Memes For The Unraveling of Modern Life

The other week, I had to emergency purchase a filter for my air cleaner, the other one was getting old. When you are poor, more on that later, you simply don't get things done. I'm glad I got it in time, because our air here was so dirty. I felt like I was eating dirt, and scared to death the asthma would kick in. BTW I don't want to say where I live but the smokey dirty air is over a wide swathe of the country.

I believe the fires were set on purpose, by arsonists etc, so they can get the public to panic over the environment and they can push Agenda 21 and Climate Lock-downs. I guess now they got us locked down over germs, on and off, they'll do it now with dirty air. This is more severe abuse for the disabled by the way, they don't care about people like me with bad lungs. I am 50 something years old, and we have never had smoke come from Canada. I'm tired. This weekend, my town is supposed to have AQIs over 100. [note: I wrote this earlier, we actually hit almost 300, and yes I wondered if I was going to die soon and had to remain within the bubble of an air cleaner to stay alive for over a week.]

Life sure is funny lately, I never expected that when things went really pear-shaped that everyone

would continue BAU or business as usual. I have stopped talking about "bad" stuff around people and keep it just for online and the inner sanctum of home. It's weird, I wonder if people on the Titantic all acted like the parties would never end. It just occurred to me, since the powers that be seem to want to burn down Canada and poison our air with smoke, now I have to check the AQI along with the temperature to go outside.

A swath of purple and red slices across the country, and New York City had Orange skies and no one at least on my Facebook seemed to care. It's weird. People have gone into this weird denial place where nothing "bad" is to be discussed. This was one thing that separated me quite a bit from local groups including the UU. One or two people were exceptions but I watched people party hearty while I felt like my life was collapsing. Even today my UU is doing a service on "Dancing", and I had the thoughts hmm "dancing" while the world burns. The think positive crap has really done a disservice to society. I used to warn about this years ago.

The above meme is a good one. I am politically homeless, but one reason that happened is because the left sure leaped onto the censorship train, It applies to the other side too. If your side makes rules that can be abused, one day they will be. 

Bob Malone is a cartoonist I follow, here's one of his good cartoons. I like the people busting out to freedom, but sadly I think rural areas are not immune to the building totalitarian system. I think those who can live off the land and self reliantly will be far better off. I sadly am not one of them. Small rural towns have very few jobs and some are collapsing on the vine.

It seems like every bad dystopian movie is coming true all at once from Children of Men, to Utopia, to 1984. Maybe that's why they kept showing us that stuff to wear us all down and normalize crappy hard lives. When the Jetsons predicted good things to come, the future ended up sucking instead. I wonder now why scientists never work on anything to help people. Why'd they even waste time in the lab on this transhumanist evil crap?  Old diseases like cancer and lupus continue unabated but this is what they spend time on? 

The powerful are busy cleaning out the tills. They don't care about you or I. The money clean-out is happening and we know that's all they care about is money. Just look around. They want to take it all and don't want you to have any.  Realize how the ultra wealthy have just become even more wealthy. Many of us Americans live in places, where ruins are popping up. This includes both rural areas and inner city areas, abandoned houses, dead malls, busted up parking lots, old long closed factories, the landscape is not a beautiful one. Things are dying. For some of us all we have to do is look around. Covid created the biggest money clean-out in history, there's a reason they got most of the liberals mesmerized by the "rainbow" flag parade and drag queens and the conservatives harkening back to realities that no longer exist, who can afford the land or farm anymore for self-reliance?

This meme is interesting, yes to some of us who "wake up to the matrix", all the stuff they tell you will make you happy seems to be a lie.  Life can seem like a joke. Some of the more spiritual know the career success and social status can vaporize instantly. We don't see the celebrities the same way, we just see them as mostly debauched types who sold their souls. See any celebrities except extraordinarily rare one speak out against any of the present nonsense? There's a reason for that. Some conspiracy types theorize there are actual ceremonies and such, to join the elite. All I know is their power and money seems to cancel out a conscience. I think of all the people were famous who pushed the clot shots on the populace. 

