abuse fueled shame and other problems. They ask her to teach them some dancing but instead she twerks around and destroys personal bodily boundaries slapping all the women on the butt.
I do think there could be some implicit personality disorder as discussed here. The top theories are BPD and NPD, she seems to show multiple narcissistic traits, and that "hot" and "cold" stuff. She seems to fear abandonment and is unable to spend time alone. This explains a lot of the weirdness with Buddy where one minute he's the greatest thing since sliced bread and the next she turns on him putting him down. The clinginess, endless demands, loudness, crossing of boundaries and the constant quests for every room to have her as the center of attention, all speak to some sort of personality disorder.
She idealizes Buddy and then trashes him all within 20 minutes. I am often curious at Buddy's past, did he face abuse growing up? It makes me wonder why he is in the abusive dance with her too. One thing with people abused when young is the dysfunctional relationships and even friendships can continue late into adulthood. This happened to me. Someone taught Buddy that this was how one was supposed to be treated though I think sobriety and probably "recovery" classes are waking Buddy up. I was in a depression recovery and peer group a few years and it helped wake me up to get out of abusive relationships including friendships.
She treats her friends horribly. I feel bad for Ashley and Heather because I keep thinking betrayal is coming girls, unless they remain "mirrors".
I question this show a lot, but sometimes even ask "Why was this person chosen as the example for living happy while fat?" It could be called "My Big Fat Miserable Life." She has a TV show and fame, and you can tell she doesn't feel like "enough" and she has some problems. I think she needs to address. Being super fat can mess people up. You know I deal with some crazy stuff because of it but she's not in a good place at all.
Fat, sassy and active is possible at stable midsized weights. some of the women at the Fat Ladies Traveling group were midsized and looked like they could maintain a life, though some better focus on weight stability to make sure this does not change. Some were above 300, and probably most likely would face some health issues.
Rebecca however is near disability, and large enough to be disabled if she is not very soon. I could wear Rebecca's clothing, I have more of a hanging stomach from my fatter past. She looks like she weighs in the high 400s to even low 500s. My last weigh in was 515lbs. Rebecca seems to be a very nice person, and I wish she was the star of this show.
As people here know I have CFS and complex autoimmune problems most people have never heard of even beyond the Lipedema stage 4. Yesterday I went to get a blood test, did some gardening --tearing out my cucumber vines that died, two veggie stands, a small estate sale, and cooked curry for dinner. I am exhausted today and in bed, because my swelling got out of control. Add in autism. Autism and autoimmune diseases go together too.
I am seeing a nutritionist for the extreme uric acid they now think is from a rare inherent condition instead of anything I am eating and focusing now on getting more help. The rehab and clinic thing is complicated. I'm talking now to a nutritionist and others about what I should do. I may need to explore going to a pain clinic. Every time I try to be active at all, the pain gets out of control. The joint and other pain is hurting me. I am being what my brain calls "lazy" right now but laying in this bed has dampened down the pain. It creates this weird cycle in my head that troubles me. There's times I am literally limping at the end of a day.
One issue for me in the size acceptance world, as people here know who have read my much early articles on this blog from the early 2010s, is too many of them denied the health effects of severe obesity. While I have seen some improvements in this arena, Whitney is definitely still stuck in the old mode. Does being superfat have to be tied to denying reality? Sure I can't stand the diet brokers and fat bigots either but isn't she playing into their hands?
I remember those days still where I told Marilyn Wann on a online message board under another name that I was 700lbs and dying. She invalidated me. I did have many things wrong and I went on to live for 25 plus more years.
Whitney doesn't know it but she is very close to being disabled. 50 more lbs. and she may not be able to walk. I was very tall, almost 6 feet when young so could carry a lot more weight. I lost a massive amount of height and am only 5 foot 7 inches now. Whitney is short as hell so 400lbs on her, would be equal to 500lbs on a taller person. Whitney's clothes would fit me but would all be "too short". If she is as "wide" as me, she is in big time trouble. I still hold to my theory that she has Lipedema. I could be wrong but I noticed the tell-tale sign of leg lumpiness, though she doesn't seem to have the ankle cuffs, when she attempted to go tubing on her birthday.
