These Are the Only Wars Americans Should Be Fighting

 

Too bad we have leaders who don't care about Americans. 

"Gen X: The First Generation Born from Medical Desperation

This video blew my mind, why because this vlogger, "Gen X Unfiltered" sums up a major problem I have faced in life. I've never seen such honesty about the fact that many of us in Gen X were born under very different medical circumstances. Our existence alone in some cases may be from new medical developments or dare I say "experiments".

As people know who read this blog I was blamed by my family for my severe disabilities, and obesity, abused and rejected over them. He's right about the "medical experimentation" and other issues that affect Gen X, especially those born as preemies and other extreme medical interventions. I have mentioned this on this blog before but one reason I am a "medical mystery" is my father had hypogonadism.  His was severe. He wasn't supposed to have children at all, but hormonal treatments ended that. Nature said "No" but science said "Yes" and to be franked it screwed some of us progeny over!

 By the way, remember I was not the only sick one, my sister almost died of a rare autoimmune disorder when very young. My mother went all the way and got extreme top tier medical researchers to save her life and she is actually the first one to ever have survived her disease in the 1970s. I have the national medical journal write-up from that time. She had cancer by her 40s too, that was kept secret from me and my brother needed a quadruple heart bypass by his mid 40s as well. I've written enough about my medical horrors here from going deaf to lupus related conditions to the severe obesity when I once was 700lbs. This video gave me a new light on how I see my life. Its like they couldn't even face or admit their own decisions. The vlogger talks about us as the new data set for a bunch of medical hacks! He's right.

There's many more conditions this can apply to, preemies, other hormonal treatments, and later fertility treatments that will impact younger generations. Add all the chemicals in our food, water, and air, and other environmental impacts, there's things happening to people beyond understanding. I realized years ago that people my age seemed to be "sicker" than the older generations who seemed much more hale and hearty to do endless farm and yard work. They have done studies saying that the young have more medical problems, and I posted in this article today about how Gen X and millennials both are having rising mortality.

 Is there any wonder my endocrine system never worked right with so many glands off kilter? He advises people to ask their parents what shots and interventions were involved! I can't ask. You do know one thing I did do, was years ago I got ahold of all my father's medical records, it was to find out what was wrong with me, even my functional doctor a couple years ago was given copies. My parents kept so many secrets, I knew about the hypogonadism but there were many disorders I did not know about. They hid his lupus and that's when I found about it and his seizures many years later.  One other thing, my parents were so proud of getting us "vaccinated", they used to boast to friends, how they got every vaccine they could for us kids. There weren't as many as there are today, but there was some of them. I don't think the results as far as my health speak so good to that decision. 

The Trauma of Older Generation X

 I'm an older Gen X. I found this video very interesting and related to a lot of it. Yes the art is probably AI, though it seems more well- managed than most AI art which often doesn't match the text on videos.

I did write a comment that I wish he had gone into the economic landscape a bit more to talk about the financial problems Gen X has encountered.

He seems to think that the movie "The Day After" about nuclear war, affected older Gen Xers very negatively. I remember that movie, and watched it as a teen and remember how much it scared me. Maybe my prepping tendencies were born that long ago. It probably was a psych-op to make an entire generation beaten down and afraid. Fear is a tool the elites love and use over and over. 

 One aspect of Gen X I do not like I can sum up in one word is "apathy". The passivity and sitting back stuff never was something I liked. He talks about the Gen X mode being one of telling others "I am fine" and keeping a strong stoic face to the world. I've seen that in some classmates, but I don't think that one applied to me. Maybe in my case I faced too much, I wasn't fine and the stoic outer-shell cracked long ago. 

Gen X is far too apathetic and checked out, watching this video you can see how trauma impacted that and his theories about being a "latchkey kid". I was a latchkey kid, now my mother only worked part time until I was in my early teens, but she was working full time by the time I was 13. I remember going home and making meatloaf for the family age 9-10 and doing my own laundry by age 8.  It's weird to me now, how it's illegal now for a kid to be home alone under 12, when I already cooked the family dinner and babysat neighborhood kids by that age.

These expectations were true for many others in my generation though my family probably took things a bit further. Maybe these different aspects made Gen Xers more private and with small circles of friends as he theorizes. One thing that disturbs me about Gen X, is when I went out into the community and did things from volunteer work, earlier protests, to churches, art classes to other endeavors, I never met any other Gen X people. They just were never there. Maybe they just aren't joiners or there was a "withdrawal process" that began when they were young. 