I don't tell people IRL I am into conspiracy theory or what some of my real beliefs are. It's like living a double life. My opinions ARE controversial. In society, I try to be very careful or I just make hints about stuff. I can lay a few crumbs out with some smarter folks, hoping they will follow and read up on things on their own, mentioning authors, ideas and other things but you can't be too heavy-handed. A lot of people are overworked. Some of us autistic hermits had time to study a lot of weird stuff that average people don't get time to read up on too. Often people will call you "crazy". Some conspiracy is bullcrap, diversions, and political propaganda, but the world doesn't work the way the TV says it does. Some of us figure that out. Most don't. 

 Maybe some pick up on the hints. I learned long ago trying to tell people 9-11 was an inside job and about other stuff was usually a mistake. One old Christian friend told me only 3 percent of all people wake up to how this world is really run and the majority can't handle dealing with the truth of this world, and how so much is based on lies.

It does give me kind of an odd life, where I have to be cautious about what I say. Most believe leaders are benevolent which always boggles my mind, weren't they sitting in history class with me too learning about Mao and Stalin murdering multi-millions with planned famines, wars and more? Everyone knows about Hitler's evils too. There have been endless genocides.

Speaking of Pharmaceutical evils, why doesn't anyone remember that stuff about Thalidomide and what it did to babies, why would you be willing to line up for anything that wasn't tried and true? They never heard of black box drugs that went off the market because they gave people heart attacks and strokes. It always shocked me the level of trust people have in bad leaders.

Sometimes I think maybe us ex-scapegoats can discern evil quicker, maybe because we got lied to so much and saw all the techniques first hand. The people running the Covid nonsense always have those narcissistic sneers and "Duper-Delight" looks on their faces that are so familiar to many of us who escaped abusive households! Fauci and my mother probably could be great pals. 

This meme applies to me in my 50s. My parents lived a completely different life than I did. My father even spent thousands on a muscle car he never finished and tinkered on in the garage.  I have this old cookbook my parents put together and my father gave me a copy. Their diet was even rich, with endless desserts. It boggles my mind how did my mother constantly ate Texas Sheet Cake, Dirt Cake made with Oreos, Shrimp Scampi, Barbecued Ribs, and all the foods I remember them having in my childhood and teens and stay under 200lbs. More and more I think weight has nothing to do with food intake. CICO is a joke. I don't make or eat desserts but even if I did, never could afford the wide array of groceries all that food would take. Like this guy, groceries seem to be purchases that have to be recovered from and he wants a Pokeman game he wants to buy but almost needs to move into a cardboard box to have it. 

I had to sell a painting to have enough groceries this week. I'm glad I did. I will blog about this later but we are falling back into poverty. The inflation has crushed us. I have all these medical bills piling back up--they doubled all my co-pays in the last two months too.  He has a contract job until the end of July and then some lower paid freelance. What is scary even when he's on his lower paid freelance, the insane subsidized housing world, thinks that's too much money even though we can't survive on it. The 80% AMI buildings where the income limits aren't so low, are rare, I only found one far away from medical care. If anyone has any advice about senior and disabled housing, I'm all ears.

I can't say to husband, "Make less money!" when we are barely surviving. I had the thought if I do go into subsidized housing every time we sell a little ebay or art or something, we would have to report it where the rent would get raised. Our income goes up and down too. What a mess.

Try being 50 something years old, wondering if you should move to Appalachia or a remote town in the middle of fly-over country just to survive. I'm considering moving to the backwoods again, to be around more unvaxxed and independent thinking people but then I need things like a kidney specialist. My old small town is an hour away from medical specialists, I would spend every dime on medical travel saved on rent. What if the car broke down? Even there, the town and too many other jacked the rent to almost what I pay here.  Yesterday I joked should I put names of towns on a card, and throw a dart at it. One town wants to pay people to move there. How bad is it? I did notice the rent was around 800 for a two bedroom.