Her body is breaking down you can see it, and age worsens this. One thing that is unusual about me is I am into health food, and will not eat processed food, desserts, or "normal American food", I already would be dead. I don't see Whitney eating vegetables, salads or cooked food, but microwaved crap out of cans. How come we never see WHAT she eats? That seems to point to some possible problems with food addiction, we don't know her eating and other habits. If she was open with those, it would help others too. How come she shows no interest in cooking, eating, or nutrition? Whitney could even prove what she eats via her show and talk about weight in a honest fashion. If she has satiety issues and hunger problems she could talk about it. I told my nutritionist, I can stick to regular meals during the day, but I have intense hunger all the time. Lay it out on the table. Why hide everything? If she didn't hide stuff she could either get help for medical problems underlying the obesity, or get help for any would be food addiction.
Whitney could lose her show, from a health crisis alone, a hurt leg, cellulitis bout, or other health issue. She can't keep up now, and age alone will end all the feigned athleticism. She could end up on a walker too. I think she needs a cane now for balance and to walk around safely, but some may disagree with me. I have watched her at the gym and she seems to do little cardio. I am not in shape, but determined even when I did the gym, that one needed to do a sustained activity for 15-20 minutes at least to get some heart and lung benefits. I don't see her doing this. She does a lot of weights and grunts and pulls but no sustained cardio. That was always strange to me, when they showed her exercise segments.
She is in denial about how bad of shape she is in. They do this to people in size acceptance world, I used to protest it and HAES. There was a healthism in that world and still is where only the healthy are embraced, I used to tell people in NAAFA at 700lbs I was sick and dying, and they'd get pissed because I wasn't presenting the picture of the happy sassy fat woman. As people know my own history with the size acceptance movement is very fraught with controversy. Don't get me started how the fat and sassy crap doesn't work for those of us on the autistic spectrum.
Whitney is stuck dancing as fast as she can. She would do a service more to other fat people and herself if she got real. I have needed endless medical support to even stay alive this long. You don't want to know how many specialists I see. I have something like 7 doctor appointments in the next month. She actually has more health resources then me, she doesn't have autoimmune disease, she can breathe properly [the gym wasn't even possible for me until I was on a strong enough COPD medicine], she has money, she has a loving family. She needs to go to some damn doctors and therapists instead of playing at being a trainer. She is close to being disabled. When that happens, there will be no more show. She could help a lot of fat people having such a platform. It could have been used for so much better.
It blows my mind how the Covid disciples are traveling constantly. Why don't they have any fear of the "deadly virus" as they go to endless restaurants, tourist attractions and more. I have to admit I feel weird about some people now, it has me question them. Can you imagine me saying what is on my mind? I also have realized how class wise, my life is completely different from these people. My husband lost some work due to Covid. Unemployment is over. Grocery prices have skyrocketed. I am talking about selling stuff off, to prepare. Our medical costs too were very high, and as well as others.
I find myself asking "How do they have so much money?" It seems even the middle class and above would be facing some economic pinch by now. I want people to have lives too, and live life don't get me wrong but there is a MAJOR discrepancy here. These people support my rights and freedoms being taken away but go traveling without any restraint or worry. They don't seem to worry about getting sick from a "deadly" virus even now as Delta is supposedly infecting the vaccinated. Haven't the clot shots worn off too? Most haven't gotten their third booster especially younger people. It makes me wonder that inside they have no fear of the virus, but they love the totalitarianism. This is some major inconsistency.
Today I was on my Facebook, and saw some people on yet another new trip, this time out of country, where they boasted that the vaccinated were allowed to travel there. They agree with this! I had to literally restrain myself from a snarky comment. These people are more acquaintances. They are traveling like they won the Lotto or something. I feel different about a lot of people on Facebook now, I am kind of fading out there. I have some friends I still talk to there, but being one of the dissenters, I have gone far more quiet. I don't feel the same about a lot of people. They don't understand my life, and they could say I don't understand theirs. The world is burning but lets travel thousands of miles away from home during a plague.