 I usually was around boomers to do these activities and then later there was a sprinkling of millennials. My husband says we live in a town that skews far older, but I am not sure. My last IFB had no Gen X people in it, and my UU church had only 1 other Gen Xer in it, who left around the same time I did.  I used to get weird thoughts, "How come I am the only Gen Xer anywhere?" Gen X is far fewer in number and many have died young. This was written about in my article: Gen X: The Scapegoat Generation is Dying Young. Today I believe the Covid vaxx is basically obliterating the liberal members of Generation X who lined up. I have noted the better health of my more conservative/religious classmates I am friends with on Facebook vs those who lined up.  The increased death rates among Gen X are appearing in mainstream news though obviously they are not admitting the cause. 

The Gen X Health Crisis and Deaths of Despair

I did use to say among close friends, "They named us Generation X to X us out." I know it's a bit morbid, but sometimes when I look back, I think about how Gen X was set up. I was writing about these issues 10 years ago. 

Generation X has gotten some bad breaks. If I am going to criticize other generations like the boomers, my own is not above criticism. Gen X was too checked out, too obedient, and too uninvolved. Maybe some of it was not their fault, they were too poor, and drowned out. Most were scrambling like me to just survive. I also think most of us were given false expectations about life that did not pan out and false expectations do set up people for despair. Many of us who have had hard lives, maybe wish we had been told the truth. I never was. Someone should have laid it out to someone in my circumstances who faced so many challenges. I find it interesting this vlogger refers to Gen X not having a voice more than a few times. He seems to think Gen X is "supporting" society doing the hard labor, there's probably some electricians and nurses out there keeping society running silently for Gen Xers who managed employment. I do think he ignores too many of the devastating economic factors. He seems to be someone who remained employed himself so maybe didn't face so many economic factors like disabled me. 

He points out that many in Gen X own the book "Children of Emotionally Immature Parents". I own this book, it is a book for ACONs. Is he hinting that many of Gen X was raised by narcissists? I'm not sure but it's a core component of this video. He does say as a result of all the trauma, Gen X is less likely to put up with BS and cuts to the quick, and doesn't have time for fake people.

One odd facet of my personality is my anxiety shuts down during real emergencies, and I am a problem solver under the gun. I am probably too sick now for this to really help anyone now, but this occurred at various times in my life. There were some jokes about me being MacGyver. The last time this happened was a few years ago, when my husband accidentally locked us out of a car with dysfunctional locks in the middle of a snowstorm. I don't even remember how I got the car unlocked, I think I used a coat hanger. So this Gen X trait probably rings true for me. The picture of the office with crying people and the trash can on fire, my personality is such, I would probably enter a room like that and would yell, and tell people what to do. If the shit hits the fan, I do get bossy and don't wait for others to step up. Once I was in this apartment building in Chicago with smoke, it turned out to be a fire in the courtyard area which could have started the building on fire too.  I said, "We are getting the hell out of here", as everyone else dithered around. They were offended I just left and got my then fiancé now husband to leave too. I do err on the side of caution but I can see how some people just sit by and let bad stuff happen too. 

He claims Generation X holds more leadership roles than I expected. I haven't seen that and may disagree with that one. Where I live the boomers still hold on to most leadership roles with millennials rising up in them. Gen X got skipped over. He talks about the "sandwich generation". I remember years ago they talked about the Boomers being in that place. Of course only Gen Xers with families and who had children would be in that position. With most of my classmates,  their parents are already deceased and most of their kids out of the house. Some may still be supporting adult children though. He says Gen X parents allowed more discussion of feelings. I hope so.

He says many Gen X are emotionally exhausted. I believe that's worsened since Covid. Many are overworked, especially now the way the economy is, my situation was different due to early disability and autism. He says more Gen X marriages have been longer-lasting than boomer marriages, that makes sense, but I believe less people got married too as the years passed by. He seems to say Gen X has character born out it's trauma and they are the "show up" generation.  Gen X is starting to age now, but never got a voice. I predicted that ten years ago and was right. Years ago I used to read books claiming Gen X was going to be cleaning up a lot of messes in their old age. That one I do believe. 

Is No Kings Really Changing Anything?

 

Everyone has the right to protest what they want via the first amendment, but I ask, why did people adopt these useless slogans so willingly? Why is there so little variation? When I used to do protests, you could see a wide range of people and interests at one protest. There would be different groups and clubs there, sometimes people showed up who I didn't agree with. That's fine. These protests are such a monolith, I think that's what bugs me about them. I remember us driving around to the 3-4 local protests I witnessed with my own eyes. I wanted to find anti-war people to talk to, and other independents. They simply weren't there. Some would say people in the know, are already bugging out. They know the system is hitting a wall. Maybe so. 