Sometimes I am in awe at the lives of the wealthy boomers have around me, their lives are so rich and full. None of them are worried about this Covid stuff at all, they just go on vacations, and see their endless relatives. I don't relate to them. 

A lot of them are nice people, that's the crazy thing, around those folks, I have to make sure not to talk about too dark of stuff, they are cool with art and writing. How do people get so well off? It seems a long term stable job, inheritances, and secure living is like building blocks from their 20s on. They weren't hanging out with the rats in Chicago getting mattresses out of the trash.

There's some people who are poorer when young who are able to get lives back on track, but outside of approaching the edges of working class stability, we never have managed it. When you get this old, the dreams are starting to vaporize, inside you want to be a "real person" too. I told my husband I don't care about being rich, I'm fine with a simple life, but now that they want to take my simple life away, that's depressing me. First they came for the social life, I managed to build up even with severe disabilities. Now my very survival again is in danger. I'm tired. There's a lot of time I wish I was born in another country and in another life.

It's weird it's like my reality doesn't match anyone I am around, and sometimes wonder if that has been bad for my mental health. While I have friends online I can talk to and a very few in real life with most, my head hurts because their reality is so different, that really makes for walking on eggshells. 

I can't be the only poor one after Covid, in fact I have the theory there's millions of homeless people now and they've managed to paper over the real poverty out there, Hunger Games style. Homeless people in my state go couch surf or hide in tents in the woods, some states the homelessness is far more obvious, and the tent cities are proliferating like mushrooms. 

Those who are Enneagram 4 [5 wing for me] also can be prone to something called ENVY, which I admit is a problem, but there's times lately where life can be very lonely especially if you are poor person living among far wealthier people.  It made me sad the other day, I may have to move to YET another town, because this one is gentrifying and the rent is skyrocketing. It feels like another message of YOU DON'T BELONG. No life stability for me. Sometimes I worry those dreams of cooking beans in can over a fire grille will come true but don't know if poverty or apocalypse is going to bring it first.

Ah yes economics, when I take the political tests, I'm at the very bottom corner of the left but then this stuff is limited. My belief in politics is vaporizing, they control and steer every demographic but obviously those of us on the more libertarian side of things that value freedom and freedom of movement, we see the dark days ahead. All politicians suck. The left failed me. Biden is a total senile creep with a pervert with a son. Bernie was all talk and no action. Trump was horrible as well. Owning nothing sucks. I love how they try to push it as something great. 

The environment is screwed. Why sugar coat it? I can't go down the conservative nothing is happening high way, because I have noticed all the missing insects and wildlife over the years like all the fireflies that used to be everywhere even 15 years ago at dusk. I don't see the United Nations Sustainability crowd fixing any of this though.  Bill Gates wanted to block out the sun, maybe he got his wish. They don't give a damn.

 I even wondered if the billionaire globalists busy with genociding us, defend it in their own minds that they are saving humanity and saving the earth. The air is now smoke-filled because, Trudeau belongs to the WEF and they want their "climate change lock-downs". Now I don't only have germs keeping me inside, but now smoke. We went to my garden and I wore the damn mask because the air was dirty It was around 100 aqi, it was 70 when we left, but I could taste the grit and plastic. It was the first time I left my apartment in a week.

I can concede some fires started from drought but it's weird how all events seem to serve the elite isn't it? Didn't Canada have droughts before? I'm an old woman and my green state full of water never has become a smoke-filled mess. They used to do things like actually put out the fires and use those planes with buckets before everything got out of control.  Everything goes their way. 

 Nothing makes sense anymore. That much is sure. I do believe society is collapsing. Sometimes I think well try and enjoy life as much as I can before I'm sent off the camp or living in the woods because they shut off my digital bank account for refusing the latest clot shot. How can I even explain it, that all the bad stuff I warned of 15 years ago on a bible prophecy and conspiracy blog is now happening? Hey we all watched those dystopia movies too.