As I have written the lives of the affluent have not changed, they go party like it's Hunger Games eating at fancy restaurants, still seeing friends and family. The poor among us, no longer have their groups, clubs, and fear even going to their gym out of fear of catching the virus. Our social lives were decimated. Our economic lives are under extreme pressure. I find myself worried that they will try and force the clotshot on the disabled. That's probably next. I've faced extreme poverty before, in some ways I have mental preparation others don't have. Maybe one new friend who told me I need new friends, had a point. I am asking why am I around people who support all this? I don't plan to fight or argue with anyone in real life, the Covid disciples are like the Nazis of yesteryear, I have to consider my safety and living in peace especially as this world descends.
They have embraced totalitarianism. The wealthy ones, are almost like dancing on the grave of the world, and I have nothing in common with them. If you can afford a vacation right now, and are unafraid of the virus, at least don't support my rights being taken away for refusing a vaxx, that in my personal case would do great harm to me. Also consider the ramifications of bragging about vacations, when some of us feel fear just from going that day to a outpatient lab to a get a blood draw and worrying there's too many people in the room even if they are masked. The joy was stomped out of my life and the lives of others while you "party hardy" and support all our rights and the Constitution being burned to a crisp.
Webwide people are talking about losing. their jobs, I saw a pregnant woman being threatened with being fired because she did not want to put her fetus at risk with the experimental shot. There are atrocities happening to peoples lives today all over. These people won't have money for rent, mortgage food or the other basics of life. Some are not willing to sell their lives and souls down the river for the powers that be. I have already decided I won't become a part of this, even if this means dying of Covid, whatever real virus there is out there, joining the forces that want to experiment on children is sickening to me.
I have nothing in common with these people. They don't understand my fear. They don't understand [or care] what is happening to millions of people's lives. They don't understand the growing economic despair out there.
Life kind of sucks when you have to hide your true views or emotions to feel safe. I was thinking about invalidation. In my family, it was severe. No one had any respect for my feelings or personhood. In many ways I was completely invisible. There's definitely endless blog posts about their endless rejection on here.
One thing I have noticed is the constant invalidation from the Covid cult. I'm more quiet now, but there was a period, I was trying to talk to a few people, only to get shut down. There's so few to talk to about this. The Covid cult since it is run by sociopaths follows the same trajectory of how my family treated me. Everyone that questions the leaders or the norms are called "crazy" or "mentally ill". Everyone that disagrees is vilified and lined up for "punishment" of a financial nature for refusing to obey. No questions or examination are allowed.
People have spoken to me in ways that reminded me of how my family treated me. This included being looked down on, being patronized, told to shut up and being threatened. There was one guy who when I told him my views on the vaxx, who told me they should throw you down and force it on you. There was only a handful of people I said anything to, but it was all disappointing. There was invalidation there. Don't take my word for things, but one thing common to too many people is they don't research or look into anything. I have been shamed and seen as a bad person for my views about Covid. My convictions are strong and unbroken but I think about the focus on shame, and how they want to silence and now literally HURT those who are not conforming.
We live in a society where everything is about status and hierarchy. I either run the danger of being out right hated or I get the "project friend" pity ploys just from the severe obesity alone. Add in the autism, there's times I used to sit back and observe a group of people and used to think how they fit in so easily. They didn't have to fight to not be an outcast. They could be vulnerable and be "accepted". I wasn't sure of the formula. I am not abused as much as I was pre-ACON recovery but in my case I became a more quiet and reserved person. That would include the fear of being vulnerable. I used to be a far more open person but not anymore. There is a price for it though, you do feel more disconnected. Measuring words like teaspoons to make sure no narcissists will screw you over for the information they have gathered, kind of blows. It keeps abuse away but it also keeps authenticity away too.