The same signs everywhere....[this one from Facebook Mountain News [Kentucky]

Pre-made opinions is an obvious one, because so much has been ignored to the point I am incredulous at the severe issues being ignored.  Sheesh this meme is right about the "Slogans You Didn't Write!". I mean can't people tell this whole thing is an advertising campaign from the start? They took the personal out of protests! "No Kings" means nothing in the practical world, well we don't have a king even now. Trump wasn't the first one either to wage war without Congressional approval. 

Ask yourself of the picture below: "What does this accomplish?" Seen on Facebook. Remember I don't like Trump. He's done things I agree with like leaving WHO, and things I adamantly disagree with like cutting Medicaid and going to war with Iran. This still makes Trump the CENTER of the universe which seems to be the end goal of controlled protests. 

The protests seem too repetitive, too conformist, and with little variation. Protests have changed for the worse and I viewed them back to the 1990s. I knew years ago by the 2010s, protests were starting to be co-opted. Yes, there is part of me who has thought, "What was it all for?" Especially as you can tell our government has become less representative and politicians have grown even more corrupt and bought off. No one wanted war with Iran, not even most of the MAGAs but there's it's happening anyway! One of our local liberals, one guy I voted for because he seemed to be a pro-union sort that cared about the economy has now been exposed as a data-center sell-out I will never vote for again. The politicians obviously don't care what their constituents want anymore. How did this happen to such an extent?

No Kings just seems to be steam release sponsored by billionaires! I follow one website that photographs protest marches. There was one anti-war protest in Chicago I agreed with, but this was not a No Kings event but a smaller event. Yesterday, I saw a lot of the local pictures and videos, and was disappointed. No one mentioned Epstein. No one mentioned the Iran war. What are these protests for anyway? Some people have told me they have seen anti-war signs and anti-Epstein signs at their local no kings protests, I hope they are correct and their larger protests, have more independents mixed in the crowd that are not following the dictates of "Indivisible" so strongly. Maybe some are still using brain cells in their area to make independent signs. Some people still believe in the left. I don't. I don't expect Big Pharm loving politicians to change life for the better either. 

I looked at a variety of photos, in different areas and videos and saw nothing about the economy too. Maybe a few had signs about gas prices with Trump saying "I did that!".

One article making the rounds  from the Wall Street Journal claims that No Kings is just "feel good" group therapy that accomplishes nothing but makes its participants "feel better". People have the right to protest and practice their first amendment rights but there's truth in this paragraph:

"At their core, the rallies resemble bad group therapy—gatherings that offer validation, solidarity and emotional release. They feel good in the moment. Participants vent, find reinforcement among like-minded people, and leave feeling heard and aligned. The experience can seem productive, even clarifying. But like bad group therapy, it stops at validation. The feelings are processed but not challenged, reinforced but not examined. There is relief but little resolution, and the underlying problems remain. It offers the feeling of progress without the substance of it."

Maybe the fact is, that these protests are designed this way. I wrote about this in my other article on No Kings how they were billionaire funded. The messages are guided. You think the billionaires want anyone questioning the economy or the flood of money that will be leaving the country for more war? Wars that the left continued to conduct too?

No Kings Protests: Ignoring the Economic Elephant in the Room!

and then I have this thought....

No one protested the p*dos. No one protested the ones connected to Epstein. And we still have seen no justice for the children and young people who were abused. 

I have seen no real demanded changes or calls for improvements to anyone's lives. Sadly, Trump remains the center of attention. Just like Goldstein in the book 1984, the room revolves around Trump for better or worse. There's a problem in that you see especially as society is having so many multiple problems at once. In my small town, it remains the geriatric crowd, those over 65-70 who are mostly middle class and above chanting "no kings".  Obama and Biden crossed tyrannical lines too. Remember this meme? The hypocrisy about marching against tyranny when you wanted to FORCE an unwanted medical product on people was too much and something I will never be able to look pass. Yes, Trump is doing things I disagree with, but Biden tried to force clot shots on us all. The left broke tyranny records with that one, forcing people into poverty who refused, taking their jobs away and more. There are still states like Massachusetts and California who still force the shots for some jobs. That remains unforgiveable to me. 

I don't want to hear you going on about tyranny if you support anything to do with that. 

