This Article Sums Up How I Feel About Covid

 The Violence of the Mandate Intensifies the Psychology of Trauma: A View from New Zealand

As I wrote, a history of PTSD/CPTSD and Covid are not a good mix. I mourn my former walk into recovery that is being challenged by all this garbage. I am against all violence except legal self defense, but to be frank many of us feel like the powers want to harm us. The months of being told disabled life is "unworthy" especially fat people is another side issue that the eugenicists pushed upon us. I have discussed fleeing to another country such as Mexico with my husband but our money and resources are low.

I do know I would have to flee if they ever decided to force shots on people like me or take away disability or other things I've seen being done in other countries. I am discussing a few of these issues very lightly with some friends but it makes me sad, that the majority of people in my life, still support all this. As the government mandates, lockdowns and more are failing and we have been denied treatments such as IVM, or even researched new ones, I believe society is in danger of collapse.  Some people are waking up but it's still too few. I hope everyday the obvious cannot be denied.

The edges are already fraying. It is a repeat back to my former abuse, the flashbacks of times in Chicago digging for food in trash cans, and other attempted violence against me has come back. My life is still "stable" now, aka paid for rent and basic bills, but honestly there's no feeling of safety for me in such a world. There are far more people in worse situations than me who are facing even more drastic life problems such as cancer, worse economic despair, and their needs have become ignored as everything has become about the Covid narrative and it's failed response. 

"As a practicing psychologist, I work with many survivors of abuse; and I have heard from a number of them that they experience this situation very much like former experiences of sexual or physical abuse—someone who has a power-over relationship with them is essentially saying to them, “Either you let me inject this substance into your body against your will, or I will severely punish you [i.e., take away your livelihood and possibly many other freedoms].”

Sound like an extreme analogy? For many people, this is exactly what it feels like. Fortunately, not everyone experiences this dilemma so acutely, but most people still experience it as a traumatic event to some degree nonetheless.

In addition to the threat of the loss of your livelihood, you also experience a threat to your essential human rights, and a threat to the human rights of nearly everyone in your community more generally. You probably have some awareness of the many slides into totalitarianism that have occurred within human history, and the pattern of the steady erosion of freedoms and human rights that typically precede such descent into tyranny. 

You are probably also aware of the more extremes of such cases, in which one section of the population was scapegoated and ostracised or even subjected to massacre and genocide. So now having very little trust in your government, and experiencing a serious violation of the human rights of yourself and others, your fear and associated threat response is likely to grow even further. You find yourself face to face with a very serious and potentially overwhelming traumatic event.

So if you’re someone experiencing such a traumatic event, how do you imagine you would respond? First, you’re likely to fight, to form allies with others in the same boat, to do your best to harness power and resources and fend off the threat (i.e., find a way to maintain your livelihood without having to violate the sovereignty of your body with a potentially harmful substance). 

When it appears that you may not win the fight, you may fight back even harder. Like an animal pinned in a corner, you may feel compelled to resort to violence in some way. If the fight fails, you may try to ‘flight,’ run to some other country that would not force you to face the same threat, but this is not a viable option for many New Zealanders (or many others around the world). "