This also ties to the fact that to deal with my autism, I had to learn to "cloak" long ago, and that involved the suppression of emotions. While neurotypicals can cry in public and have nurturance and no judgment, that's not going to happen for someone on the spectrum. You have to play that out different even for mere survival. The Aspie that lets the "melt-down" be seen by a certain age is going to face a heap of trouble. I appear muted to people, maybe even "boring" because of this. Some facets of my autism include a very monotone voice and a face that shows little emotional expression. I have noticed whenever I show an emotion or any passion about something it seems to "surprise" people, so put a notch on the "regulation of emotions" issue. It's complicated massively by autism.
One new friend has told me a few times, "you need new friends" because I tell her how I feel silenced around people in groups I am in. I find this interesting she says this, and I am listening. Living in an affluent area made all this far harder. I dream of places where I could find "acceptance" and had brief glimpses of it in rare times in life, but I wonder about this. I still struggle with being around people I feel invalidated by. I try to be a good listener, and hear them out but I've noticed because I don't conform or say the "right things", the [now Zoom] rooms go silent more often then not. They seem unsettled by me even by the most mild of statements. There is always this feeling of "You are too weird" emanating off them. There's always this feeling that I am "problematic".
There was this one lady I used to know at a Christian writer's group in my old small town, who told me a lot that I was a "challenging thinker". I used to take this as a compliment but there was a feeling of unease too, when she would say these things to me either in person or writing, as she repeated this more than once. I think now she was telling me, I "bothered" and "unsettled" her with out being that impolite or direct. She would say this often every time I opened up things a teeny tiny crack. And don't think I did this talking about conspiracy or weird esoteric things, it could happen even with the most minute conversations. It was a way to tell me, "you are thinking too outside the box".
Religion has gotten weird for me, I have so much cognitive dissonance now about it all.
The fundamentalists betrayed me, and obviously I have outlined how that happened in my endless deconversion articles, on this blog but now I feel betrayed by the liberal world. I faced spiritual abuse that was severe in the Christian world, and then I go rejoin the "rational", supposedly "scientific" world of liberalism, and it's betraying me. I feel like a sucker out there protesting Trump, and I still don't like Trump but that just feels like 1984 George Orwell brainwashing like when the crowd screamed Goldstein, as their government was complete evil. Some of the same problems I had in liberalism in my 20s are cropping up this many years later.
I thought maybe I should be one of those people who let's it all hang out. Online, you all get far more of my thoughts then are shared in real life. In my case, this didn't work. I often think to myself lately what kind of person would I be now, if I had the emotional foundation of a loving family that listened and "saw" me? It's brought interesting questions up to me. I have thought too, that the trap of seeking validation through others, is also a path to nowhere. Therapists need to be clear on this especially with abuse victims.
It has occurred to me this is another layer of the onion where to be denied this core support at an early age led to a lifetime of emotional troubles and some problems in relationships with other people. While I have some close online and other friends and a loving husband, I don't have the social networks of most people. I'm in this weird place, how much of myself can I show? Why does it feel so unsafe? These thoughts remind me of this old popular book, I read in college, "Why Am I Afraid to Tell You Who I Am?"
I've become more superficial, and removed in conversation with the majority of people I do deal with. This is where the fear of intimacy comes in. I figure the less they know the better off I am. I lost friends you know from what I wrote on this blog, about Covid and other things. One friend hasn't talked to me in months. To survive mentally now, I try to tell myself to be true to myself, and I got tired of trying to "get people to like me" and quit that game. It's better to be alone then in people pleasing hell.
There's a few online friends and two newer ones I can talk to about stuff, but it's scary how tied this early invalidation was to what I am dealing with now. This is a life where I have felt unheard and invisible in general. Some of us are punished for not conforming. That seems to be a theme of this life. How dare you don't conform! However hiding myself seems like a path to nowhere good. The fear that has been installed is not good.
Even with this Covid crap, if I was a good little Covid disciple, maybe I wouldn't have had the trouble I have faced. I did, but I had no interest in supporting these evils. One person told me elsewhere online, I'm one of those people others hate because I see through the matrix. I don't know about that, if you go down "prophet" highway that can put you in a place of insanity and disconnect from others. The family obviously hated me for being a truth teller. I am sure they have all lined up regarding Covid. It's good I am no contact, I am sure the pressure to take the jab would have never ended.