It's disturbing still how many people are dying around me. The denial is so thick, the ones who haven't woken up by now never will. The left isn't waking up even as the Gen Xers who took that crap among with many other demographics are getting wiped clean. I am still told that "Covid vaxxes saved lives" and other nonsense on. These are the people who are going to save me from tyranny? Nope that ship already sailed!

Why so little protest against the Iran war? Aren't even boomers upset about their grandchildren getting drafted to fight a war for Israel? I saw this news article claiming some were protesting the Iran war, but I did not see evidence of this locally. I did not see much focus on the Iran war on multiple protests I looked up online. 

And STILL NO MENTION of the economy. [outside very few signs about gas prices] even now as things have gotten much worse. Yes, I do feel like protests have been ruined. Co-opted to the max. So now there's these national protests that don't even address the suffering millions are undergoing with economic and other. They never called for justice with the Epstein files--yes I know that could be part of a Psych Op too. They never called an end to what possibly could end up turning into WWIII and where a draft is being discussed. By the way, some are forecasting that "energy lockdowns" are on the way, and I agree with them. It's already happening in other countries. Research this one. I'll tell you this now, given what they did during Covid, the left will cheer those on too. This whole "no kings" protest feels like a distraction and not even a real protest. 

WWIII in memes. The 2000s on Repeat but Worse This Time?

We are at the point in this country where our leaders are not really representative of the people. Who wants war? Not liberals, not conservatives. Why does America have to interfere with every country? Is this for oil? Well if peak oil is hitting didn't they already grab Venezuela? 

Trump ran on "No New Wars". Politicians lie. Some MAGAS are burning their hats in disgust. Americans can't afford food, or rent and many are unemployed now but what do they care?  The USA empire seems to be collapsing and they are still hurriedly cleaning the tills out.  Next time politicians complain about the National Debt and how much YOU cost them, roll your eyes, and realize how much their wars have cost. Military adventurism has cleaned this country out and left its cities in ruins. Just imagine if those trillions went to American infrastructure and our lives instead! One reason the United States has massively declined, is all the money was poured into bombing the rest of the world. 

They want to pursue their planned wars. As you know, I wrote about how the Iran war was planned long ago. The war with Iran was on General Wesley Clark's list of planned wars. Brian Berletic, a geo-analyst makes it clear that the Iran was planned as far back as 2009. 

One thing about world leaders is they lie. As I said the insane Epstein class doesn't care about me or you.  We could be dealing with WWIII. No one knows yet of course but the world has definitely more dangerous. The elite make money from war, and desire the outcomes from it. 4 trillion dollars was spent and hundreds of thousands of lives lost for Bush's debacles in the Middle East! Do you think anyone has learned anything? The war machine continues. I think of all the innocent people who will die, and suffer, women, children and men and young people just starting their lives. They bombed oil and made black rain fall. How sick is that? Maybe more people have figured out we are ruled by psychopaths, worldwide after the Epstein files were exposed. 

How many are questioning why America is doing everything in the interest of Israel instead of its own people? How many are realizing Netanyahu is a war mongering madman bringing missiles, and death to his own people. Let's be real, we watched this guy basically murder hundreds of thousands of people including multitudes of children in Gaza.  Why in the hell is our country even hooked to someone that evil? I told one friend, one reason I hate both parties is they watched this murder and participated in it sending money towards it. They don't care who is next. They bring death and destruction in their service of evil. 

Think the economy is bad now? Just wait until there's oil and gas shortages. What do you think the closure of the Straits of Hormuz is going to do? Remember the 1970s when the oil embargo happened and they did gas rationing and telling people they had to line up according to their last name? Given that many Americans drive too far to work and depend on their cars even more, this is a disaster waiting.  Some fear nuclear war. I hope the conspiracy theorists claiming nukes are fake are right, but if they are not, knowing the moral perversions of the Epstein class, I'm surprised humanity has made it this far. Bible prophecy talks and warns about Persia [Iran] in the book of Revelation. Twenty years ago, my fundamentalist preachers told me that WWIII would come, bring the seals of famine, death and destruction to society [the four horsemen] and it most likely would happen in my lifetime. If anyone claims "peace and safety", sudden destruction is supposed to come. I believe Covid could have been the first seal. I won't get into the religious matters here too deep but there's that background to this stuff. 

Now they are talking about a draft. I hate to say it but I don't see sick and broke young people rallying to the war cause when they can't even afford rent? Fight for psychotic p*d*s when you can't even afford groceries? Why? There's some already saying they won't.

American cities are falling apart and in rotten shape, but here are our politicians spending millions of dollars a day for their endless wars. The rest of the world knows that America is in bad shape and our politicians have dumped our needs for their endless warmongering and desire for profit. 

 We Must Now Prepare for the Possibility of Nuclear War and Total Supply Chain Collapse – NaturalNews.com 

 They spend billions and millions on bombs. It's ironic they tell people "Don't use your air conditioner", but they'll bomb oil tankers and tanks, and make "black rain", so yeah know when they talk about caring about the environment, they don't care. They don't care about the people including kids who died from the Covid vaxxes. They don't care.

Hmmm maybe the meme below is on to something. Imagine the fear. All they would need is one "event" to happen and then blame it on Iran.  I found myself worrying another 9-11 or false flag event could be used to bring even more fear down the pike. The whole Covid debacle was run on making people terrified. Remember 9-11 pushed the war with Iraq and Afghanistan. 

Maybe this is all part of the "Global reset", this guy is right about the supply chains being impacted.

Maybe this is the real plan too?

They definitely can use all this for multiple crises where they can provide "the solutions".

I'm sick of war. My whole life almost every 10 years, they are going to war in the Middle East. Nothing ever changes for the better, everything got worse. They kill a bunch of people overseas and dehumanize them. It's sick. Americans got desensitized to this crap, they see war as like a video game, not watching everything being destroyed around them. Something went wrong with a society where thousands of people could die in another country and they all just shrugged. What happened to the anti-war movement by the way? I've asked for years. 

"Why Most Narcissistic Abuse Victims Struggle With Cleaning and Tidying"

 

This video was great and described a major problem with cleaning. One day I told my husband, "When it gets really messy in here, I feel afraid!". It's hard to explain. The details are always so many. America being a messed up country, disabled people cannot get help even if you can't walk or move to clean the house or apartment. No one cares if you barely can walk to the bathroom, keep your place clean anyway! No church, social agency or anyone else [except maybe a friend here or there] is going to help with this! Your dreams of a super-organized person coming in to clean the place up aren't ever going to happen. Desperation and fear aren't good to have if you need to clean.  The tub needed fixed, we had to clean for hours. Sometimes I just fill up trash bags, to get it clean. I cleaned from bed yesterday. I've been sick, it's a long story, not contagious, but needed a surgery, thankfully done under local anesthesia, and haven't been functioning well. Supposedly I'm healing but it's been slow. This was low stress cleaning at least done without shame or fear. My purse, my diabetes bag were cleaned out, I emptied a box I had thrown stuff in, see method below, and then ripped the box apart and put it into the trash bag from bed. My husband did do laundry and did the dishes.

My cooking has been strange and utilitarian to save on effort but still get some results. I bought a giant thing of chicken thighs and baked them and just threw them together with rice noodles or rice and veg for 4 days. I weighed 460 the other day. 

 Cleaning is hard, and no one talks about how hard it is. There's other things like art I'd rather be doing. Every movement hurts. Of course, cleaning sucks. It seems like in a sane country, sick and disabled people could get help with cleaning or organization but that's not America. Cleaning supplies cost money. This is on my list of things to do but I need bleach, paper towels, Fantastik, and other spray cleaners. He got me some scratchy pads to clean off the stove. Cooking sucks, it makes a mess too. Once I get the cleaning supplies, this place will be in better shape. 

I have major hang ups with cleaning, and it seems things are always falling apart and little pieces of paper falling. Throwing away stuff? Never shopping because you're broke? The crap seems to pile up anyway. They talk about in the video, how the narcissistic parents demanded endless perfection and even if you cleaned but left one bowl in a sink or one toy on your bedroom floor, the rages we experienced impacted our lives. Flashbacks can happen even years later. Spill something on the floor, there's a little spark inside, "Oh no one is going to backhand me now, I live in peace now". 

I had memories too leaving in one bowl in the sink and the rage that followed. Let's be real these narcissists even if you cleaned the place from top to bottom, they are going to find or make up a "mistake" anyway. If someone is too neat, they make me nervous. Will criticism come? My body and brain don't work right to clean. Why is there never enough counter space? Why is everything always too small. How do two people make 5-6 giant trash bags a week and this even during weeks, where I am not cooking much? Why does it take trash bags and endless wiping of counters? The paper towels disappear like farts in the wind. I freeze like this video describes, and sometimes just stare at it all. I have written about being overwhelmed for years. I overcame some of this stuff, but it probably will be a life-long battle.