I found this meme interesting and definitely sums up my life and what I deal with. This is some of the worse to be faced from narcissistic families, the invalidation, where they make you invisible, and deny you personhood and presence. We have to stand up for ourselves and face these fears. I have thoughts like "I am me for life" and "I better be on my own team."
The "left' in the USA is done. I'm jumping ship even but don't want to vote for the other side. Now that I want nothing to do with the mainstream "left", life may get interesting at my UU church. Today at a circle talk avoiding the topic of Covid, I said "The left is getting out of control with censorship. Labeling ideas you don't like as misinformation and silencing all dissenters, well that can go both ways. Political correctness is out of control". At least some seemed to agree with the fact censorship is always a bad idea. What would happen though if they all found out what I think of this Covid bullshit? I felt uneasy, most support all of this, I do not. I have to weigh what I can say with being safe. How sad is that? It's a lonely feeling, and there's no sign of it getting better.
I wrote about what I see coming. https://fivehundredpoundpeeps.blogspot.com/2021/09/will-usa-turn-ultra-right-wing-utter.html
They have screwed the working class and poor beyond redemption. No one is talking about what it means for unemployment to have ended. There will be far more homeless people. I'm noticing people "disappearing". I have to write an email and ask what happened to this one guy I knew. I googled obits and didn't see his name. I get the feeling some are disappearing from society getting ill from the vaxx or sinking into poverty or depression. This is happening too often, and it's weirding me out.
I know rich white liberals who support all this garbage. In my case, most are boomer age though they have well-off professionally employed millennial allies. I can't wake them up. It's a waste of time. Not all of us are gifted at deprogramming cult members. Some of these people I like despite their higher status in society so this has been painful. I'm not into making enemies. I'm laying low in real life, knowing arguing with people is fruitless. They got the whole population so demoralized. They are gaslighting the hell out of us every other second. There are matters I am confused on, I don't know everything. So much contradicts, it makes no sense. It reminds me of life at home with my family. One thing I am sure of, we are being lied to about a lot. Why trust these people?
Even in the Anti "Covid narrative" world, there's people who believe there's no new virus, and it's just flus, and those who believe there is a new virus, and it brings bad things too, but so do the vaxxes. Many scientists I read on Twitter who are against the mainstream narrative believe the virus is real and harmful. One thing agreed upon is something could be wrong with the PCR tests and false positives. I'm still think there is a new virus of some sort though I'm hearing the other people out. I don't know. I'm still wearing the masks around, refusing to see anyone inside my apartment except masked medical professionals, and maintenance people and not going anywhere except stores and parks.
I envy the people who don't believe there is any new virus out there, they basically are living their lives and have thrown the masks away. They are still seeing friends, and going places and having their lives. They are far happier. However husband and I are out there a bit in the world, he's talked to people who were in younger age groups who almost died of something, and a cashier even told my husband she knew three people who died of it. I have asked people if they knew anyone who died where it wasn't someone who was very elderly dying of a pneumonia, and many have, so I still think something is out there.
That said, there's a point where one can't keep living life in a cage. I think young people because there risks are far less should live their normal lives. I don't think children should be forced to wear masks because their risk is so low. Teachers in the classroom can choose too. Wearing these masks hinders my breathing all the time but the longest I've ever worn one without taking it off is 2 hours. I don't think I could make it any longer. Moving around would be near impossible. I get short of breathe constantly. I'm not going to want some kid to be forced to wear one for 8 hours day. Kids should not be made to wear suffocating masks for a THIRD YEAR, I never supported that because they have so little Covid risk. Now the schools are talking about pushing the experimental vaxx on children, and it's horrific. It's sick to me that a kid has far more chance of heart problems then being hospitalized with Covid and they still want to push it on them.