Cleaning as the video describes does equate to danger for me! I had mean now ex-friends, say "Why don't you clean this place up?" One refused to help. I learned if anyone else says that to me, I'm asking them to help me clean it up or else leave. There's the fat thing with messiness, the "fat slob" tropes. Well if you were trapped in a body that can barely move, how clean would you be? He talks about shame, I relate to all that. I have driven myself into illness more times than not trying to be "clean". Maybe people in normal bodies you can do it, and it works out. I wrote about how I grew up with extreme clean-freaks, maybe the cleanliness was like the play MacBeth, they were trying to make up for their lack of consciences. I silenced the inner critic during years of no contact, but there's always this little fear. "Someone will see" [the maintenance man, the building manager, the house-call doctor] and "punishment" will follow.  My doctors never cared. I would make jokes about the mess, they said they have seen worse. The legions of uncared for elderly, disabled and others are probably numerous in America today. I have a nice husband to do my stinky laundry and he knows will cook something even if boring and gluten free.  When is the next "inspection"? So wonder those are nightmare inducing situations for me. 

The video says: "The more you bully yourself to clean the more you trigger the freeze response". That's true. I did move away from that silencing the voices from the past, but it's a problem for many ACONs. Rich women with white gloved fingers and endless money to pretty things up and for cleaning supplies, didn't have my life, at a certain point I shrugged and thought, "I will do my best!" Why should I be held to the same standards? Their advice to override the freeze response is helpful.  The "low demand" advice is good, do small pieces don't be overwhelmed by the whole thing. That's one reason I hate housework, the endless steps. Where the vlogger tells you to collect things into a laundry basket, this is one thing I've done for a few years. I take a big box, and just clear everything off, the table top, the floor, and then I can sort the box later, maybe even not the same day. This technique helped me a lot. He has other good advice too, "flood the brain with dopamine instead of cortisol". I plastered my apartment in art all over the place including art of friends, to help me on the dopamine thing. I have little art works to put up today, that part of cleaning is something "fun" to me.  Check the video out. This is a horrible problem for many ACONs and that advice in this video is good.

My old articles on cleaning

Diary of a "Conspiracy Theorist": The Epstein Files and a Society Gone Insane

 

This video has had almost 2 million views. Notice the connections that are outlined, both sides, both parties, and pay close attention to the stuff on Musk, Gates and Thiel. The vlogger wisely points out these are the "elite of the elite" making present day decisions on our lives! He also points out how many of these influential people remained by Epstein's side even after they knew he was a p*do.

It looks like the conspiracy theorists were right again. Our leaders really are that bad. They don't care about you or me. They are out for profit and power and abuse both to harm others. 

One thing I notice reading their emails that have been shown, is bad grammar, lack of deep ideas, connection and humanity. They are boring, shallow and vapid as they trade millions of dollars like candy. 

                                                Yes, that's it indeed

                             "a theoretical chart about who rules the world"

As people here know, I am to many, what some people call a "conspiracy theorist". The term reality theorist applies more. My life has grown weird watching things I used to warn about on a conspiracy and bible prophecy blog come true. Around 2014, I put a comment on my own blog, that they would rally the whole planet against threats like VIRUSES.

I became "new world order" aware in the late 90s. It had to do with reading this book on Waco and reading anti-war literature. I watched some X files too. When I was young I read all sorts of esoteric books ranging from Carl Jung to Theosophy which impacted my world view in piecing things together. When I had my faith troubles, I even backed away for a time questioning conspiracy. However I realized, the system really had something majorly wrong with it. Some of the conspiracies were true. Conspiracy people talked about the elites being Luciferian creeps as far back as the 2000s. They would write essays on Kubrick's Eyes Wide Shut movie and it's deeper meaning. 

The Epstein files have dropped. The list contains endless celebrities, politicians from both parties, and heads of corporations. I hope some have kept up with the news but many heinous crimes have been exposed. I can't write about what has been exposed here. The vlogger above gives general information. I don't want another post taken down. Mainstream news has talked about the Epstein Files now. Just go google it.

Avoid playing the embedded videos at this link, I didn't watch them myself! This link will bring up how pandemics were mentioned in the Epstein files, it wasn't good. Gates is all over this stuff. 

BREAKING: The Epstein Files Illuminate a 20-Year Architecture Behind Pandemics as a Business Model—With Bill Gates at the Center of the Network

All the names in Epstein's black book, you can see the flight manifests on this website too.


One interesting fact about the Epstein Files, is within in them, the creeps discuss pandemic planning. Those of us who did not trust authority or the creeps in charge are far better off. 