I tell my husband, maybe it's time to rejoin life for me, I'll keep the mask on for a while, but not seeing anyone is getting weird. It is not good for anyone's mental health. I already had an extremely isolated life for the average person outside of my marriage. At this point there is extreme harm from it. The powers that be don't care about the kids, and they don't care about disabled people like me and what we face.
I've talked to husband about there being a point where I will have to rejoin life. I pointed it out thusly, I have COPD, and multiple progressive health problems, I am getting older, I don't have a lot of time to play with. Even making it into my 50s, was near miraculous considering I was disabled at 28. Even with Lipedema, I know several people who died very young especially at my stage of it. There's a lot of things wrong with me now that could kill me. Do I went to have a life and memories or be staring at wall the rest of my life? Is a life spent in captivity even worth living? How many years could this go on? 2 more? 10 more? I understand my husband's perspective he wants to protect me, and I don't want him catching anything either. So I've been in "wait mode" but you know March is going to be 2 years of this. The time is coming where I simply say "no more" despite any risks.
I just don't understand people who find this all acceptable. They don't get what is happening out there, and how pissed off people are getting. It ranges from the working Mom who comes home to their children crying from having to spend all day in a mask, to the people who lost their businesses and freelance income. There are young people seeing their life forming years being destroyed, and elderly people who are upset knowing their time is short. Remember the unemployment is gone. My husband lost a big chunk of his income, but unlike others, I can keep the rent paid unless they pull some crap like denying me disability for not taking the clot shot.
The affluent seem to embrace this with no problem, and they don't seem bothered about life continuing this way forever. Some of them enjoy the slower pace. I see some of these better off people go on constant vacations, they see relatives, and go to state parks, and hiking but those of us who don't have thousands of extra dollars to escape the daily grind don't have those options. I was at a group on Zoom, where one woman discussed her trip to Portugal, another talked about an out of state trip to a family Lakehouse. For those who are poorer, there's no change in scenery but the four walls of our apartments. There's no escape for us. There's no one to see. Our social lives are destroyed. Some of us don't have families. Watching them still "having a life", can be painful. Maybe envy is a personal fault of mine, but how could I not feel tinges of the green-eyed monster? How can this not make me depressed when the few pleasures I used to have of going to zine conferences, stamp clubs, day trips, time at the gym, or even just talking to people was all wiped away? If you are waiting for the more well off of society to put a stop to all this. It's not going to happen. The elite are having their maskless parties while their servants are forced to be masked up but even the more affluent mid-levels, upper middle class, and more are keeping this all going.
I won't even vote for a local Democrat fearing they will help make sure my life is not destroyed by vaccine mandates where a bunch of ableist Nazis, want to ban me from buying food or obtaining medical care for short term gains. Thankfully I am in a more rural county with a lot of pissed off right wing people. It's weird two years ago I was protesting Trump but I am ready to join them at their protests. I haven't yet. I've spoken out online under the Peep moniker, but real life, I fear painting a target on my back. My future social credit score will be very low with my history of blogging and writing against their tyranny. Some think it is better to lie low, the fascists to be, shouldn't be helped in knowing who you are. I am of two minds, now is the time to speak out but I understand those arguments too.
The sociopaths are now firing all the health care workers who don't want the vaxx, and now there are major hospital shortages because staff are being fired from their jobs. Is this planned destruction of health care? What kind of stupid people think this is a good idea? Unspoken is the reality that the nurses, doctors and others who are refusing the jab, have seen the side effects for themselves. They don't want it. They've seen the strokes, blood clots, myocarditis, seizures, and worse. Imagine how disabled people and those with serious conditions feel about all this? We may not be able to access the health care we need. There's other conditions besides Covid and now people facing cancer and other problems will find themselves even more in trouble. Funny how they were all heros during the early days of the pandemic but now forced to be fired over a stupid vaxx that doesn't even stop transmission.
This is all supposedly for our health and safety? Give me a break! It's more like they are trying to kill as many people as possible. What do you think is going to happen to all the people who are losing their jobs? Forced compliance to a poison is not freedom but complete evil. It's already shown itself as NOT WORKING so they keep forcing it? If you aren't angry by now, you are asleep. Unemployment is over or these folks will be denied.