Here's one of the picture of the files. I hope to God, the truth is out there now about the Covid shots, but I felt like passing out seeing another friend said she is getting one this week! How'd she miss the latest news?

I'm of the belief the Epstein Files are being used in some way. A distraction? Perhaps to get people riled up for something like an Arab Spring in America? Epstein was most likely an intelligence asset of some sort. Our debauched leaders are just like Genghis Khan; they are the same thing doing sick things because they can get away with it and they have no consciences. These types don't care about women, and children. People are chattel to them and have been for centuries. Some people wrote and warned that the Epstein Files are to get people to tear down the old system to replace it for a false "great awakening" and turn people towards a new system of AI, and other controls. One claimed it would be the way to transfer everything to the WEF or another system of government to control us even worse. Some old time conspiracy theorists, claimed it was an "order out of chaos" approach and others claimed it was a psych-op like this guy below. If one reads enough Doug Valentine books and explores other writings about the world, they will know many of the extremely wealthy have profited from wars, illegal drugs and human trafficking. 

He's right about our institutions being corrupt.  I have my own theories too. Maybe one approach is to desensitize people to the most evil things and rip down people's souls and hearts with endless evil stories. Maybe it is simply so they can get glee at rubbing their unprosecuted crimes in our faces with the message, "We can do anything we want!"  The whole internet seems designed to elicit constant mental outrage and angst. The propaganda, algorithms, and emotional manipulations has gotten tiring.  The famous are annoying, boring and now loathsome. 

Don't look at those files too close, I shut things down after looking at a few articles and pictures to protect myself. They are bad for abuse victims. Others should be cautious too.  Pray for more children to be rescued. Maybe this is a distraction that gets them off the hook for Covid and poisoning millions of people with Covid shots. The news seems to be endless distractions and "Look over there!" mandates. Are they going to do more alien crap now like they did when they claimed there was stuff in the sky like the Atlas Comet, Northern Lights and drones? Gates/Big Pharm and others got their giant money clean out and turned society totalitarian and towards being a police state. See anyone demanding justice over Covid anymore? No one's been arrested, Prince Andrew was, but that's the only one I know of. Maybe a few EU politicians were. 

"Follow the money" is one saying.

Society has taken a path that disgusts me. Nothing was the same after Covid. I don't feel the same about other people given the endless betrayals and slavish devotion to wicked leaders.  I escaped into art which helped me in daily life. I also have my own religious beliefs to make sense of things. Sadly most of the population is brainwashed and believes in this system even after all this being exposed. 

It's hard to know who to trust or what are lies or aren't lies. My general outlook is not to trust any leaders anymore. Why would anyone at this point? But they do. 

American society with the poverty and more has become a dystopia. Are any institutions trustworthy anymore?

I'm figuring out how to escape mentally and otherwise. Even with the conspiracy stuff while I still read some things, I only have so much control over what is done. So it's better to live ones life focusing on what one can control and improve the world in some small way even if it is ruled over by scum. This society has become a poisonous one, filling the mind with negative things and horrors beyond belief. There's little sanity or reason anymore. There's no adults in charge, only debauched sickos. Maybe some local politicians are real and not owned by the WEF, but things have certainly declined.

 Celebrities grossed me out years ago. I open a People magazine and barely know who two-thirds of them are. I haven't had up to date TV in three years, everything I watch is at least 20-30 years old on Pluto. You Tube is the only exception. Some commercials pop up here and there on the internet and more and more I'm glad, it's a good thing I'm too poor to afford up to date brainwashing via the tell-a-vision. Another escape for me has been old books, the older the better but even the 50s-70s will suffice for more sanity and when people still had some moral foundations. I still read independent zines too. Now the zine world can lean liberal but there's still some old school liberals who write about decent environmental real world issues like water sheds and other hobby-related stuff. 

 I suppose for me this became the art world and time with friends though I still wish I could find a church that weren't slavish devotees to the system. I wondered if my old minister at the second IFB is glad he got his war with Iran. 

My husband is NOT into conspiracy theory. He thinks the present system can still be saved. I thought who is going to do the saving? He believes in the progressive wing of the Democratic party. Sure there's a few old school liberals out there, but I consider them rare as Dodo Birds. He told me, "You need to stop watching those doom prophets on YouTube!" He thinks they are a "bad influence". I told him, "Well one reason I watch some of them, is these are the only people who will talk honestly about the economy [well outside that really small town I escaped to sometimes] and talk about what is happening". I also told him, "Well I may curb back on some of that stuff, if society does collapse into an AI even more hellish dystopia, what can I do about it? We need to enjoy what we can of some life."  I still need to ask him what he thinks of this Epstein stuff. I know the Epstein revelations have woken up some friends recently. It's gotten both MAGA folks, and liberals to question the two party system more than ever seen before.

Demoralization has taken over the land, like the powers that be want everyone depressed, sad and feeling like all is lost. I felt frustration with some of the vloggers I was watching, "How come you lot never come up with solutions?" I wish I was in better health to exact some change. Even for all of us being poor as dirt, how come no one is setting up soup kitchens, or groups to share resources? I looked up mutual aid societies, I supposed those are happening here and there, but I'm surprised there's not more. How come no one is dropping out yet or forming parallel societies? Maybe they are and I just don't know about it. Will any of the "no kings" people protest the Epstein crap, or will it still be brainwashed signs where they can't admit Clinton, Democrats and liberal celebrities were a part of that system as well?

My articles on my conspiracy past are all over this blog

 One reason, I am not in a new evangelical church, is I can't see me going for Mrs. Kirk speeches, and lectures by Dave Ramsey. One online friend who is not a Christian, says the elite manipulate using religious things, that is not beyond the realm of possibility in my book. Her theory is that they use "Satanic panic" to steer society and create outrage and horror for control. Evil and Satan are real, but I see this as a possibility. Even I was rolling my eyes at a certain point at some of the "entertainment" crap, thinking when's the devil going to jump the shark, seeing one disgusting display by Sam Smith. Satan's workers abound, but I thought words like.... "cheesy".

                                             Isn't there a point this stuff gets obvious and boring?

Hmm had the thought now, in this sick society: "They are eating the cats and dogs" has now via Epstein become "they are eating the people?" [yes seriously that discussion is in there, but don't dig too deep for your own sake] They've proven the crimes against children and women by Epstein and pals, but I don't know if some of the other stuff is true or not.

There's probably a reason I got shadow banned from X, posting memes like this one:

Is there anyone like me out there that thinks "You are all full of crap" and remember Trump did a few things I agreed with like the USA leaving the WHO. Trump also last night talked about the economy booming. Gaslight city still. 

The liberal world would betray as much as the "conservative" world would. 

Anyone getting a clue yet that a society managed by the debauched isn't going to head in a positive direction? Some say well world leaders have always been evil. Maybe so, but they didn't have the level of technology we have today. 

Remember this article?

Me and Revelations

Still agree with this one. Never thought the world would go this insane. This verse is applicable when thinking of our world leaders. "Spiritual wickedness in high places" is obviously a given. Whatever these people are guilty of, they aren't like ordinary people. Their power and money has led them to evil places. 

I also thought of this verse when this Epstein stuff came out:

 Truth-tellers and Truth seekers don't have an easy path in this world. Normies don't think things like "There's something wrong with this world!" or ponder the possibilities of this being a prison planet. They still think world leaders are well intended. Maybe suffering opens up one's eyes to the reality of the world or brings people to question it. A lot of people don't trust the conspiracy theory world. There is a dark side to it. They can use conspiracy to lie too, there's conspiracies I consider complete bunk like the Mandela Effect meant to make people distrust their own memories and others that just bring fear. That said, conspiracies where people plan evil things are real. We have a thin sliver of people who have a huge amount of power and money, they are not good people. I don't know exactly that everything being exposed about the Epstein Files is true, especially the more extreme stuff, but there's been enough proven in courts, to know women and children have been abused. That means psychopaths are running this place. 

I will never understand why people trusted this jerk:

People don't even know the WEF exists and how all the results of life lately seem to be what they want.

Carlin summed things up well

and they called all the people crazy who said, that our leaders are evil........and may be up to no good....

GATES_COMPENDIUM_CHRONOLOGICAL_NUCLEAR.pdf - Google Drive

Epstein's investments with Thiel

I don't have many answers on this stuff. I will still write about world events, but in real life I plan to disengage from the system as much as possible, art is something I have focused on as of late. If someone is in the Epstein files, I refuse to watch their movies, that would include Woody Allen and others. I shut off my TV when I see one of these people on the screen, and no longer read or watch the words of politicians and others that were involved. Bill Clinton disgusts me as much as any politicians on the right. I don't want my emotions manipulated. It's kind of like "no contact". Why be "in contact" with psychopaths? Famous ones or not? They have nothing to say to me because they are "people of the lie".  One reason society has gone insane, is they no longer believe that good and evil exist, they have no discernment and have become fodder for psychopaths.