The left in this country is endorsing full racism and hatred of POC and the disabled who are most likely to refuse vaxxes for good historical or other medical reasons. None of that occurs to the people who want vaccine mandates. ADA [American with Disabilities Act] is dead. No one cares about the people who have a history of anaphylaxis, severe autoimmune disease, organ transplants, etc. They want to shove the clot shot that produces toxic spike proteins on us. There are OTHER illnesses in the world. How many people are dying of cancer from being denied treatment when it counted? I can't stand watching healthy people throw their health away to obey the system. That drives me crazy.
This is about destroying people's freedom, about digital IDs and vaxx passes. Haven't some of you vaccinated people figured out at this point it's never going to end, that you will be forced to do your own side effects roulette every 5-6 months now? Do you want a Papers Please world?
The destruction to relationships, social community and ties is continuing to ruin our lives. We are under the slow grind now, and they know the longer they drag this out, the more people forget what life used to be. You all know my social troubles, this worsened all of them. If I wasn't married, I wouldn't have anyone to talk to but on some Zooms. All my community groups, I haven't seen in almost 2 years, that includes my stamp club, and all other groups. A few UUs delivered things to my door, but do you think my ties are as strong there anymore? So much has been destroyed, and there seems no end to it in sight. I am just one person, now imagine this for millions of others. How many bowling leagues, sports teams, stamp clubs, art classes, poetry groups, peer to peer groups, were decimated? Take that all together, society becomes a pale shell of what it was before. George Orwell was a prophet, all those things were gone in Winston's world in 1984.
Some of you need to wake up, NONE OF THIS IS WORTH IT ANYMORE. IT NEVER WAS. This has been a money grab and the biggest screw up in history. We need our lives back or at least some sort of life, and happiness and social ties. There is no end to it on this present path. More boosters for the obedient that still allow the virus to be spread and bring the myocarditis, blood clot, spike protein roulette wheel back around for every time? Have any of you ever asked why no scientists ever worked on a cure, or treatments? Sit down and think about that question a bit. The focus has been on these low quality vaxxes that don't even stop the spread of the illness.
It's endemic, break out the Ivermectin or other treatments, send the scientists back to the drawing board to throw the non-working dangerous shitty myocarditis and blood clot causing mRNA in the trash can and make a traditional vaccine that actually stops transmission and gives immunity. Get rid of the ones at least that produce toxic spike proteins. Tell the Covid Nazis who want all freedoms taken away to can it, and return to the ideals of democracy instead of pissing them away.
Rich liberals can turn on their Zoom and go to the office over the computer while going on thousands of miles trips to state parks, and visiting friends and family, with plenty of space to exercise, hobbies and live in their large suburban homes. Most of them never suffered loneliness or isolation. Their bills were paid. The working class and poor have been SCREWED over. Hate to tell you, but not that unemployment is gone, this crap needs to end today. Their lockdowns, vaxxes and more have failed. I believe the virus is real, but what is the definition of insanity, doing the same stuff over and over that doesn't work.
Look around, they are continuing to destroy our lives and strip away every last freedom.
"7. “I have a medical/health condition that my doctor says I shouldn’t get the vaccine.”
THE TRUTH: No, you don’t. We now know there is no medical condition that prevents you from getting the vaccine. Stop with the “I’ve got a note from my doctor” bullshit. Get the damn vaccine — or you risk the chance of REALLY needing a doctor. Calm down. Relax. We love you. I’ll take you to Walgreens myself and hold your hand for those three seconds. Let’s live. Let’s not kill. Let’s be part of a world we are now going to fix and save. "
All the Covid fighting aside how ableist can you get? Until he has multiple autoimmune diseases, he needs to sit down and shut up.
You ever wonder why so many of them sell out? He's now working against everything he used to stand for. The Michael Moore of the Roger and Me days was not a Big Pharm bootlicker. I'm noticing some of his readers are appalled too.
